Pointe shoe quiz 06-07-2010

These shoes were made for what company?

This one is difficult. You may not have enough information from this image to get the answer, but you guys are pretty resourceful.

NymphGel, doorknobs and me

A doorknob sanitary sheath

My experience with NymphGel: I asked Jeff to let me try NymphGel. He was reluctant to let me, but eventually gave in because he has just reduced the amount of the active ingredient in it to the point that they think flashbacks will be far rarer and much less intense than with the Block 2a version that caused the volunteers who were trialing the initial version such problems.

It’s so intense it’s disorienting! Even masturbating is unbelievably intense and any phallic shaped object became a candidate for insertion. On the list of inanimate objects I was intimate with I managed to successfully fuck three doorknobs in my home while under the influence of NymphGel as well as the usual series of large dildos. And then I took Jacques, Peter, Pirate and Adolph the last of whom I actually thought was gentle which tells you how hyper I was. Fortunately I have a very stretchy vagina and had been prepping with a topical estrogen cream for more than a week, but even then getting the knob through my pelvic opening w/o causing severe bruising was tricky. I had taken 600 mg of ibuprofen before applying NymphGel knowing I was probably going to do some things I wouldn’t otherwise attempt and I had Anya stay with me in case I became self-destructive. My stallions enjoy menstrual sex so my being menstrual was a plus for them though it was messy when I mounted the doorknobs because I had to remove my gas guard since the knob fits behind my pubic bone where the anterior rim of the GG normally sits.

Doorknobs: I hadn’t fucked a doorknob since I was at SAB in 1988. Earlier, when I was in ballet boarding school in upstate NY some of the girls who had gymnastics backgrounds were far more flexible than me and routinely fucked their dorm room doorknobs after stretching condoms over them. But just so no one had more bragging rights than me I mounted my share and the challenge of being able to do it again occurred to me a few minutes after inserting the applicator of NymphGel into my birth canal. Being petite at 5’4” even with long legs I had to use a folding kitchen step and stand en pointe to get high enough to fit the knob between my labia as I held them spread with my fingers. Anya was thinking fast enough to talk me into rolling a Trojan Magnum XL lubricated latex condom over the knob before I mounted it, not that I wasn’t already well lubed with NymphGel, but it avoided the possibility of getting metal particles, oil and bacteria from the knob in my vagina and blood and NJ all over the knob.

Once in position the trick was doing pelvic thrusts onto the knob hard enough to get it past my pelvic bone w/o toppling backward off the step. After the knob was past my pelvic bone I could relax because the upper part of the knob was behind my pubic symphysis and held me snugly against the door. Then it was just a matter of contracting my vaginal muscles around the knob to stimulate my G-spot which was the easy part since anyone able to ripple grip a man can easily masturbate to a vaginal orgasm with something the size (2.0 inch diameter) of a doorknob. In the past I’ve had to concentrate to prevent panicking into severe vaginal contractions and clamping myself on the knob so tightly I can’t get off. With NymphGel I never felt at all anxious and thought I was always in control, which is one of the ways NymphGel clouds a girls mind.

In my defense, while in school I once forced a small coke bottle up my vagina on a bet so I knew I wouldn’t have a problem with a doorknob. It’s only been two days since I inserted a single application of NymphGel, but I haven’t had any intense flashbacks that I can’t handle though I have had some small ones that make my pelvis tingle and cause me to lick my lips and salivate when I look at doorknobs. Given no major flashbacks I think it’s safe for me to go diving with a gas guard inserted as I really need dive-sex.

Vaginismus and doorknobs: There was a girl in ballet school who I was competing with for Alpha in our circle of friends. We had a contest to see who could fuck the large doorknob on the Head Mistress’s office door while our circle watched. It was on a weekend evening I had a key to the Admin wing so we went in and locked the door behind us. We wrapped the knob in kitchen wrap since no one had a condom large enough to put on it. I went first w/o much trouble except a little bruising because I was still using the topical estrogen cream I used in order to be able take the coke bottle. It was only my third doorknob and the largest - being 2 ½ inches in diameter – that I’d tried. Fortunately it was low enough to the floor that with our long legs and en pointe we could reach it while standing on the floor.

My competitor in the contest while larger than me had a smaller pelvic anatomy and while she managed to mount the knob she couldn’t dismount. She needed to pull up in her shoes to get the knob out from behind her pubic bone and couldn’t do it and in the process of squirming she developed a class 1 tear. She had an anxiety attack and had severe vaginal muscle contractions (a form of vaginismus) and clamped down on the knob so she couldn’t move. We had to call the school nurse who called the doctor on call who got her strapped to a vertically positioned stretcher and administered a sedative while someone from housekeeping came to remove the other side of the doorknob assembly so she could be pulled off the door with the knob still stuck inside her. The doctor gave her nitrous oxide to anesthetize her while he removed the knob. Her urethra and bladder were badly bruised from the weight she put on the knob when she ‘sat in her shoes’ (put her weight on her heels) that caused her to slouch down and put most of her weight on the knob. And the class one perineal tear required several stitches. We tried to keep the administration from telling her parents but couldn’t and she was withdrawn from school. The good news was that I became the undisputed Alpha in my circle.

Rubber, lust and euphoria

Manic-euphoria under the influence of NymphGel

Latex and lust: Jeff’s laboratories had been working on a product to treat depression but it appears to be better suited for jump starting a sexually suppressed woman’s libido. He started with pheromones from male perspiration and has increased the strength by an enrichment method that customizes the male molecules. The research project is called ‘Lust’ and limited trials have had considerable success. However some women are more sensitive to it than others and an overdose can cause severe problems in yet another instance of too much of a good thing being dangerous.

NymphGel: His labs have a developmental contract to customize the chemical formulation to increase the strength of the side effects by gene-splicing to more directly affect a woman’s endocrine system. As I mentioned it was initially developed for use in treating severe depression. However, in clinical trials it was found to be ineffective for depression, but was found to have an unanticipated side effect of sending the patients libido into overdrive. If developed (to the point that the results can be controlled) it may be used as a chemical agent in physiological and chemical warfare to control or disable women. Right now a woman treated with Lust not only will have a euphoric sexual encounter with anything she can get in her vagina, but have flashbacks afterward sending her into a sexually manic-euphoric state and the flashbacks can occur as much as a week after as little as a single application of the product. It’s pretty amazing to watch an experienced escort with an A-type personality who thinks she is in total control get mind-fucked by her own body. The flashbacks have proven to be the most worrisome side effect (for a commercial product) and extremely dangerous because suddenly going manic-euphoric when reasoned thinking is called for can be fatal. So far the flashbacks seem to be dose related. Below some threshold they don’t seem to occur, but that threshold differs from woman to woman.

For test purposes the formulation is being added to the silicone lubricant Jeff sells as DiveGel. This formulation is being tested as ‘NymphGel’ and is usually applied in the vagina or anus. There is also a perfume version, absorbed through the skin - sniffing it gets it into a woman’s blood stream almost as fast as vaginal insertion. There is also a pill which is less effective because it has to pass through the digestive system so it takes a higher dose and longer to reach the woman’s bloodstream. The chemical appears to have no affect on men. Jeff is using several of our escorts as volunteers to test the perfume version and two of them became pregnant almost immediately, not because they didn’t take their birth control pills, but because the chemical blocks the absorption of the progestin in hormonal birth control so ovulation is no longer suppressed. Another volunteer died while using the NymphGel version when she had a manic-euphoric flashback during a practice dive. She removed her regulator at the bottom of a 20 ft deep training pool and drowned. She wasn’t wearing a spit-strap on her reg [like the volunteer in the image accompanying this entry] because she and her partner were practicing underwater fellatio and she fought off her male dive-buddy who was unable to get her to the surface until she was so starved for oxygen she was brain dead. NymphGel can obviously mind-fuck a woman, but robbing her of her willpower is a minor part of the problem when she overdoses.

My ME and gossip: Today I’m CD2 and having my secondary libidinal peak as I’m menstrual. I Switched to my Reflexions latex gas guard Thursday night and went for my first of cycle Menstrual Extraction (ME) at the clinic Friday morning. While I had my feet in the stirrups getting my endometrium sucked out I swapped gossip with my Gyn. She was telling me about the recent rash of asphyxia incidents in her neighborhood where two teen girls have died during bondage encounters because the couples were not taking the proper precautions while using gasmasks equipped with rebreather bags. In one instance it was a girl-girl encounter where the girl’s mom was giving her 17 y/o daughter a breath control lesson and things went badly wrong.

Her mom said later that she was trying to help her daughter train in restraints with a rebreather to get a role in a porn video by being active in breath control encounters with her boyfriend. The BF is a sometime adult media actor and has a financial interest in an upcoming underwater breath control video that’s being cast. The daughter was in her skin tight latex wetsuit with her wrists tied and her mom was controlling the valves on her rebreather bag trying to get her daughter to increase the length of time she could go w/o passing out when she suffocated. Her mom went to pieces and is in a psychiatric hospital under a suicide watch while they try to calm her down.

I think a lot of the fatalities are because obtaining gasmasks and rebreather bags is so easy, relatively inexpensive and they aren’t bulky to store, carry or hide as circumstances dictate. And, they have been around for use in defensive military applications or as medical apparatus and have come to be thought of as harmless, or at least not dangerous. I’ve commented before that in my experience rebreather bags are a male fetish and that women who use rebreathers are often doing it at the request (or insistence) of their male partner who gets off when his rubber-chick is encased in rubber and struggling to breathe as he plants his seed in her belly. It’s a male domination fantasy for sure!

But as I mentioned earlier a gasmask and rebreather bag is a quick inexpensive way to take a step up and get into reusable breath control equipment w/o having to worry about getting tangled in a plastic dry-cleaning bag or the expense and maintenance of latex encasement suits and hoods. Unfortunately, it seems little thought is given to having a workable escape plan if something goes wrong while a rebreather-girl is without air.

Pointe shoe Quiz 06-04-2010

Where are these shoes made?

Clueless in Phoenix

Clueless in Phoenix

Womens Rights
by Alex DiBranco May 17, 2010

Arizona Nun Excommunicated for Saving Woman's Life

“Sister Margaret McBride was an administrator at St. Joseph's Hospital and Medical Center; now she has been excommunicated and demoted, for the grave moral crime of acting to save a woman's life.

McBride was part of an ethics committee that decided to grant a life-saving abortion to a patient with pulmonary hypertension, a dangerous illness impacts hearts and lung function and can make pregnancy fatal. When Bishop Thomas J. Olmstead got wind that the procedure had taken place, he denounced it and took action against the nun; McBride was automatically excommunicated for the sin of "formal cooperation" with an abortion. Update: While Bishop Olmstead and the Catholic diocese claim that anyone who has an abortion or helps provide one is automatically excommunicated, RH Reality Check explains that this is simply not true.

The Catholic hospital stands behind the decision to terminate the 11-week pregnancy as necessary to save the woman's life. With recent news stories, I grow more and more frustrated with and opposed to the positions of conservative Catholic bishops and male church leadership, while admiring the courageous stands of Catholic nuns.

As Jos points out on Feministing, "a fetus couldn't survive if the woman died at 11 weeks — a fact that wouldn't change my feelings on saving a woman's life anyway, but it does show Olmsted's interest really isn't in saving life." And isn't it interesting that the Sisters of the Church and the Catholic Health Association supported health reform, instead of trying to derail it over misinformation about abortion provisions. So it's the women of the church and the actual medical professionals who aren't making it their top priority at every turn to keep women from getting abortions, while high-ranking men interfere trying to stop these procedures, even at the cost of sacrificing a woman's life. Who is really pro-life here?

At the very least, a life-saving abortion such as the one in question should be accepted by the Catholic Church as an act of self-defense. As the Catholic Church's Catechism says: "Love toward oneself remains a fundamental principle of morality. Therefore it is legitimate to insist on respect for one's own right to life. Someone who defends his life is not guilty of murder even if he is forced to deal his aggressor a lethal blow." So why, for some elements of the Catholic Church, is the fetus' so-called "life" the only one sacred and worth saving? Why deny women the ability to defend their own lives, which the Church has stated is a legitimate aspect of morality.

And for Sister McBride and the hospital, approving a procedure to save the life of their patient was not only permitted but, if anything, duty: "Legitimate defense can be not only a right but a grave duty for someone responsible for another's life." McBride would have been wrong to deny the pregnant woman the ability to save her life — she had a grave duty to protect the patient in her care. Maybe Bishop Olmstead and the Catholic Church need to brush up on their Catechism.”

Personal Comment: The Most Reverend Thomas J. Olmsted Bishop of the Diocese of Phoenix [pictured at the top of this entry] is an almost perfect example of what is wrong with the Catholic Church today. The cloistered mindset of the all-male hierarchy in many cases is unconcerned about the lives of women while they play ‘Hide-The-Predator’ with priests who go around buggering little boys!

Pointe Porn

The erotic allure of sweaty Gaynors

Gaynors and Lust: In the comments section of my entry, ‘St Lucy’s Ballet intensive’ on May 28, a good friend and returning reader, Leigha, and I discussed the erotic allure of the dancewear clad body and of pointe shoes. There I wrote:

“I think a man’s interest in a woman in pontes has several components: The glove-like fit that lengthens the line of the leg and shows off the wearer’s arches and insteps. The Look of the ribbons wrapped tightly about slim ankles binding the wearers feet into her shoes (a bit of a bondage look there) and the scent of sweat dampened leather, cloth and paste of traditionally made shoes which alone for some of my partners is an aphrodisiac.”

However, for traditionally made pointes of leather cloth and paste the shoes take an often complicated process to break them in to mold them to the wearer’s feet. Over the life of a traditionally made shoe even with periodic re-hardening the blocks soften and the shanks come apart or break with wear so that after preparation and breaking them in a pair of shoes can die in as little as 15 minutes of performance time in some roles and then be useful only for class work at the barre.

Gaynor Minden shoes have blocks and shanks made of a very strong and heat sensitive elastomeric polymer and have built-in shock absorption by using advanced cellular urethane foam, PORON 4000 as an inner lining. This microporous polyurethane provides a durable high performance cushion that has excellent shock absorption properties. With its unique cell structure PORON 4000 circulates air and moisture vapor around the inside of the shoe while ensuring protection against the shock of pointework. To prolong the life of a pair of Gaynors I order mine with suede platforms because once the foam that covers the platforms begin to chip away and pits down to the polymer box the platforms become uneven and can be slick which could cause a fall.

I do find Gaynors a bit hotter to wear and since only the micro cell lining is absorbent the insides can get soggy if worn too long and does take them longer to dry after a long interval of use. But since once properly fitted a new pair requires no breaking in and they last at least three times as long as traditionally made shoes, in most cases and the shanks don’t break they are wonderful shoes, especially for demanding roles where the wearer is on her toes for long periods of time or for recreational use as when being penetrated from the rear while en pointe. This is where a Gaynor blocks internal padding is very useful because I can even wear them w/o toe-pads for rear entry pointe-sex when my feet have swollen. Then I can still be relatively comfortable when powerful thrusts lift me off my platforms only to be dropped back on my toes when he withdraws.

The scent of sweaty Gaynors: The scent of sweat dampened Gaynors is markedly different from the ‘Eau-de-Freed’ scent of damp fabric, leather and paste shoes. I think the scent of Gaynors damp with estrogenic sweat is something of an acquired taste. At least until a man can associate it with pointe-sex or some other erotic activity. The closest familiar odor I can compare it to is the scent of a recently removed silicone diaphragm or FemCap that still has the wearer’s vaginal secretions on it. Just as with cervical barriers the insides of Gaynor shoes really don’t have much of a odor themselves it’s the wearer’s fluids that give them their unique scent based on the pheromones in the woman’s perspiration which can be a powerful male aphrodisiac especially when the woman is fertile. In that sense I think Gaynors are sexier than traditionally made pointes because the woman’s pheromones aren’t masked by the odor of the damp fabric, leather and paste.

It’s not a scientific study of course, but I’ve noticed that I seem to attract more men for conversations when I’m wearing a pair of sweat dampened Gaynors than if I am wearing a damp pair of Freeds. The look of the shoes isn’t all that different except for the stitching around the edges of platforms and the lack of pleats which allows the block to be flatter and a cleaner vamp throat with no drawstring opening. A really nice thing about Gaynors is the side tie drawstring under the arch. That’s a very nice feature because there is no knot bump from the drawstring at the throat of the vamp which can sometimes be painful and it makes a lovely clean line of the throat of the shoe. I’m sure the guys who come on to me when I’m in Gaynors know the difference, but most men wouldn’t, they are just drawn to me by my curves and scent.

Ballet Intensive, Pt II - The Physical: Every prospective student who arrives for prep week gets a complete medical exam to ensure she can take the rigors of the course. A sports orthopod examines new bone density scans and does a hands-on exam of her feet, legs and back to ensure her skeleton can take the pounding of five weeks of intensive pointe classes and sex on her toes. A Gyn conducts a thorough pelvic to ensure there is no reason that she can’t safely enjoy penetrative sex and a cardiologist conducts stress tests to make certain her circulatory system can handle the exertion. In addition her endocrine system is checked to make sure her hormone levels are within normal limits.

We screen prospective students for IUDs well ahead of acceptance because we offer dive-sex as part of the Vegas ballet experience and as returning readers will remember a framed IUD can cause problems when a gas guard is used. Usually we are concerned if a student has an IUD inserted because most of the ones available in the U.S. (ParaGard and Mirena or their clones) have frames which can sometimes be bent by severe uterine cramps which can cause them to perforate the uterus or be expelled and the strings that protrude from the cervix can affect the seal of a gas guard and the gas guard can stick to the strings and pull the IUD out when removing the gas guard. The only IUD we allow a Ballet Intensive student to use is a GyneFix implant. We haven’t run into very many 17 and 18 y/os using IUDs and only one refused to switch to a GyneFix (if she was chosen) in order to stay in consideration for a seat in the course and was dropped from consideration.

Even when a student does well on all the physical tests there can be a major psychological shock because the girls are some of the most talented in the cities where they live and here they are being put in class with students their equal or better so we try to pair them with mentors where we can.

Pointe shoe quiz June 1, 2010

Who is the maker of these shoes?