The trip to Inverness and Ullapool

Spring in the mountains near Ullapool

Ullapool in the early spring: The Met office forecast for Ullapool on the 20th is for 8°C (about 46°F) with a 24 mph winds and heavy rain during the previous evening and day and that’s at sea level. Several thousand feet up at Location Z it will be freezing or below and with the wind the wind chill will be brutal! This is about what passes for normal at Loc Z. this time of year At least they aren’t calling for snow. I’m hoping the peat fires in the fire pits will make the site more hospitable during the initiation ceremonies than at the Winter Solstice, though everyone managed to survive that.

The trip out: I took delivery of my new Gulfstream 650, Limnaea II, several weeks ago, but hadn’t flown in it until now while I let the crews fly courier services for the government to make sure all the features were working as they should before we departed for Scotland.  I love the ‘new’ smell of the cabin, mainly from the leather of the seats. We stopped briefly at Dulles to deliver courier packages and top off our tanks before our flight to Inverness a bit more than 3,400 miles.

The flight was uneventful except for the marvelous sex with Willow who is really getting good at milking me with her talented tongue she knows me so well now had me so aroused she just inserted two fingers and got me off while breast feeding! She is awesome! Then I caressed the shaft of her clitoris, something she dearly loves, and after she came we snuggled and went to sleep in each other’s arms. What a marvelously restful night!

When we got to Inverness after a 8 hour flight from Dulles (with a brief stop at Stansted) it was 50° F and cloudy with good visibility. Jack and out male Gyn, Chris, were there to greet us with a convoy of four Range Rovers. They helped unload our things and off we went over the Mts. to His Grace’s hunting lodge in the hills below Location Z. Jack and I are going up to the site tomorrow, well later today, the 19^th as it’s midnight here so I can see the fire pits and plan how to distribute the incineration powder to get the best results.

I've been so Busy: So much else has been going that I haven’t written about acquiring my exquisite new jet. There just hasn’t been time what with Andrea’s blood clots from the failure of her gas-guard during dive-sex and getting comfortable with Brad, my new therapist, who is helping me come to terms with my responsibilities as a handmaiden to the Goddess Aphrodite and my role as Chief-Priestess at Location Z for the celebration of geophysical events which bring new life (read men) back to the old ways. Of course I’ve been helping Brad make his fantasy of being with his dead wife Jenna come true. At least while I’m dressed in her things and wearing her scent while on his arm or in his bed and especially while he is hard, long and deep inside me thrusting into my cervix. He is so blissed out when he’s inside me he wants it to never end. I’m so glad my participation in the vernal equinox festivities will give him a week away from me as he desperately needs the rest from sexual exertion.

I had intended to get a post off before we left Dulles, but with loading Fiona’s things and taking her aboard – returning readers will remember she is Jack’s sister – and who we dropped off at Stansted before going on to Inverness there wasn’t time.

 

Seduction in Bloch Alphas

New Bloch Alpha pointes from Jenna’s last order

Bloch Alpha pointes for Bea: A few days ago I had the Bloch rep stop by when she was in the area. She was delighted to fit Willow and Bea and said in the past week there had been increased interest in the S0104 style from local dance shops in the area.  Curiously, Bea seems to be adjusting to the Alphas more quickly than Willow, but then Bea was keener to try a different style shoe and loves the fetish aspect of purely satin sheathed heels.  The ¾ outer soles light shanks have given her a challenge to increase her strength enough to stay over the blocks during ballet-sex and she is managing that amazingly well in so short a time, but then she is wearing one pair or another of them and on her toes in them most of the time. She so wants to be like Willow who she has taken as her role model!

Seduction in Bloch Alphas: I’m not the only one who is sexually arousing men while wearing Bloch S0104s. Willow is using hers for performing and while not as enamored of the shoes as Bea she is using them to her advantage to seduce her audiences with her gorgeous legs and feet with fabulous results. The men in the audiences are wild about her pointes especially the ones where her coitial discharge, a mixture of her arousal lube, DiveGel+ and semen, drip on them while she is curtseying during curtain calls. I think it’s so strange that men want pairs of a woman’s shoes that have another man’s semen on them, but perhaps they overlook that in order to have a pair damp with the woman’s sweat as well as her vaginal secretions with their distinctive musky scent.

She has turned out to be a heartbreaker. Men in her audiences routinely try to masturbate while she is performing but some actually have ejaculated while still zipped up and most prematurely ejaculate if they have it in hand.  Some men in her audiences have offered her large sums for used pairs of her Alphas, but with her trust fund she doesn’t need the cash. I’ve counseled her against selling or giving them away because once you start then every man no matter how tenuous the relationship wants a pair and all the bother isn’t worth it.

When using the Bloch Alpha for fetish wear the indicator of very strong feet – which is the only women who should be wearing them - is to have as little stage or studio grime on the heels as possible indicating that the wearer is on at least quarter-pointe when flat. Try that some time, not putting your heels on the floor for long intervals of time when standing but you aren’t on pointe.

Death rubber diaphragms and The Lorelei: Another source of death rubber diaphragms for me has become Adolph’s spa, The Lorelei. As I wrote in an earlier post our clinic fits Guests at the Lorelei with flat spring rim latex Reflexions diaphragms for flood insurance protection during dive-sex. When the vagina floods as it often does during underwater sex the hydraulics of a partner’s thrusts can force water, or far worse an air bubble, into his partner’s uterus where the water can cause PID or the air bubble could migrate into the bloodstream and cause blood clots in the lungs, a heart attack or stroke. 

Most of the guests at The Lorelei are using hormonal contraceptives or are menopausal so use of a diaphragm for contraception by guests isn’t its primary function, its flood control. So I fit them with two sizes, one that they can comfortable wear when not aroused if they want to desensitize a dry land encounter to lengthen it a bit. The other is one a size larger for flood control during underwater sex that they can only comfortably wear while aroused. The larger size makes it almost impossible for even a masochistic sadist partner to under-thrust the rim. I began wearing one size larger (an 85mm) myself double bagged over an Oves so not even Adolph who is the only man I know who has the skill, determination and loves penile pain enough to be able to routinely under-thrust and enjoy ejaculating in the dome of a Reflexions correctly sized for contraception, meaning it can be worn after IC for eight hours w/o causing the wearer discomfort and a UTI.

Death by misadventure: The size is on the outside of the dome of each Milex next to the rim and comparing the two it is easy to see one is larger, but so many guests wear the smaller one into the encounter pools it has to be intentional. And with the number of women guests and the number of acts of underwater sex there are inevitably individual tragedies many of them occurring to German or Austrian women from wealthy families or members of their circles who aspire to being like their idols.

Too, in more instances than you might imagine, the younger women are being channeled into risky behavior by their older female family members. The risky behavior supposedly proving (to interested males) that they are from warrior class families and so would make a good match for a suitable Aryan male looking for a female partner willing to take physical risks for sexual thrills.  The Lorelei had an instance of that several weeks ago when an aunt brought her sixteen and seventeen y/o nieces to the spa for their initial ballet-sex and dive-sex encounters. Both girls had Nexplanon implants and both took 70mm for conventional fitting and/75mm Reflexions for flood insurance.

I fit the aunt with Reflexions in my sizes 80 and 85mm. The nieces followed my instructions and enjoyed having their brains fucked out repeatedly by Pirate’s escort divers. The aunt went into the encounter pool wearing the smaller size after instructing her escort to under-thrust the rim. She was menstrual and very aroused. During foreplay he had blown air into her vagina. He under-thrust the rim and compressed air got in the dome. When they surfaced it expanded, entered her uterus, got into her bloodstream and she had a massive heart attack during sex while floating on the surface.  I pulled the 80mm Reflexions from her vagina myself - to add to my collection of death rubber diaphragms - and inserted a new 80mm so the ME would see the proper size. The ME is used to seeing risky sex end that way and all the proper wavers had been signed holding the Business and its employees blameless for her death by misadventure.

Brad, Jenna, and the Succubus: Brad has begun to work out with a personal trainer, is taking energy supplements and as I mentioned in an earlier post he’s now on testosterone and performance enhancing meds. When I’m costumed in Jenna’s clothes, pointes and with her Milex 70mm Omniflex diaphragm inserted he is convinced I’m Jenna and I can easily sexually exhaust him regardless of how much stamina he has at the beginning of our encounter. Immediately afterward he falls into a deep sleep for hours.

It’s fortunate that I’ll be in Scotland for the next week or so which should give him time for at least a partial recovery before I return and Jenna’s Succubus continues to suck him dry. I think he is so into this Jenna fantasy he will eventually commit suicide so he can be with her.

Milex as a training diaphragm, prep. for the Vernal Equinox

A silicone Milex wide seal Omniflex diaphragm

The photo: A Milex wide seal Omniflex (coil spring rim) diaphragm. A common mold is used to extrude both Milex rim styles so the two indentations in the 8mm inner flange of the wide seal are where the fingers should be placed to fold the other, Arcing spring rim, style Milex contraceptive diaphragm.

Escorts, training assistants and training diaphragms: Training diaphragms serve several purposes. Things like decreasing the sensitivity of both an escort candidate and his training assistant so he can build his stamina for delayed orgasms. Learning effective techniques to under-thrust an All-Flex or Omniflex diaphragm on request or covertly. And for the women escort candidates how to wear a latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm as flood insurance, to prevent having water forced into her uterus during dive-sex.

Stamina building: To increase the effort needed to cause a woman to reach vaginal orgasm a silicone diaphragm of the proper contraceptive size can be worn. Silicone diaphragms have far poorer heat transfer properties that the latex devices they replaced so decrease the tactile sensitivity of male/female vaginal contact. Depending on the individual woman’s pelvic anatomy occasionally the rim of an Omniflex might rub against her G-spot when she’s aroused increasing her sensitivity. With training assistants who have this situation (I was going to say ‘problem’, but for most Milex wearers that would not be a problem) it can usually be eliminated by having the training assistant wear a diaphragm one size larger.

Since all our TAs have GyneFix IUDs implanted the too large training diaphragm can be removed immediately after the training session since there is no need to leave it inserted for a minimum of six hours after having semen released in her vagina. Removing the too large diaphragm immediately after the training session prevents the possibility of developing a UTI from being unable to empty her bladder completely due to the too large rim pressing on her urethra.

Under-thrust training: Two different sizes are used for training depending on the woman client’s desired scenario; either accidental under-thrust where a properly sized Omniflex is used or a breeding fantasy where a diaphragm two sizes too small is used to increase the likelihood and ease of a partner intentionally under-thrusting the rim and filling the dome with semen.

Gas guard/flood insurance: This is taught to both training assistants and to sexually adventurous female clients who come to Adolph’s spa, The Lorelei, for encounters with some of Pirate’s stable of stallions. A correctly sized device or perhaps one size larger latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm is worn to protect the woman from the possibility of having water forced into her uterus by the hydraulics of her partner’s thrusts during underwater sex.

If the woman is on another effective method of contraception the one size larger can be worn for the dive and removed immediately afterward to avoid the possibility of developing a UTI. With guests at The Lorelei diaphragms are usually fitted since they can be worn at any depth and Lorelei guests have access to Adolph’s deep water training facility. FemCaps can be fitted if the pelvic anatomy permits, but they are subject to painful squeeze below thirty feet.

Beware the Ides of March: Today Adolph’s 18 y/o niece had a serious accident while training with Adolph in his deep water training facility. Fortunately it occurred while he was with her so no one else can be blamed as his temper is legendary when something goes wrong. It was her fault as she had intentionally worn an Omniflex into The Well with him rather than the flat spring latex Reflexions she knew needed for maximum flood insurance protection. She told me later that she so loves it when her partner under-thrusts her protection, even though in her case it wouldn’t have resulted in a pregnancy even if she had been fertile because she has a GyneFix IUD implanted. I understand that feeling since I enjoy it too, though in my case if my Oves displaced while I was fertile I’d stand a good chance of conceiving.

When he took her in missionary at 125 feet while breathing Nitrox II she was a bit narced and her fantasy about having semen in the dome of her diaphragm combined to cloud her judgment and she didn’t object when he under-thrust the rim. During that encounter she had an air bubble forced into her uterus. She was on her period and some of the air formed a clot in her lung.  I’m CD7 today and she is cycling a few days behind me at the moment and was CD3 and bleeding heavily, the most dangerous time, when she got the clot. She is doing well enough in Adolph’s private hospital considering what might have happened, but will be on blood thinners and under observation for a few days. What that means is that she will not be going with me and my other wards to celebrate the Vernal Equinox on March 20^th at Location Z.

Smokeless fire: I’ve been working on my basic skills as a handmade of Aphrodite and I think I’ve mastered the formulation (with the help of Jeff at Labia Labs) of a special ingredient that can be sprinkled on wood and peat fires that will make them burn smokeless and nearly completely so there is almost no ash left. This will allow the use of the twenty large stone fire pits Jack found buried in the ground, four per altar, around the five altars at Location Z to provide warmth for the demi-handmaidens and me and our inductees. The fire pits had stone lids on them which is why they went undiscovered until recently and helps explain the distance between the main and secondary altars. Taking the smoke out of the peat fires while increasing the heat released will improve our comfort substantially while reducing the likelihood that we will be detected from the smoke if the weather happens to be clear. Jack already has pre-positioned stacks of cut blocks of dried peat under tarps in the provisioning area and the pits filled with the first blocks for the vernal equinox celebration.  The fires for this years vernal equinox will be the first in the fire pits in hundreds of years and other than improving our comfort I wonder what other effect they might have.

UNLV’s spring recess is from March 17-22 so we will be leaving for Inverness and Ullapool this coming Monday the 17^th.

International Woman’s Day 2014

March 8, 2014 is International Women’s Day

The goal: To give all women the opportunity to use their skills and talents to be all that they can be.

Sex with a Succubus - the dead wife fantasy

Jenna’s Bloch Alpha S0104 ¾ outer sole pointes

The Photo: My New psychiatrist’s, dead wife, Jenna’s, size 4 ½ Bloch pointes she wore throughout her cycle except when menstrual. As I’ve mentioned in an earlier post when menstrual she wore a 5 ½ in Bloch Alphas.

The dead wife fantasy: In my experience some virile men after losing a mate to death seek solace in fantasy sex and it happens more than you might think. But they often feel guilty about cheating on the memory of their mate. Brad’s wife had been a ballet dancer with the San Francisco Ballet when they met and married while he was in med school. He has photos of her in practice clothes and costumes in his condo and she was a lovely 27 y/o with a Balanchine body (long legs and neck, short trunk, small head and breasts and relatively big feet) when she died. He has repeatedly told me how much I look like her and from the photos of her in his home I could be her identical twin.

It turns out that beautiful Brad has a very active imagination and one of his fantasies is that I’m his dead wife and when we are alone he calls me Jenna. He has given me permission to use her dressing room and bathroom in their Condo when I share his bed. And I’m encouraged if not required to wear her clothes, jewelry and perfume. Nothing in her suite had been touched, except to be dusted and her last dirty laundry was still in her hamper with her scent still on it. I went through her lingerie drawers and closets and I have very similar tastes to hers. She had nursing bras and was still breast feeding when she died so we have that in common too. And just like me she also wore LilyPadz breast pads to help with leaking nipples. 

I meet him at his Condo for our sexual and psychotherapy sessions. Jenna’s small studio with a Marley floor, barre and mirrored wall was converted from a bedroom and can be reached through a connecting door from her dressing room.  I change into her practice clothes which fit me wonderfully well, empty my bowels and bladder, insert one of her Omniflex diaphragms and my sports plug and wear her scent. I come out of her dressing room into the studio where he is waiting for me and only then put on my pointes (Jenna’s Bloch Alphas) where he can watch. All during these sessions he calls me Jenna. After a 20 minute warm-up I change into her stripping costume and back in the studio put on Beautiful Dreamer which was one of Jenna’s favorites. The routine is about 3.5 minutes long and leaves me wearing only my Alpha pointes and plug.

I had intended to wear my own pointes as she wore Bloch in a slightly smaller size and I like hard shanked Gaynors when I’m having sex on my toes since then I don’t have to worry about proper technique and can put my weight on my heels and enjoy being made love to and concentrate on timing my orgasm with my partner’s which is always special being hurled into ecstasy simultaneously. But all that changed, at least while I’m Jenna and recently when I’ve gone clubbing with Brad while dressed in her things. When I tried on her Bloch Alphas I found that I love how they fit and with the ¾ outsole how well they display my high arches! I do just a tiny glamour charm – it’s easy to do with today’s cosmetics - so to him my face and body look and feel and my voice sounds exactly like Jenna’s. When I do that he is in my power and I can do anything I want with him or to him.

His penis is massive! It's wonderfully hard and dripping pre-ejaculate when I finish stripping down to my pointes and plug. He is so ready to take me!  I let him back me against the barre, remove my sports plug and slip it into my mouth as I fondle his testicles all snugged tight against his pubic bone with one hand and caress his nipples with the other while I suck my own secretions off my sports plug before I turn, to face the barre, go on pointe in second position, bend over and grip the barre with both hands and band over and relax my pelvic muscles as much as possible while on my toes so he can enter me. Jenna was one of the few classical dancers who had started wearing plugs to intensify male interest (she was fitted at Gepettos, I checked, and she bought it 6 months before she was killed) so I wonder how faithful Jenna may have been. But I’m certainly not going to mention that to Brad. I’m using my own sports plug as each is custom made to fit the wearer’s pelvic anatomy. Sucking on my sports plug muffles my screams if he rams my cervix tip to tip.

Bloch Alpha pointes for ballet-sex: I’ve written about this before but it bears repeating as there are readers of this blog who try to imitate my use of footwear, often to their sorrow after injuring themselves. Wearing Bloch Alpha pointes for ballet-sex should not be attempted by inexperienced women. Alpha pointes are for women very experienced in pointework advanced pre-professional students or at the professional level and then only by ones with very strong feet. Brad so wants me to wear her shoes when I’m on my toes while we make love, I was skeptical, but I’m glad I agreed to try as I love wearing her shoes! She had almost finished preparing a new order of shoes with ribbons and elastics so she has almost two dozen pairs. Many have already been broken in and are ready to go.

She had lost her baby weight and regained her stamina, I can tell from the level of her Chi, so she was planning a return to performing in the near future when she died though from her aura I can tell she hadn’t told Brad she was returning to performing professionally again. I’m so entheuastic about the Alpha style I’m going to selectively put some of my wards and women escort trainees in Alphas to increase the difficulty of their training. Both Bea and Willow have Giselle feet and strong arches and Bea could use the additional challenge so I’m going to introduce both of them to the Alpha style which I think they will like.

Channeling a ghost: I wear the same scents she wore; vanilla, Chanel #5 and Shalimar. I use the heavy spicy scent sparingly mixed with my fertile musk and dab it on my pulse points a combination that ensnares men from the slightest whiff.  Her tights and leotards fit me perfectly and she had quite a few thong-back leos for practice and to play in w/o tights or with tights over her TB leo for quick access just like I do! It is scary how seemingly alike we are! It’s as though she has gone away for the weekend and I’m just taking her place temporarily. Thought of like that everything seems almost normal for a new white hot infatuation. Over time however while the intensity of Brad’s obsession has only increased my need to test his stamina and exhaust him while I’m channeling Jenna has become troubling.

When we’re alone at his place he has me dress in her clothes. Often he wants me barelegged in a thong back long sleeve turtleneck leotard and Alpha pointes as he conducts my therapy session. In her clothes and with her Milex inserted I can feel her presence guiding me and telling me the little things she did that enchanted him so, like forcing her tongue under his foreskin to caress his glans before he becomes aroused and massively erect. He is so into that fantasy when I’m kneeling between his legs with my tongue sheathed by his foreskin as I gently caress his testicles! I’m sure that my being a ballet dancer as well as a sexuality expert was why he approached me to work with him in his study of hypersexuality. He was taught by the Psychiatrist I helped years ago when he was studying habitual sexual offenders and I’m certain my name and contribution to that study came up.  

Even at my age I can easily pass for being in my very early 30s so physically there is very little difference between the in-shape 27 y/o in the photos and me as an in-shape and very well preserved 43 y/o classical ballet dancer. Except that I’m much tighter than she ever was! I was thrilled to hear that! I don’t think he intended to tell me, but it sort of slipped out between gasps the first time I ripple gripped him. When we first met I immediately sensed he was hoping for an intimate relationship as well as an assistant since he kept telling me how much I look like her. I know I’m repeating myself, but he just tells me that over and over! He says he knows he can’t bring her back, but wants so badly to relive some of their most intense times together. However, there is a much darker side to Brad’s fantasy with me being Jenna.

Jenna as a Succubus: From Wikipedia: “A succubus is a female demon or supernatural entity in folklore (traced back to medieval legend) that appears in dreams and takes the form of a human woman in order to seduce men, usually through sexual activity. The male counterpart is the incubus. Religious traditions hold that repeated sexual activity with a succubus may result in the deterioration of health or even death.

In modern fictional representations, a succubus may or may not appear in dreams and is often depicted as a highly attractive seductress or enchantress; whereas, in the past, succubi were generally depicted as frightening and demonic.”

The sex is so intense for us both that in the last few days, as I’ve spent more time as Jenna, I’ve begun to see signs of him physically weakening. He is now on Cialis and topical testosterone, which are helping his stamina to some extent. I’m beginning to think Jenna ghost is not as benign as either of us once thought because when I’m channeling her I’m insatiable! Not that I mind for myself as I’m enjoying the experience. But when I’ve drained Brad and know I should let him rest her control over my libido has me keep going sucking out all his fluids and keeping him erect for hours at a time until he is bordering on Priapism except that I’m continuously stimulating him and his penis is so sore, but neither of us want to stop. When I’m, or is it Jenna who is eventually sated Jenna aura fades and Brad will collapse and fall into a deep sleep of twelve to sixteen hours, which has played havoc his practice of psychiatry.

 

 

 

Jenna’s contraception and breeding diaphragms

A silicone wide seal Milex Omniflex (coil spring) diaphragm

 

The photo: One of Jenna’s Milex coil spring diaphragms. She had two, but she was wearing one when she burned to death in a car accident. Three years ago, before she became pregnant with their baby, she was using a 65mm All-Flex arcing spring rim diaphragm. After giving birth two years ago she was fitted with a 70mm Milex wide seal Omniflex with a softer coil spring rim. The 8mm wide seal flange on the inside of the rim of the Milex helps provide a stronger seal (than other diaphragm rims) against vaginal tissue.  Being a ballet dancer her vaginal muscles were very strong so the softer coil spring rim should have worked effectively for her. I found it in the drawer of her bedside table along with the empty case of its mate which she was wearing when she died. This one had hardly been worn. I turned it inside out and made sure the area under the flange was clean – an area easy to miss - then sterilized it by soaking it in isopropyl alcohol for 30 minutes before wearing it myself.

Diaphragms and ballet-sex: Returning readers recall that I’ve defined the term ‘ballet-sex’ as: being penetrated from behind while bent over and holding on to a barre, chair, table or railing with the feet sur les pointes a la seconde.  In that position a woman can be penetrated deeper w/o discomfort since when her trunk is horizontal the uterus and therefore her cervix is pulled deeper by gravity.  So gravity adds additional depth (to the arousal tenting effect) of her vagina.  When being pulled deeper during arousal the cervix pulls the posterior rim of the diaphragm (which is behind the cervix) with it, thus pulling the anterior rim further away from the back of the pubic bone. This makes the anterior rim more likely to be hit and perhaps under-thrust by her partner when she is having ballet-sex or when penetrated doggie style, while on her elbows and knees.

Ballet-sex is the perfect position in which to use a ‘breeding diaphragm’, one that is two sizes too small and with an All-Flex or coil spring rim, which makes it very easy for a man to thrust the chisel tip of his glans under the rim of the diaphragm where he can caress her G-spot with his frenulum and ejaculate under the dome.  There is only one way to effectively protect against having a diaphragm under-thrust while being taken from the rear. It is to wear a correctly sized and properly placed latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm. The flat spring rim is almost impossible to under-thrust because the spring only folds in the horizontal plane of the rim and when correctly inserted it’s almost impossible to fold it by hitting it with a thrusting penis. And when hit at any other angle it is very painful to the man.

Double bagging: If you have gotten this far and are wondering why I’m telling you all this it’s because Brad wants me to wear Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex diaphragms for contraception during his fantasies with me when I’m channeling his dead wife. And doing the math, since my proper size diaphragm is an 80mm diameter and Jenna’s is 70mm and since hers is also an Omniflex that can be rather easily folded in two planes then her 70mm coil spring is two sizes too small for me. So, by definition if worn by me it’s a breeding diaphragm. I knew where he was going with his request and wore my Oves cap screwed down tight on my cervix. Then while he is watching I insert Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex so my cervix is double bagged. That way when he under-thrusts it and comes in the dome I’m still safe. I’ve been extra safe for the past week since I’m CD 24 and Luteal. I ovulated a week ago and should start my period this coming Sunday, March 9th. I have a bit of ovulation pain (called Mittelschmerz or middle pain because it generally occurs mid cycle) when the follicle bursts to release the egg so even if I’m not checking cervical position and fluid, which I usually do, I know when I’m ovulating.

Jenna’s Chi from her Omniflex: With Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex inserted I can channel her sexual experiences back to before she and Brad met. However, her aura and Chi from the Omniflex is different than the Chi I experience when I wear a death rubber. Returning readers remember that a death rubber is a latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm in my size that I’ve harvested from a woman who died during sex while wearing it for protection.

From Jenna’s Chi I could tell she was newly pregnant with their second child when she died, but it was too soon for her to realize it. Brad had been routinely taking her from behind and under-thrusting the Omniflex. She was weaning their six month old son and was no longer protected by lactational amenorrhea, so had just begun to cycle again. She never had a period since giving birth as Brad’s sperm was waiting in her tubes when she released the first egg after her son was born. It was fertilized and implanted so she never had a period.  I have a very strong feeling that is what Brad hopes will happen with me as he intentionally under-thrusts Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex he has me wear during his fantasy. And actually going along with that aspect of his fantasy I find quite endearing as well as arousing. I suppose he thinks that while we are having wildly exciting sex trying to fuck each others brains out I’m so into him I’m not paying attention to my protection and what he’s trying to do to me.

The ultimate fetish pointe-shoe

The ultimate fetish pointe-shoe: the Bloch Alpha (S0104) ¾ outsole pointe.

The Photo: The Bloch Alpha (S0104) ¾ outsole pointe. They show off a woman’s high arches wonderfully and guys seem to like the heels totally sheathed in satin. These are my menstrual shoes a bit larger that the ones I wear during the rest of my cycle.  The Alpha S0104 should only be worn by experienced dancers, but that hasn’t stopped wannabes buying them from their LDS after I recently began wearing mine to the clubs in town. If that continues the sports Orthropods should be busy with ankle and foot injuries. I thought I’d post this shot as men always seem to appreciate seeing me with my legs in the air.

The Bloch Alpha as a fetish pointe-shoe: Not only are pointe-shoes more physically and technically difficult to wear than ballet-boots, but the Bloch Alpha is (in my opinion) the most difficult pointe-shoe to train, perform and play in. Since I’ve been wearing Alphas to the foot-fetish venues at Naughty Pleasures there has been a spike in interest in Bloch Alpha pointes by other women far less qualified to wear them than me.

Alpha pointes for ballet-sex: Wearing Bloch Alpha pointes for ballet-sex [defined as: being penetrated from behind while bent over holding on to a barre, chair or table with the feet sur les pointes a la seconde] should not be attempted by inexperienced women. Alpha pointes are for women very experienced in pointework at the professional level and then only by ones with very strong feet. A friend suggested I try Alphas for ballet-sex. I was skeptical, but I’m glad I agreed to try them as I love wearing Alphas when being taken by a lusty man!

Returning readers know how much I like hard shanked Gaynors for ballet-sex since they allow me to not have to concentrate on staying over the blocks and let me enjoy my orgasms. And with platform pads Gaynors provide the best protection against injury from thrust-drop with a much taller partner. With Alpha’s very light full insoles - a 2.5MM red board just above the outsole cut while a full-length top layer of leather board is placed to protect the arch tendons and muscles - no appreciable weight can be put on the heels for any length of time though the insole will flex during thrust-drop. But putting weight on the heels (called ‘sitting in the shoes’) can crush the light insoles which provide no support.  However, Alpha pointes look and feel amazingly erotic!  Alpha runs 2 ½ sizes smaller than my street shoe size and the widths are narrower than in Freeds. The 4 ½, my regular size, are just a tiny bit snug on me with toe pads which I like in a pointe-shoe made of conventional materials because they will stretch slightly with wear. The 5 ½ size I wear when I’m on my period.

The eroticism of wearing Alpha pointes and knowing how they show off my high arches motivates me to both stay over the blocks and be able to relax enough to enjoy my orgasms something I’d found difficult to do before in shoes made of conventional materials. And, satin under the heels gives them an inverted heel ratio that stretches the Achilles tendons when flat, which is always a good thing. They are a bit different and harder to balance in when used to wearing full soled more heavily shanked pointes because of the lack of full supportive shanks, which I think is good in a training shoe. And the width is narrower, but the broad box is excellent for the Giselle/peasant foot with three toes of the same length which I have and I love the sueded insole liner.

Risks and rewards: There are risks for dancers like me with high arches when wearing Alpha with a ¾ outsole and basically no shanks as we typically have weak arches and need hard shanked shoes. However, I have very strong feet and more than thirty years on my toes so I feel quite safe while wearing them for ballet-sex even when with a partner where there is significant thrust-drop. That’s because as tight as the shoes are my toes are numb by the time I warm up and he gets his rhythm going. I just need to be sure my nails are cut close so I don’t bruise a nail when I’m dropped on my platforms. As a masochist I like the feeling of being dropped on my toes and as a narcissist I love how well the shoes show off my high arches, satin sheathed heels and make my feet and legs look gorgeous!