Death Rubber Diary Pt. II

A latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm with its case and introducer

 The Photo: One of my 80mm latex Reflexions flat spring rim contraceptive diaphragms showing the size in mm in a raised triangle in the center of the convex side of the dome. The raised size on the outside makes a great stimulator for a lover’s glans rubbing against it in missionary. The Introducer was an insertion aid for short fingered women.

The “death rubber” diaphragm: Returning readers may recall my post on April 25, 2016 entitled Death Rubber Diary in which I recorded the acquisition of my latest “death rubber” contraceptive diaphragm. It has been almost eleven months since I added to my collection. Since I wear them as often as possible I’m always on the lookout for replacements as after a few months the older ones begin to develops thin spots, pin holes and cracks around the rim from heavy use.

For readers who are new to my blog a ‘death rubber’ diaphragm, especially a latex one, is one that was being worn by a woman when she died while having penetrative intercourse. So, readers can understand how difficult it can be obtaining a death rubber diaphragm under ideal conditions, meaning that I am able to harvest it myself.

Residual Chi: During an orgy in Vegas years ago, I found that wearing a latex diaphragm, the first one I personally harvested, from the vagina of an elite rubber fetish escort – a woman I watched die while being fucked at the bottom of a training pool for rubber fetishists - gave me access through the residual Chi (the fundamental life force that flowed through her) contained in the diaphragm that had been protecting her cervix. Through that residual amount of her Chi her memories of past lovers and the pelvic experience and tricks she knew to please them became available for my use which enhanced my confidence and pleasure when wearing it.

As a result, I have a data mining firm searching medical records for potential donors, women who wear 80mm latex flat spring rim diaphragms. Those I’ve found are primarily dancers, up-market fetish escorts and porn actresses. It so happens these are the women who are some of the greatest risk takers so are the ones most likely to have a fatal accident during an encounter with a commercial client or during filming porn videos commonly recorded as death by misadventure. I think the risk is part of my fascination with asphyxia sexual highs while having SCUBA sex because there is so little margin for error. It certainly is a huge thrill and marvelous high for me!

Challenges in collecting this specific item:

•           Few women use diaphragms these days.

•           The device needs to be in my size, 80mm – usually worn by women much taller than me.

•           The woman has to have died during sex while wearing it.

•           And so, I can safely wear it she must have been free of STIs which means at the time of her death she had had a recent negative full panel STI test.

•           And now the Reflexions – latex flat spring rim diaphragm - is no longer being made. However, latex flat spring diaphragms can be custom made for those of us who need them.

Too there is the usual down side to a latex device:

•           Some people are allergic to latex.

•           The useful life is much shorter than a silicone diaphragm.

•           The odor from a latex device worn too long (usually more than 24 hours) can be very strong, however, that can be a plus if you are with a man who is into funky vaginal scents.

The good news about a latex flat spring device is:

•           The heat transfer properties are far superior to silicone.

•           A latex device can be safely used with silicone lubes necessary for proper vaginal lubrication during underwater sex.

•           A wonderful safety feature of a flat spring rim diaphragm is that since it folds in a single plane it is almost impossible for even the most mischievous partner to under-thrust the rim of one that is properly sized and correctly placed.                         

Until a few days ago, my collection was down to three (down from six when I last wrote about them) all 80mm latex diaphragms that I have personally harvested from the vaginas of their previous owners. I try to take good care of them since (as I mentioned above) they all contain their former owner’s sexual exploits that reside in the portion of her Chi still contained in the diaphragm which supplement my own sexual knowledge and experiences when I wear them and each is unique and irreplaceable in that way.

My latest harvesting acquisition: This is the third ‘death rubber’ I’ve harvested since I moved to the UK in January of 2015. It belonged to a rather tall (for a dancer) American 19 y/o (I’ll call Terri) in the corps of a major U.S ballet company who was on holiday with her French lover. Tim and I were at a costume party at a country house in Kent hosted on a neighboring estate near Headlong Hall the seat of Lord A****, my ward Bryony’s father. Tim and I were guests of Lord A**** and were invited to attended With Bryony, her step-mother Brigitte and Lord A****.

Until the house party I knew Terri only as a candidate on my list of possible Death Rubber donors as she was quite tall at 5’8” and even though she had a standard (6 bead) GyneFix copper IUD implanted she had been fitted by one of Tanaquil’s Gyn friends in Paris with custom made latex FS in my size. She told her fitter that she needed the 80mm for thrust buffering as her lover was very large and she wanted to slow him down when he was sounding the depth of her anterior fornix. She also mentioned that the dome would make a good container as he liked eating her fertile cervical mucus that could be collected in the dome. She was lovely and vivacious and friends who had known her longer said she was very talented ballerina.

It was late at night and Tim and I were in a bedroom adjacent to where Terri was sleeping. We heard several loud thumps and a few moments later a man shouting for help. There had been a freak accident during sex while she was being taken doggie style, on all fours penetrated from the rear on her bed. It seems she had been kneeling too close to the solid oak headboard. When her French lover came. At orgasm his violent thrusts drove her head into the oak panel several times and broke her neck. The doctor who arrived more than an hour later said she died almost immediately as her spine was severed.

While we waited for the doctor to arrive everyone except Bryony and I went for coffee and tried to calm her boyfriend who had come completely unglued. When her lover had withdrawn, Terri had toppled on to her side with her legs still pulled up so her vulva was easily accessible. I helped Bryony lay a clean sheet over her during which time I inserted two fingers and withdrew her diaphragm filled with fertile mucus and inserted it in a small plastic freezer bag I carry for just such an occasion. I know that sounds ghoulish, but this sort of opportunity hardly ever occurs and I need to be prepared if I’m nearby.  

A bit later the unpredictability of death during sexual intercourse, the act that can lead to new life, and the very thing I routinely risk for the adrenalin high I get from the danger suddenly seemed very real standing next to Terri’s cooling body. Having harvested her diaphragm for my use was a huge turn-on and I found myself suddenly extremely aroused and in need of a man!

Halloween 2015 in the UK

Traditional carved pumpkins as evil spirits

British Summer Time ends:  On Sunday October 25th in the UK and Europe ‘Summer Time’ ended and the clocks were turned back one hour. So we all got an extra hour of sleep. Daylight Saving Time ends in the U.S. and Canada this coming Sunday November 1^st.  For those women on a progestin only pill (the mini-pill or POP) which needs to be taken every day and at the same time every day or its efficacy decreases so they need to factor in the time change so they don’t take the pill an hour late at the time change.

Halloween in the UK: This will be my first Halloween in the UK. As a Priestess of Aphrodite I’m of the view that there may be a great deal more to the spirit world than ordinary citizens of the U.S and the UK are aware of, although, the British are much closer to the truth than most Americans as the tradition here is far older here and there are a great many more spirits abroad for the celebration. The Wikipedia article says:

“Halloween, or Hallowe'en a contraction of "All Hallows’ Evening"), also known as Allhalloween, All Hallows' Eve, or All Saints' Eve] is a yearly celebration observed in a number of countries on 31 October, the eve of the Western Christian feast of All Hallows' Day. It begins the three-day observance of Allhallowtide, the time in the liturgical year dedicated to remembering the dead, including saints (hallows), martyrs, and all the faithful departed believers.

According to many scholars, All Hallows' Eve is a Christianized feast influenced by Celtic harvest festivals, with possible pagan roots, particularly the Gaelic festival Samhain. Other scholars maintain that it originated independently of Samhain and has solely Christian roots.” from Wikipedia. The complete article can be read HERE

Halloween in Kent: Nokolai and I have been invited down to Headlong Hall Bryony’s parent’s ancestral home in Kent for the holiday. Returning readers will recall that Headlong Hall is the seat of Lord A****. I call the estate ‘Headlong Hall’ (as it is right out of a T.L. Peacock novel) just north of Canterbury. Headlong Hall is a gothic revival monstrosity built in the fifteen hundreds and was a fortified Royalist home during the civil war. In the early 1640s it was captured but not destroyed by the Parliamentarians, which some architectural scholars think was a lost opportunity.

Bryony’s father, Alistair, and her step-mother the present Countess, who I’ll call ‘Brigitte’, his 4^th wife who was a ballerina with the Paris Opera Ballet and at 26 is younger than Bryony will be hosting a house party for the weekend. Brigitte is extremely flexible and a hypersexual masochist as I am so we understand each other quite well and have become friends since I became Bryony’s mentor. I was surprised and pleased at how close Bryony and Brigitte have become. They have a mutual goal in ensuring the happiness and wellbeing of Alistair and are not (usually) in competition for bed partners so harmony on the female side of the household usually prevails. They have come to terms with the fact that Alistair is a philanderer and as long as he is careful and Brigitte retains his favor she will retain her status as a Countess and his bed hopping gives both her and Bryony license to take (very carefully screened) sexual partners themselves.

Brigitte says there are at least six known ghosts haunting Headlong Hall, three of which she has seen herself. None of them is known to be malicious, but all seem to enjoy scaring the residence of the pile with usually harmless tricks. I will be celebrating Samhain, but there is enough similarity to Halloween that the casual observer should not notice except my rituals except perhaps for the incense burning in my room. And given my status as a Priestess of Aphrodite I don’t expect to be terrified and should be quite safe, but I am looking forward to meeting as many of the ghosts as I can. Alistair says there have only been two mysterious disappearances of female staff during Halloween in his lifetime, though he thinks there have been others documented in the muniment room.

My Cycle for Halloween and a Death Rubber: As this is being written I’m CD13 and should ovulate tomorrow when Bryony, Claire, Nikolai and I go down to Kent. I’ll be CD15 and newly Luteal on Samhain/Halloween. That means that on Samhain I should no longer be in danger of pregnancy if I have unprotected sex. However, I’m planning on wearing one of my latex Reflexions flat spring rim ‘Death Rubber’ diaphragms as wearing one will give me access to the pelvic experience and talents of the woman from whom I harvested it. Returning readers will recall that a diaphragm worn for a sexual encounter during which the woman died retains a bit of the wearer’s Chi, the vital force believed in Taoism and other Chinese thought to be inherent in all things. It is this Chi that allows me to profit from the previous owner’s sexual experience. Harvesting a diaphragm from the corpse and wearing it myself allows me to tap into the Chi it contains to supplement my intellect and pelvic skills. Now almost all the Death Rubber diaphragms I harvest come from elite escorts. Of course I need the diaphragm to be a latex FS in my size (80mm) which are usually worn by tall girls so I keep a record of the Escort patients who use 80mm Ds that my clinic sees so that I can harvest a death Rubber should tragedy strike.  

Wishing all my readers a happy and safe Samhain/Halloween

 

Visiting a Dryad’s parents

Canterbury West railway station

The Photo: Canterbury West train station in Kent operated by the London & South Eastern Railway Limited, known as Southeastern. Canterbury is served by London’s St Pancras International station. Canterbury East station is a few blocks away and serves the line from London to Dover.

The Dryads parents: The Dryads, Bryony and Claire, are first Cousins. Bryony is the daughter of Lord A**** head of the family while Claire is the daughter of his younger (by 6 minutes) twin brother.  While the family is very wealthy it is thought of by the ancient landed aristocracy as ‘new money’ gotten through manufacturing in the 19^th century and by some Lords of much older families as somewhat disreputable for being in ‘trade’.

My interest in the wellbeing of the Dryads has not been not lost on their parents and Lord A**** has invited Nikolai and I down to the family seat which I’ll call Headlong Hall (as it’s right out of a T.L. Peacock novel) just north of Canterbury in Kent. Headlong Hall is a gothic revival monstrosity built in the fifteen hundreds and was a fortified Royalist home during the civil war. In the early 1640s it was captured but not destroyed by the Parliamentarians which some architectural scholars think was a lost opportunity. We will be guests there from this Wednesday, September 16th through Friday the 18^th.

Lord A**** is in his early 50s and in excellent physical condition. He is an excellent shot, a SCUBA diver and a latex fetishist of the most extreme sort. He is a member of the Costume Club so I know he is very well hung, hates condoms and is free of STIs. He likes rough sex and to be whipped with a riding crop. His 4^th wife, the present Countess, is 26 y/o and was a French ballerina and is younger than her step-daughters. She is extremely flexible and is a hypersexual masochist as am I. Lord A**** and his current wife like to swap partners with their house guests so I expect Nikolai will be sleeping unprotected with the Countess and I with Lord A****. I may be spotting as I should be menstrual on the 19^th and I know from his activities at Clever Cunts that he enjoys menstrual cunilingus and sex and eats the bloody contents of his partner’s diaphragm afterward so perhaps I can give him a bit of that.

His wife, who is a latex flat spring diaphragm patient at my clinic (because her husband is a latex fetishist) has a standard (6 bead) copper frameless GyneFix IUD implanted with the strings trimmed off so she can safely wear a diaphragm w/o the worry of accidently pulling it out when she or her lord is removing her diaphragm. It’s my understanding that both Lord A**** and his wife have amazing sexual stamina and they both love Ballet-sex while they are both dressed in a latex catsuits.

I met the Countess socially at a ballet party at the ROH a few months ago shortly after I was appointed minder to Nikolai and she seems like a lovely person. She knew I was Nikolai’s social compass and asked me about him and I suppose she was taking my measure as well as a partner for her husband. My proclivity to fuck the company’s male dancers isn’t really a secret and she was almost salivating as I mentioned Nikolai’s and my social interaction. At that point I knew I would be hearing either from her or Lord A****.

Bryony had told me about her father and the current Countess, his 4^th wife, while I was fitting her for a latex FS diaphragm; about them swapping partners at intimate parties at their home, him rotating through a series of favorite Hostesses at Clever Cunts, and both he and the Countess’s love for sex while in latex catsuits and she en pointe in Gaynor Minden shoes so I knew she must be quite experienced, but then most French ballerinas are which is why they are in such demand as mistresses.

Death in the dive well: Bryony also told me that she had witnessed her mother’s death when she was 16.  She was home, at Headlong Hall, from boarding school on Christmas vacation. She thought her parents were in London for the day and went to the indoor pool to swim and found her parents having underwater sex. They were in SCUBA gear at the bottom of the 12 ft. dive well and he was thrusting into her from the front with her mom’s legs on her father’s shoulders.  She stood frozen watching and said they both appeared to be enjoying their encounter while her father was fingering her mom’s clit and they seemed to climax together. Her mom’s back arched, she gave several strong pelvic thrusts while clawing at her husbands shoulders then shuddered expelled a large amount of air her head tilted back, her mouth gaped open and her reg floated free. Neither she nor her husband tried to put it back in her mouth. The autopsy found a venous Air embolism (an air bubble in her bloodstream) stopped her heart. She had forgotten to insert her latex FS diaphragm before entering the water. The coroner ruled it was death by misadventure.  

Amazingly Bryony doesn’t blame her father as she knew her mom loved living on the edge of catastrophe and feels her mom probably died the way she wanted. However, it has almost certainly caused Bryony to want to participate in very dangerous sexual activity as well as setting her on the path to becoming a psychologist in the hope of better understanding what made her mom and now her take such risks. I think she told me about her mom to let me know what I will be in for when Nikolai and I are guests at Headlong Hall.

Traveling to Canterbury and Inverness:  Nikolai and I will be taking The Dragon (my private rail car) to Canterbury to be with Lord A**** and his wife from 9/15 through 9/18 and then return to London to pick up my wards Bea, Willow and the Dryads and then proceed on to Inverness on Saturday the 19^th to prepare for the Autumnal Equinox. As I mentioned in an earlier post we will be staying with the Duke of M**** at his castle, Crag Abbey, in the mountains to the west of Loch Ness Saturday evening September 19^th. Then convoy to his Grace’s hunting lodge to the north east of Ullapool below the summit of Loc. Z on the 21^st as a staging point for ascending to the celestial temple very early on the morning of the 23^rd Afterward returning to Crag Abbey for a day or two of relaxation before Returning to London on Saturday the 26^th.