Menstrual ballet-sex and body doubling

Posing for Morning Wood before menstrual ballet-sex

The Photo: Wearing tights over a thong-back leotard and a Reflexions flat spring diaphragm I’m CD2 and prepared for menstrual ballet-sex. I’m posing for a photo of Morning Wood’s latest pointe fetish, menstrual ballet-sex, with me in red satin Gaynor Mindens.

Morning Wood and red satin pointe shoes: Returning readers will recall that Marvin AKA Morning Wood, my former psychiatrist and sometime lover, has a delusion that when I wear his dead wife Jenna’s Bloch Alpha S0104 pointes I become her. Given that the supply of Bloch Alpha shoes she had is finite I’ve been trying to guide his fetish toward a pointe maker that suits me better. Shoes that are more comfortable and that last longer, Gaynor Minden, not that Jenna’s shoes don’t fit me amazingly well considering. I think absence has made Marvin much more ardent this past weekend even though my wards who are at school at Cambridge report that he has been seen with Grad school girls on his arm. But then who am I to begrudge him sexual release when I crave intimate companionship as well while we are away from each other.

I don’t want to give the impression that I don’t care, I do and I just want him to be safe. That’s why I’ve had the Grad school students he is being intimate with checked out to make certain they are on LARC which they are, hormonal IUDs in the cases of all three girls, and are free of STIs. It wouldn’t do his career any good to have him impregnate a student lover, not that wouldn’t give his ego a huge boost, briefly. I’m just protecting what’s mine. I want to give him a bit of slack on his psychological penis leash not castrate him. I think his being away at Cambridge is working since when we are together he talks openly about how tight I am – no one else has been able to give him Pompoir – and the other women just provide him relief, not that he isn’t kind and considerate with them.

Since Nikolai was dancing in Romeo and Juliet this past weekend at the ROH Marvin, now a Cambridge Don (at least for this year) came down from Cambridge to keep me company for the first several days while I’m menstrual as I tend to become sexually insatiable then and need a man or men who enjoy menstrual sex. Nikolai understands and I’ve let him know that it’s perfectly all right to bring home one of his ballet Odalisques for sexual release and I’ve had a suite opened at Blackthorn House for his use while Marvin is with me. I know all his Odalisques who returning readers will recall I hand picked for him so when he gets home from the theater, Marvin and I are often up, we will unwind together before we all go to bed.

Since we have been together Marvin has become an ardent connoisseur of menstrual sex as his wife would never have sex with him while she was menstrual so he is extremely ardent during my periods. My circle know that when I wear red pointes I’m menstrual and that idiosyncrasy has trained Marvin when in my presence to become erect and anxious to give me orgasms to relieve my cramps and leave me draining his liquefied semen mixed with menstrual discharge. Actually, he doesn’t really need my pointes color code to tell as he has a keen sense of smell and could tell from my pheromones – not my pelvic musk – when I’m menstrual and wearing a Diva cup as well as when I’m fertile.

Diaphragms for flow control: Depending where I am in my menses I will wear a Reflexions on light days and a Milex Omniflex on heavy days for flow control during menstrual sex when I’m not on thick dark colored towels on my bed or in the shower. This past weekend I was CD 1 and 2 so I wore a Reflexions which allowed Morning Wood to stretch it deep into my anterior fornix which is always a thrill for us both. Even so regardless of how strong the seal is the rim moves around a bit which will leave a sheen of blood on the vaginal walls which transfers to a lover’s penis.  Of course having menstrual ballet-sex while wearing tights is almost certain to get blood on them, but I wear nylon ones for those encounters and try to avoid dripping on them. If I can get to the toilet to kegel out his load in the 20 minutes or so before it liquefies and starts flowing out of me I can sometimes prevent getting blood on them at all.

Fitting actresses for diaphragms: Taryn’s video production company which specializes in porn videos is ramping up to produce a full length film about the Escort service, somewhat like what was done for classical ballet in the 2010 film Black Swan which starred Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis. It is to be set in the mid 50s when use of the diaphragm was at the peak of its popularity in the UK. There will be no escorts losing their minds thinking that they are morphing into birds, but a lot of diaphragm fitting and insertion/ removal scenes, abortions and vanillas penile-vaginal intercourse as well as a great deal of fetish sex in pointe-shoes and ballet-boots.   

There will be body doubles in sex scenes for well known actresses if they don’t want to actually have PVI on camera, which I’m told they don’t. Tanaquil, a legendary Courtesan in her day, who is now Taryn’s Procuress, is producing and directing the film has asked me to be the body double for the lead actress since I’m her size with no tats or piercing and I can easily perform ballet-sex and give her A-list leading man Pompoir which none of the other body doubles can. Tanaquil wants to get the actor’s reaction to having his penis milked while he is fully erect, inserted and stationary inside me. He is currently unmarried (recently divorced from his third wife) so milking the penis of this gorgeous and available hunk will be every woman’s fantasy. He is in his early 40s and is supposedly marvelous in bed. However, I’m thinking of recommending he take a performance enhancer so he is less likely to go limp at an inopportune moment since I’m told he has never fucked a woman on camera before. During production of a film I mean.

The A-list actress I’m doubling can hardly stand in pointe-shoes though she supposedly took pointe when she was in high school and has been training for the role for six months. She is somewhat better in ballet-boots as she can stride with considerable confidence, but even with electrolyte and vitamin therapy her calves cramp after she stands in them for a few minutes. She is best while posing sitting putting on or taking off fetish footwear or standing briefly looking fetching while delivering her lines. So, it sounds as though I’m going to get a good bit of screen time. I’m to be listed in the credits so any one who is interested will know who was fucking the male star on cam.

Ballet fetish toe protection, Mitch and fetish hostesses

Slipping on toe pads for ballet-sex with Marvin

The Photo: Putting on toe pads before pushing my toes into the blocks of pointe-shoes. Even in Gaynors and especially in Bloch Alphas for sex with Marvin [Morning Wood] I like to wear toe pads because when in pointes for fetish play I can be on my toes continuously for such long intervals.

Toe protection for ballet fetishists: Since most ballet fetishists are new to ballet and especially wearing pointe-shoes a few words about toe protection might be helpful. First trim your toenails very short. When on pointe if your nails are long enough to be forced against the hard inside of the toe-box there is a good chance that the nail can be pushed into the nail bed causing a painful and ugly bruised nail that can take weeks to recover from and months to grow a new nail. Even if a newbie is wearing correctly fitted Gaynor Minden shoes that have internal padding I think she should be fitted while wear toe pads. That way when she is menstrual and her feet swell she can wear the Gaynors w/o the pads.

Toe pads can also be used as containers for ejaculated semen.  If a guy wants to cum in my shoes rather that having him squirt in the blocks I let him stroke-off into my silicone toe pads (not the lambs wool or fabric ones which just absorb the semen and become matted and sticky) then slip my toes in to the pads to feel the semen squish between my toes then slip my foot into a nylon footie the same color as the pointes I will be wearing to hold the pad on my foot while I’m slipping my feet into and out of my toe-shoes. A caution about being continually in wet toe pads; too much of that and even a woman used to wearing pointes and with protective calluses can find them softening and eroding lessening her protection. Anyone letting her lover cum in her shoes or toe pads where her toes are immersed in the semen should not wear them continuously for too long too.

Toe pads as mementos:  If your shoe fetish lover is into sex when you are wearing pointes and he wants to untie the ribbons, pull off your shoes and suck your toes and afterward wants you to give him the $80 to $120 pair of shoes you were fucked in there may be a low cost alternative. If you were wearing toe pads you can give him the $15 pair of sweaty smelly toe pads as a souvenir instead.  A plus is that he can eat the toe cheese out of the pads after you take class, rehearse or perform while wearing them. The cheese I produce is made up of dead skin cells, nail polish chips, toe tape adhesive, lint, estrogenic sweat and his semen if he came in the pads before I put them on.  

Drone voyeurism: A few days ago we had a little four rotor drone equipped with a camera flying close to and over the terrace on which my girls and I and the porn actresses were sunbathing. We were nude as usual to prevent tan lines so I can appreciate a male operator wanting pics. However, you can understand our reluctance to be photographed under those conditions. When I told Paul, Anya’s lover and the swan twins father, about it he first thought it was a commercial photography company making a video of the bays and coves on the island, but when the unmanned aerial vehicle (UAV) came back to hover a few yards off the terrace three times on a single afternoon it was apparent that it was being used for voyeurism. Paul has access to some amazing special electronic equipment one item of which is a frequency jamming device that makes it impossible to send or receive data from an electronic device within its range which in this case is several hundred yards in a dome 360 degrees in circumference and 300 yards vertically. So we borrowed it and when the sky-spy returned we turned it on and it shut the UAV down and it dropped several hundred feet straight down on to the rocks and disintegrated.  We recovered the video camera and a memory chip that Paul says he can recover the data from so that should be interesting.  

For those readers who are thinking that ‘What goes around comes around.’ given the porn-video crew used a super long lens to capture sex aboard a rental yacht that sailed into the cove several days ago I’ll just say the couple on the yacht had no knowledge of what we were doing while the operator of the UAV that was videoing us didn’t seem to care that we knew what he/it was doing.  Actually, we are leaving the jammer on 24/7 while we are here and we apparently caused the crash of another one the next morning. That one went into the cove near the shore and we recovered it almost intact.  The UAVs seemed to be made in the U.S. Taryn’s porn Director thinks it was probably a rival Eastern European porn group spying on them as Taryn’s porn videos are becoming very popular on the eastern European market.  

Porn video completed:  Taryn’s video crew and actors left the other day and we have had no more visits from UAVs. I was sorry to see the actors go since as new sex partners they all melded quite well with my regular guests and provided welcome partner differences in size, temperament and technique. For me variety in sex partners really is the spice of life and I think that’s true for the men as well.

Mitch arrives:  Willow has been trying to get Mitch to come down to keep her company, in a manner of speaking and he came in to Spanish Town on the ferry to surprise her so we took the Wanton Lass IV around to pick him up. He is a ballet dancer who supplements his salary as a very expensive escort, and is Willow’s main squeeze who I haven’t said much about since he first appeared in my post for December 11, 2013 where I introduced him this way: 

“Willow has been chosen to be Mitch’s primary training partner and he was her date for Thanksgiving. Mitch is an amazing escort, but he is seen by stable management as risky because a good many of his clients have gotten pregnant. Not that it was his fault. The clients were all paying for clean, virile, mind blowing, unprotected, penile vaginal intercourse and that’s what he provides, in spades. He gets all sorts of raves from women whose brains he’s fucked out. When it’s over they lay there gasping, quivering and pleading for more. Then a few weeks later s a few of them complain because they are preggers, and paternity tests (it almost always goes that far) prove he is the father.”

Mitch has followed Willow to the UK and is working as a dancer for a small ballet Co. in London as well as for Taryn as an extremely expensive escort for rich aristocratic women who like dangerous sex. Not that that he is dangerous physically, if you don’t count pregnancy. However, he continues to impregnate a few of his clients if he has unprotected sex with them and the service no longer pays for aborting his babies since they found any publicity from a suit brought by a pregnant client would increase Mitch’s reputation and be counterproductive to her own reputation. You would think a man with that sort of reputation would be avoided, but there are very rich women who know he is dangerous that way and still delude themselves by thinking “It won’t happen to me” so his dance card is as full as he wants it.

A theory: Most of the pregnancies Mitch has been responsible for have been with women who were using some form of hormonal contraception and a few who were using some form of barrier contraception. Marvin wonders if there could be something in those women on hormones who by anticipating their encounters with Mitch might have unintentionally increased their metabolism to the extent that their bodies flushed out the hormones too quickly that were meant to protect them.  No research has been done in that area so it’s speculation on his part. There have been no pregnancies by him with women using copper IUDs so perhaps they are ‘safe’. And I double bag, wear an Oves and a Reflexions Latex diaphragm simultaneously, or am menstrual when I have sex with Mitch. So it can’t happen to me!  I’m kidding, really I am, which is why I double bag!  But the possibility of it happening to me is a huge thrill and makes me wet thinking about it. How kinky is that? Which is why I love having him pump his semen deep into me.

Hostess training: I’m pleased to say right after the Porn video crew and actors left another group of five couples arrived – aboard the same Spanish Town ferry on which Mitch arrived - who are friends of Taryn from Cambridge. She says the girls want to apply to be Hostesses at one of the Blackthorn Barony’s corporation’s fetish clubs. That can be a very challenging job, but the girls are going into psychiatry (as is Taryn) and want actual experience with fetish deviation as it occurs in clubs in the UK while earning some money. When Taryn asked me about it some months ago I agreed I to give them all an opportunity to try if they would get current negative full panel STI screens and GyneFix IUDs ahead of coming to visit us and all have gotten the frameless IUDs with the strings removed and their periods have settled down. I’m not sure they really know what they are getting into, but it’s nice to have them here as they will be welcome distractions from our regular sex partners while I get to see how well the girls react with multiple sex partners. I’ve never known that to be a problem with men and other than the guys being congenial and a good energetic sex partners for the next several weeks I don’t care about them.

I can’t believe I haven’t been able to get to sleep. I’ve been reading an Iris Johansen thriller from 2003 entitled The Face of Deception on my Nook and the plot is amazing! I’m CD3 and menstrual - perhaps that’s why I’m so wide awake, but my periods have never affected me that way before. For the next two weeks our men: Paul, Chris, Marvin, Castor, Pollux and Mitch will be exchanging sex partners with the five new men so the girls and I will have the new men to ourselves for sex. I should be fertile during the last few days they will be with us. I love the scent of a new man and having him thrusting inside me especially when I’m fertile! 

The psychology of a pointe-shoe fetish

Trolling for penis en pointe in Bloch Alphas with my ribbons untied

The photo: Teasing Morning Wood; in sous-sus sans ribbons with my toes packed in the blocks of an old pair of Jenna 1’s 4 ½ xxx Bloch Alpha, SO104 pointes. Marvin gets so aroused watching me put on pointe shoes especially Jenna’s old ones. 

Marvin and “Goodbye sex”: Its good to get back to what passes for my ‘normal’ routine after being at Location Z to celebrate the Vernal Equinox on the day we had a nearly total eclipse of the sun and then six days later being in the congregation at the reburial of Richard III in Leicester cathedral. It isn’t every girl who gets groped to a clitoral orgasm while listening to the Archbishop of Canterbury’s remarks before Richard III was lowered into what one hopes is his final resting place after 530 years.

Our morning ritual is that he showers then comes to watch while I break in new Freeds pointes; sewing on the ribbons and elastics, rasping the soles and softening the blocks. Before we have breakfast I always put on a pair of Jenna’s Alphas for him. In size 4 ½ xxx they are a half size too small for me to perform in and tight enough that even w/o the ribbons tied they won’t slip off my heels if I’m not wearing tights. That way I can seduce him into a quick “Goodbyes-sex” encounter and he leaves for work sexually sated. I like to quickly insert a menstrual cup after he withdraws to collect his semen as it liquefies and drains into the cup while we are having breakfast. Then I carefully pull out the cup filled with our coital discharge and hand it to him. He always savors the scent before drinking the contents with the last of his coffee. He is always so appreciative of what I do for him!

Marvin and the significance of untied pointe ribbons: Because I’m dominant and refuse to let Marvin untie my pointe ribbons, even when I’m going to take my shoes off to ice my feet he is fixated on me walking around en pointe with the ribbons untied. I won’t let any man untie my ribbons because I think letting him do that would signify my giving myself to him spiritually which I’m not yet ready to do so Marvin bides his time and watches me carefully when I’m preparing new pointes for class and performances.

He thinks my walking around on my toes with the ribbons untied makes me extremely sexually desirable and vulnerable which he finds wildly erotic. He’s right, to the extent that with untied ribbons I can’t really run in them nor use them as weapons as they could be easily pulled off my feet by an attacker. He hates me walking around in the studio with untied ribbons when other men are present since he believes I’m giving off a subliminal message that I’m interested in a sexual encounter. But a little jealousy can add intensity to a lover’s performance so it’s not all bad. However, its standard practice for dancers to walk around in new shoes with the ribbons untied, but we do have to be careful not to trip ourselves on the ribbon ends. Men! It’s amazing what erotic fantasies the lovesick or jealous male mind can create with untied ribbons trailing from a dancer’s pointes as she prepares for her work day.

A psychological penis leash: After the first few days Marvin and I spent together (with me as Jenna) I quickly picked up on his erotic fascination with my untied pointe ribbons. As I mentioned before he thinks me walking around en pointe with the ribbons untied makes me incredibly sexually desirable so by doing that I’m inviting a sexual encounter.  Of course since I know his weakness for untied ribbons he’s right, especially during the week I am fertile and very sexually needy in the mornings. I always use the untied ribbons as foreplay to mind-fuck him into agreeing to something I want to do while he is distracted intent on getting into my panties. 

Relic and talisman conservation: I don’t wear Jenna’s original Alpha pointes to dance in as they are now talismans of the eroticism that nearly consumes Marvin when I wear them. They are almost holy relics to Marvin so I wear them carefully making sure only to wear them to arouse him to take me for special occasions which we celebrate with sex and for a “goodbye encounter” before we part for the day.  Some couples kiss before they part with us it’s a bit more intimate, but he can be very quick and an orgasm he gives me during goodbye sex is always unbelievably intense.

Used that way Jenna’s’ Blochs are a potent symbol of her - and now my - femininity “an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace” I can use to convince him to see things my way when we disagree.

Thrust therapy:  In Marvin’s psychiatric practice he specializes in performing artists with sexual problems. Things like a female ballet dancer’s fear of men after her rape or a male dancers fear of women, if you can imagine that, and there seem to be quite a few who if not scared of women are  very uncomfortable handling the female body. You can imagine what a problem that must be for a young gorgeous virile heterosexual man to have. Marvin says he thinks its caused in men from the sexual repression of upper class and some middle class males in all-male schools and Mothers of aristocrat and upper class daughters putting them on the pill rather than allowing them to experience the natural cycle of their hormones with a copper IUD.

Whatever the reason there seems to be a much greater need for sexual repression therapy here than in the U.S. and what works best over time is what I call “Thrust therapy” where the male is the thruster and the female (physical therapist) is the thrustee in repeated gentle acts of sexual intercourse. 

The need for Thrust therapy seems to be grater for men than women so Marvin has been able to accommodate his women patients needing it himself while referring his male patients to me, introducing me as his sexual therapist and dressed in ballet practice clothes – tights over a thong-back leo and pointe-shoes - so the patient can see and handle my body at the start of our session. I use a small soundproof therapy room at Marvin’s clinic with a bed and mirrored wall with a barre attached. With a receptive male patient just a few forty-five minute thrust therapy sessions is all it takes for me to ease a patient’s mind that even the most experienced women won’t hurt him physically though some of us who are ballet dancers, are amazingly tight and can verbally cut a man to shreds with our tongues if sufficiently provoked.

Someone like Us, SLU: Word gets around amazingly quickly what with social media and Marvin’s practice is getting calls from young aristocrat women who want to improve their pelvic skills. They don’t want Thrust therapy they want to work with a female pelvic trainer to learn the most effective ways to use Ben Wa balls and dildos to strengthen their pelvic muscles. In that case they have to go through the clinic and have STI panels run before they can book sessions with me. I know Ashley, Jack, Lord Sandbach’s fiancée, and Maya, the Russian ballerina and former mistress of Jack’s father, the Duke of M**** who’s abortion I arranged, as well as my good friend Tanaquil the French procuress and mistress to a French Prince, have been spreading the word about my expertise as a trainer and the go-to girl for guidance in increasing pelvic skills.  Nor does it hurt – because the aristocracy can stil be quite snobbish - to be known to have succeeded to an ancient hereditary title of my own not from marrying a man, something that most of them seem to envy me for which in their view makes me approachable on their social level as “she is someone like us”.   

British Summer Time: The clocks in the UK were all set forward an hour on Sunday (March 29, 2015) to the British version of Daylight Saving Time in the U.S. So now the UK is again 5 hours ahead of the U.S.

My wards return to Las Vegas: Bea, Willow and the Swan Twins will be returning to Vegas aboard Limnaea II with Anya on Thursday April 2^nd as UNLV spring break ends on the 4^th and classes resume on the 6^th. They have had a wonderful time and all are safe, STI free and no pregnancies despite the number of unprotected sex partners they each had. Of course that’s what we expected as they all have stringless copper bead GyneFix IUDs implanted.  It’s a tribute to the efficacy of the GyneFix and the biocide in DiveGel+.

 

Morning Wood, 50s retro fetishwear, Solstice planning

Enjoying chill contractions after inserting two 1 inch 65° surgical steel balls

The photo: A full-body open-bottom front-close corset. It’s ideal to stiffen the interest of any lover with an encasement and fastener fetish. The 50s-inspired shapewear has never been so sexy. The Mercy corset from Agent Provocateur comes in embroidery and lace and combines irresistible retro features with modern technology which allows mine to fit perfectly.  By unfastening the top three hooks I can breast feed easily or by unfastening the bottom two the corset folds up so I can be penetrated from the rear for ballet-sex - while en pointe a la seconds bent over holding on to the barre.

Tahoe storms: This past week (Thursday and Friday) we had really severe weather in the Sierra Nevada to the west of Tahoe which resulted in winds that damaged homes around the lake. Fortunately Adolph’s property came through the storm with minimal damage.

Jenna’s fetish wardrobe: Jenna, my psychiatrist’s dead wife, was a dancer with the San Francisco Ballet and an amazingly creative fetishist before she gave birth to her son. Now he wants me to take her place in his life and for me many of the aspects of that relationship are a great deal of fun as well as incredibly kinky. I’ve added to her fetish wardrobe with the Mercy Corset pictured above I love the nude colore but got a black one as well to wear when I’m menstrual so it won’t show the stain if the blood doesn’t completelt come out. He has such fun unfastening the hooks and pealing me out of it he sometimes prematurely ejaculates which isn’t a problem as it allows him to last longer once he is inside me and thrusting.  

Menstrual with rubber and steel inserted: Today I’n CD1 and flowing lightly so to make things interesting I have a latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm as well as a pair of 1.0” diameter solid surgical steel balls inserted. Each ball weighs 2.307 oz for a total of 4.6 oz when both are inserted. I’m calling them my “McBalls”, as they are a quarter-pounder! With the diaphragm in it makes it harder to get a ball forced into the posterior fornix so deep that it gets stuck, but should that happen it can be teased out using the bowl of an ice tea spoon.

My therapist is insistent on penetrating me bareback as he wants me pregnant, which is fine with me, the bareback part I mean. I’m planning to enjoy him fully, but pregnant by him (or anyone else) is not part of my plan. However, wearing a Reflexions diaphragm or an Oves cap I have the pregnancy bit under control giving us both the thrill of live sperm coating the stretchy rubber membrane protecting my fertile cervix.  He has been well accepted in my circle of friends as delusional only where I’m concerned and they think that is rather endearing.

Kassi as a romantic competitor: I had first intended bringing Kassi into my circle to divert Marvin’s attention hoping he would prefer her to me as she looks amazingly like me and Jenna and is much younger. I was surprised to find when I though there was an excellent chance to channel Marvin’s ardor toward another woman I didn’t want to give him up to another woman and found that I’m enjoying the thrill of the chase outwitting a very smart man intent on impregnating me.

I had already begun enticing him with Kassi when he told me she doesn’t have the aura or scent to match Jenna (nor any interest in him) and when I had Kassi insert one of Jenna’s diaphragms Jenna’s Chi did nothing to increase his interest in her or her interest in him. So my fear that Kassi and I would be competing for Marvin’s affection and compound his delusion appears to have just been a case of nerves on my part.

Marvin is strong, handsome, rich, nearby and he has been an amazing help in establishing my priorities as a Priestess of Aphrodite. His semen is potent – I’ve had it checked – his sweat smells divine and he is a considerate lover who is fun to be with. I do have to be very careful not to have him catch me w/o a cervical barrier inserted, but that’s a fun part of the game. It is unlikely either a Reflexions or Oves will leak, but no method of contraception is perfect so there is always the possibility he can impregnate me and he so wants to do that! So I now look on my relationship with him as a marvelously sweet encounter as I’m able to make him very happy as he guides me in coming to terms with my responsibilities as a Priestess of the Goddess of love.

Jack’s current activities: Recently Jack, Viscount Sandbach,  who is my main Brit lover, has taken quite a fancy to a ballerina (I’ll call her Ashley) who is in her mid 20s and dancing with the Royal Ballet. I met her briefly at His Grace’s party after the Scotland independence vote this Fall and she comes from an aristocratic English family which makes her prime bridal material for him, at least as far as his father, the Duke of M**** is concerned. Willow knows her well having danced with her when she was with the RB and says this time the girl really is sweet and would make him a lovely wife from a suitably patrician family.

As Viscount Sandbach Jack has standing with the Royal College of Arms and is pursuing enquiries on my behalf about a title that seems to have become vacant from the recent death of a 103 y/o Welsh Countess. His effort in that regard is perhaps partly from his fondness for me, but I suspect should his enquiries be successful he hopes to blunt any anger I might feel if he decides to marry Ashley.

There are almost no titles above Baroness for women in their own right, only as the wives of Earls/Countess, Dukes/Duchess Marquisess/Marchioness). etc. So if it should turn out that I am a hereditary Countess then that would be extremely exciting.

Descent of claim:  The problem is that that the title would come down through my biological father who knew my mother in the UK before she immigrated to the U.S. I have always been told that my mother and her ‘Uncle’ (my biological father) weren’t married to one another and so I would not inherit any title that would flow to his legitimate heirs. However, there seems to have been a record in an obscure Welsh church of their marriage prior to her coming to America where she eventually married the man who she lived with (and who when I was growing up I considered to be my father) when she was killed in an auto accident when I was 7 y/o.. I only learned who my real father was upon his death when his entire estate was put in trust for me and I was given the interest from the holdings until I turned 35 at which time control of the entire estate was turned over to me.  So I don’t need the money (if there is any) but it would be fun to have a title and a castle.

A change in the Solstice ceremony: I’m taking Marvin along when we go to Crag Abbey and Ullapool for the Solstice and Yule.  I ned to have a therapy session with him in the temple to Aphrodite/Venus in the undercroft of Crag Abbey. In a sacred site for the Old Ways thousands of years old he should be able to help me gain far deeper insight into the powers granted to a priestess of Aphrodite.

I had been wondering how I could get him professionally involved w/o making Jack jealous and now that he is deeply involved at least for the moment with Ashley that gave me the perfect opening to add him to my support staff. I can get away with flaunting my current lover as His Grace sees Marvin as a sign I’m no longer intent on marrying Jack and Jack is happy that I have a man to slake my libido while he is fucking Ashley’s brains out.  

Both His Grace and Jack need me to preside over a proper celebration of sunrise on celestial occasions as a primary Priestess of Aphrodite so they are pleased that Jack’s and my partner’s switches have been accomplished under amicable circumstances. However, for the Solstice I’m using Marvin as far more than my boy-toy. In his capacity as a board certified psychiatrist in the UK and an expert in ancient Goddesses he is of significant use helping Chris with the selection of married couples from His Grace’s extensive population of Crofters who will be concelebrating the Solstice and participating in the ritual planting of winter seed to raise a crop of healthy offspring  in the Fall.

Actually, as this is written Chris and Marvin are both in the Highlands with His Grace’s Scottish Estates Manager  selecting couples for the Winter Solstice ceremony. Not that my wards and I won’t lead the ritual seed planting, but the intent is that heavy lifting and pregnancies will occur to the fertile Crofter’s couples being selected.   

 

 

The ultimate fetish pointe-shoe

The ultimate fetish pointe-shoe: the Bloch Alpha (S0104) ¾ outsole pointe.

The Photo: The Bloch Alpha (S0104) ¾ outsole pointe. They show off a woman’s high arches wonderfully and guys seem to like the heels totally sheathed in satin. These are my menstrual shoes a bit larger that the ones I wear during the rest of my cycle.  The Alpha S0104 should only be worn by experienced dancers, but that hasn’t stopped wannabes buying them from their LDS after I recently began wearing mine to the clubs in town. If that continues the sports Orthropods should be busy with ankle and foot injuries. I thought I’d post this shot as men always seem to appreciate seeing me with my legs in the air.

The Bloch Alpha as a fetish pointe-shoe: Not only are pointe-shoes more physically and technically difficult to wear than ballet-boots, but the Bloch Alpha is (in my opinion) the most difficult pointe-shoe to train, perform and play in. Since I’ve been wearing Alphas to the foot-fetish venues at Naughty Pleasures there has been a spike in interest in Bloch Alpha pointes by other women far less qualified to wear them than me.

Alpha pointes for ballet-sex: Wearing Bloch Alpha pointes for ballet-sex [defined as: being penetrated from behind while bent over holding on to a barre, chair or table with the feet sur les pointes a la seconde] should not be attempted by inexperienced women. Alpha pointes are for women very experienced in pointework at the professional level and then only by ones with very strong feet. A friend suggested I try Alphas for ballet-sex. I was skeptical, but I’m glad I agreed to try them as I love wearing Alphas when being taken by a lusty man!

Returning readers know how much I like hard shanked Gaynors for ballet-sex since they allow me to not have to concentrate on staying over the blocks and let me enjoy my orgasms. And with platform pads Gaynors provide the best protection against injury from thrust-drop with a much taller partner. With Alpha’s very light full insoles - a 2.5MM red board just above the outsole cut while a full-length top layer of leather board is placed to protect the arch tendons and muscles - no appreciable weight can be put on the heels for any length of time though the insole will flex during thrust-drop. But putting weight on the heels (called ‘sitting in the shoes’) can crush the light insoles which provide no support.  However, Alpha pointes look and feel amazingly erotic!  Alpha runs 2 ½ sizes smaller than my street shoe size and the widths are narrower than in Freeds. The 4 ½, my regular size, are just a tiny bit snug on me with toe pads which I like in a pointe-shoe made of conventional materials because they will stretch slightly with wear. The 5 ½ size I wear when I’m on my period.

The eroticism of wearing Alpha pointes and knowing how they show off my high arches motivates me to both stay over the blocks and be able to relax enough to enjoy my orgasms something I’d found difficult to do before in shoes made of conventional materials. And, satin under the heels gives them an inverted heel ratio that stretches the Achilles tendons when flat, which is always a good thing. They are a bit different and harder to balance in when used to wearing full soled more heavily shanked pointes because of the lack of full supportive shanks, which I think is good in a training shoe. And the width is narrower, but the broad box is excellent for the Giselle/peasant foot with three toes of the same length which I have and I love the sueded insole liner.

Risks and rewards: There are risks for dancers like me with high arches when wearing Alpha with a ¾ outsole and basically no shanks as we typically have weak arches and need hard shanked shoes. However, I have very strong feet and more than thirty years on my toes so I feel quite safe while wearing them for ballet-sex even when with a partner where there is significant thrust-drop. That’s because as tight as the shoes are my toes are numb by the time I warm up and he gets his rhythm going. I just need to be sure my nails are cut close so I don’t bruise a nail when I’m dropped on my platforms. As a masochist I like the feeling of being dropped on my toes and as a narcissist I love how well the shoes show off my high arches, satin sheathed heels and make my feet and legs look gorgeous! 

 

 

The eroticism of used pointe shoes

A toe-goddess’s gently used pointe shoes

The photo: A pair of my used pointe shoes. Once worn the shoes contain a bit of my Chi – just as the ‘death rubber’ diaphragms which I harvest from women who died while wearing their diaphragms during a sexual encounter, retain a bit of the Chi of their dead owner which I use to significantly increase my libido and possibly my sexual skills from those of the previous owner.

The used pointes will retain my Chi after they are dead and discarded unless they are consumed by fire. That’s why I burn all my dead pointes after they are no longer useful for wearing deshanked for class. The wearer’s Chi is released when the shoes are burned so none of my experiences and skill can be used by another wearer even if s/he is a sensitive. The important part for me is that no one, except someone I’m in a romantic erotic relationship with, will ever get anything, garments or shoes containing my Chi.

Souvenirs: I am constantly asked for a memento of my performances by members of the audiences or after a sexual encounter with a partner or even by readers posting comments to this blog. Except in rare instances I don’t give away anything I’ve worn or used (see above) even keeping and burning the condoms that my partner(s) and I occasionally use. When souvenirs are given by me they are new toe pads which are inexpensive if bought in the quantities we do. My only exception is my erotic gifts to my main squeeze John, Viscount Sandbach, known to frequent readers as Jack.

Misogyny, masochism and the eroticism of pointe shoes: Male interest in the female foot and footwear is as old as time. Perhaps the forerunner of the pointe shoe was foot binding in 10^th or 11^th century imperial China. The pointe shoe as we know it is a relatively new invention having a blocked toe-box and shank only in the mid 19^th century. The pointe shoes eroticism stems from the fact that while on pointe the woman looks ethereal and with her calf muscles and buttocks contracted being en pointe presents the woman’s body in the most attractive way possible.  

In addition, the pointe shoe is seen as a tangible symbol of a woman’s skill and power and increases her ability to cloud men’s minds with her exquisite femininity which pointes show off to a skilled dancer’s advantage. The pointe shoe is also seen by knowledgeable men as a symbol of the vagina because of it’s femininity and tight fit. An excellent article about fetishes and pointe shoes is “Consuming the Ballerina: Feet, Fetishism and the Pointe Shoe” by Keryn Carter (2000) in Australian Feminist Studies Vol. 15, No 31 pp. 82-90.

Some men enjoy the fact that even properly fitting and supportive pointes are uncomfortable to wear for most women and a misogynistic and sadistic man will find pointes the perfect footwear for a beautiful woman because he wants her to suffer while he takes her during rough ballet-sex. When that woman is a masochist and able to dominate him and enjoy the eroticism of her shoes giving her power over him and his sexual attention simultaneously he finds it confusing and he can get very angry unless she totally exhausts him sexually.

That’s the sort of volatile mix that I enjoy when Adolph is my partner for ballet-sex. He occasionally comes to me for release when he is very needy and abusing women won’t improve his disposition. He can be extremely dangerous and has amazing sexual stamina, but I love fucking his brains out since when sexually exhausted he turns into a marvelously obedient submissive.

Toe Goddesses and ballet-sex training: Since Willow and Andrea are my two newest wards they take up more of my time in training. Ballet-sex is one of the most popular and useful skills I teach since it shows off the woman’s body, provides her the best position to maximize her pelvic grip, demonstrates her strength and stamina to her partner and makes her feel confident and powerful. Not to mention completely pussy whipping any man who adores a strong pelvic grip and falls in thrall when ripple gripped.

Willow as a professional ballet dancer has beautiful and very strong legs, but still needs to increase her stamina for repeated acts of ballet-sex, which returning readers remember is defined as being entered from behind when standing sur les pointes a la seconde while bent over holding on to a barre, chair, table or railing with both hands. Willow’s feet and legs are strong enough that she can train for ballet-sex in pointe shoes and like most women having ballet-sex she wears hard shanked Gaynor Minden shoes which give the best support, are the most comfortable and last far longer than shoes made of traditional materials.

Andrea on the other hand while having more than seven years of pointe has never really trained hard having only at the most two 90 minute classes a week. As a result she is nowhere near ready to have ballet-sex in pointe shoes. So while she builds the strength in her feet and ankles for pointe work I’ve started her ballet-sex training with her wearing ballet-boots. Her pairs of Gepettos lightly armored boots with unitized titanium toe-boxes and shanks, replicable titanium lace-splitter heels and Inman release heel guard arrived last week and she has been wearing them around the house. She wanted to wear them to UNLV, but I said no since that would surely draw a crowd and have more men sniffing after her than she already has. She’s fertile at the moment, as am I (I’m CD9) and she is giving off breeding pheromones like you wouldn’t believe so her strutting around in ballet-boots at UNLV right now with a crowd of randy males following her would be a huge distraction; not that she wouldn’t enjoy leading them around by pheromone penis leashes.  I’m pleased to see that her fertility seems to have returned so quickly. With luck, since we train and sweat in such close proximity her cycle will synchronize with mine, as my other wards cycles have, by the time of this years Vernal Equinox on March 20^th.

Fucked in ballet-boots: The stability of properly fitted and laced ballet-boots which allow putting most of the wearer’s weight on her heels and help stabilize her ankles while taking her partner’s thrusts allows a woman who can’t wear pointes for ballet-sex to train and enjoy the tightening of the pelvic muscles almost as tight as if she was balanced over the blocks of pointe shoes. I’ve put her on a diet to reduce calf cramping while she’s training in ballet-boots and she and Willow have now joined me running up and down a flight of 20 concrete steps that descend into one of the sub-basements of my home. That is an amazing workout and while Willow can usually follow me Andrea can only run up the steps the first time. Given her background and the time she has been training that’s quite good. I have germ wearing the heel guards while training as she is sometimes lifted off her feet right now while taking her partner’s trusts and I don’t want her moving a foot and driving the tip of a lace splitter heel through a partner’s foot. She’s up to taking a partner four times in an hour before her calves are so sore she has to remove her boots and have her calves massaged, but that’s significant progress. In comparison Bea, who has been wearing ballet-boots for more than two years can wear them for ballet-sex for several hours w/o her calves cramping. Of course with so much time on our toes we all have to wear negative elevation heels – or negative wedges strapped to our pointes if like me my girls wear their pointes most of the time while at home. - to prevent shortening of our Achilles tendons.

Vaginal fashion at Naughty’s: I took Willow, Andrea and the Swan twins to Naughty’s Boot Bar for the first time Sunday night to celebrate Andrea’s freedom from requiring her partners to wear condoms while her uterus healed from her termination. We all wore .3mm chlorinated latex catsuits, hoods, gloves and Gepettos lightly armored ballet-boots with lace-splitter heels. When the five of us walked in there was a hush as everyone stared and then men started coming over to introduce themselves before we were even seated. Once we were settled we let the men present their STI credentials and take the girls out to dance and have ballet-sex while the girls were in Bar-sling harnesses. In a bar sling they could plant their unguarded heels, lock their knees put their weight on their heels and the harness and let the men they had chosen open their relief zippers and insert fingers to see what a young toe-goddess was wearing as vaginal fashion. The girls were all wearing 22mm FemCaps and I had an Oves screwed down tight on my cervix. I had double bagged with a latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm since I was sure I would become fertile in the next 8 hours.

I was offered an encounter by a lovely married man who was in town for a conference. He was a considerate and knowledgeable lover. When he opened my relief zipper and inserted two fingers he immediately recognized that I had a latex flat spring diaphragm inserted and said his wife wears a silicone All-Flex. He was so complimentary about my muscle control when he faded and I brought him back from the dead - while I whispered in his ear telling him how strong and handsome he was - to a marvelously hard and thick erection and a massive ejaculation that was draining out of me as he was still pumping more in. He said he hadn’t had sex in weeks as his wife was about to deliver another daughter, their third, and he intended to try for a boy next time.  He was so proud of his family and I wondered if he accidently impregnated me if I could give him a boy. It was best for both of us not to go there and I said nothing, though I did take his phone number and gave him the number for my PA who handles all my incoming calls. He was a really sweet man even though he was cheating… and I was pleased to have given him some relief and enjoyed him sharing his body with me. The girls and I all returned home sated and draining fresh semen. It was such a lovely evening!

 

Cervical barriers and BDSM

Reflexions flat spring latex diaphragm preferred by dive-sex professionals

Premature ejaculation in the fetish world: I’m working with my psychiatrist who is treating several of his patients for premature ejaculation. Premature ejaculation (PE) in the vanilla world is annoying and embarrassing to men and frustrating to their women partners during recreational sex, but it doesn’t affect their fertility. If he is erect and can get it in before getting off he’s a success at procreational sex. In the fetish world where Viagra, Cialis and Lavitra are consumed like breath mints by males of all ages the inability to control the ejaculation reflex and retain an erection for extended intervals, even with a cock ring, can be a psychologically crippling condition and will affect a man’s standing with women while competing for the most desirable females.

Rather than medicate them with anti-depressants which make it more time consuming for some men to reach orgasm my psychiatrist is trying to have these patients become so used to visual erotic stimuli - in the form of a rubber-girl masturbating - that they can begin to regain control of their ejaculations. I wear a black latex catsuit with a hood that hides my features so I can’t be identified, ballet boots and special black latex exam gloves. I speak very little during a 25 minute session with each patient though I do gasp, mew, moan, whimper and occasionally scream while using my fingers or a dildo to give myself orgasms. The object for the patient is to be able to go the full 25 minutes w/o ejaculating while he watches me masturbate to multiple orgasms.

I wear an Oves cap (my secret) and then ‘double bag’ for safety (in case I’m overpowered during the session and the patient pulls my diaphragm out – see ‘BDSM and cervical barriers’ below) while letting the patient watch me insert a Reflexions (latex) diaphragm in case the patient loses control and mounts, penetrates and ejaculates inside me. In which case we begin again and a second occurrence of that behavior and the Doctor bills the patient $500 for each time I’m mounted. Having a guy drop $1,000 in less than 25 minutes usually focuses a patients mind. All sessions are videoed so there are no billing disputes. For my own safety I insist that all the patients I perform ‘erotic therapy’ with have been recently tested for STIs and are clean before I begin treatment since, as I mentioned, it is not unknown for men to lose control and mount their erotic therapist though it’s far more common to get splattered with semen, especially during the early sessions of a patients treatment.

One reason I wear black latex is that fresh milky white semen splatters show up well on a black background for the video. I wear a splatter mask, a pair of oversized contact lenses, to minimize the chances of getting semen in my eyes (it burns) since some patients have amazing force behind the first three or four ejaculations of semen. I’ve treated four patients so far and three have shown substantial increases in ejaculatory control by being able to go the entire 25 minute session w/o spilling seed after only 5 treatments each.

Many of these patients have wives and young children and had begun experimenting with fetishes to try and correct their inability to perform sexually at the level their wives require, so in addition to our therapy sessions I try to help the patients with tips about what to do to improve their standing at home. At the end of a successful session I allow the patient to mount and get off inside me (a non billable orgasm for the patient) or if he insists I’ll blow him. But then I give him a deep kiss and spit his semen back into his mouth and force him to swallow it. After that I’m not asked for any more blow jobs by that patient. I prefer to be mounted since I enjoy being able to have that much control over a partner and love having a man’s semen draining into my thong. I also like being able to release the patient’s tension after a difficult 25 minutes and taking him for my own pleasure gives me a feeling of accomplishment as well as feeling sated and confident after mutually orgasmic sex.

Cervical barriers and BDSM: A group of young Rubber Sluts (a rank in the local BDSM community that has nothing to do with a woman’s moral character) have asked me to give several seminars on the advantages and disadvantages of using a cervical barrier in the BDSM community. Almost everyone involved in dive-sex out here knows by now that wearing a gas guard during dive-sex is important for a woman’s safety but the choice of which barrier to use and the benefits and drawbacks of diaphragm vs. cap is not always clear. They felt the need for the class became obvious after there were several incidents involving local women in BDSM clubs that put women’s lives at risk. I offered to hold the classes for their entire club membership, but they wanted a private meeting rather than having their Masters or Doms present so they could ask as many personal questions as possible w/o feeling controlled by males.

Reflexions diaphragm: FemCaps and Reflexions flat spring diaphragms are the barriers of choice with the Reflexions far more often used because it is capable of providing a better fit, is less likely to be uncomfortable for a male partner regardless of his size, is nearly impossible for a male partner to under-thrust the rim, can being worn for protection at any time in a woman’s cycle and – unlike most silicone barriers - can be used safely with silicone intimate lubes (like DiveGel) during dive-sex. And the latex dome is stretchier and transmits heat better than silicone so it is almost like skin-on-skin contact. The only possible down-side to wearing the Reflexions is if the woman has a latex allergy. Latex cervical barriers are more easily damaged by oily meds and lubes than are silicone ones, but with proper care a latex diaphragm should last a year or perhaps two even in frequent use. Other diaphragms made of silicone like the Ortho All-Flex and Milex Arcing spring and Omniflex are more easily under-thrust and can be destroyed not only by oily meds and lubes, but also by silicone lubes used with them and silicone lubes are an important part of dive-sex safety.

FemCap: The FemCap is far less effective than a diaphragm as a contraceptive device primarily because of the small number of sizes available (three) which means that fewer women using it can get a really good fit. And the removal strap can often hurt a partner especially in positions where deep thrusting occurs. However, in the BDSM community the FemCap is very dangerous because it can be so easily misused; pulled out of the woman’s vagina before penetration and either used as a butt plug where the diameter of the cap with the man in her vagina gives her the discomfort of double penetration and the possibility of having to go to an ER to have it removed if her Dom/Master hadn’t tied a cord to the removal strap so he could retrieve it.

However, far worse from a safety standpoint, is to have the FemCap stuffed in her mouth as a gag. And I don’t mean from the bitter chemical taste of spermicide. Using FemCap as a gag is extremely dangerous and has resulted in brain damage from asphyxia when the cap was shoved too far down the woman’s throat and blocked her airway and the Dom/Master hadn’t pulled it out in time with a cord tied to the removal strap. If the removal strap is cut off there is nowhere to attach the cord and a strapless FemCap shoved down a woman’s throat will almost certainly lead to her suffocation. I recommend that FemCap not be worn by women in a BDSM relationship because of the possibility of and danger associated with its misuse. A latex Reflexions diaphragm is far safer and more effective device for dive-sex and is less likely to be misused by the wearer’s partner. To the extent that the Dom/Masters are predisposed to latex over silicone I try to steer the Rubber-Sluts toward using the Reflexions diaphragm for protection during dive sex and for other more vanilla uses in their lives.

Entonox as a fetish gas

An Entonox cylinder with hose and mouthpiece

Entonox: A friend on the West Coast has been asking about my experience with Entonox. Entonox is nitrous oxide mixed 50:50 with oxygen and is a commonly used method of obstetric analgesia with maintenance of consciousness. It may also be used in the setting of minor procedures in the trauma department where transient analgesia is required. It is most often administered via a demand valve for self administration. A safety feature is that the mother controls administration.

Entonox takes 30 seconds to act and continues for approximately 60 sec after inhalation has ceased. For optimum effect in obstetric patients inhalation should start when the contraction tightens to co-ordinate the maximal effect with the central painful part of the contraction. There are minimal cardiovascular, respiratory or neurological side effects. It should not be used in patients with a pneumothorax or by SCUBA divers within 24 hours of their last dive.

The Medical Gas Data Sheet for Entonox: The MGDS for Entonox cab be found at: http://www.bocsds.com/uk/sds/medical/entonox.pdf some of its cautions are:

Entonox should not be used for more than a total of 24 hours, or more frequently than every 4 days, without close clinical supervision and hematological monitoring. Entonox is non flammable but strongly supports combustion and should not be used near sources of ignition. It will cause substances to burn vigorously, including some materials that do not normally burn in air due to the high concentration of oxygen within the mixture. It is highly dangerous in the presence of oils, greases, tarry substances and many plastics due to the risk of spontaneous combustion in the presence of oxygen in relatively high concentrations. Smoking should be prohibited when using Entonox.

Where moisturizing preparations are required for use with a facemask or in nasal passages, oil based creams should not be used. Check that hands are clean and free from any oils or grease. Where alcohol gels are used to control microbiological cross-contamination ensure that all alcohol has evaporated before handling Entonox cylinders or equipment.

Entonox and Lactation: There are no known adverse effects to using Entonox during the breast-feeding period, which I was glad to learn.

Entonox availability: Availability is tightly controlled because it is a potentially dangerous anesthetic gas. My supply comes from the large women’s clinic owned by the casino I work for which has a license primarily for obstetrical use and a small clinical trial ‘for the relief of cervical discomfort during intense intercourse with physically mismatched male partners’ using escort candidate trainees as the study population. The St Lucy’s supply is licensed for: ‘Physiology laboratory studies of intimate feminine pain during intercourse’, which is basically the same study, but with sexually active St Lucy’s girls. Nothing like telling it like it is! Even so, for personal use Entonox is difficult obtain so it’s a special treat to use when a cylinder of it becomes available.

A warning to the adventuresome: For safety reasons Entonox should NOT be used as a gas while SCUBA diving. That’s because the gas can collect in cavities in the diver’s body leading to decompression sickness (DCS) and below 60 feet there is a greatly increased risk of oxygen toxicity. However, for those who are willing to accept the risks of DCS to try Entonox while diving there are some equipment requirements. Always dive with a buddy who is not using Entonox so that if the Entonox user gets in trouble there will be someone to get him/her to the surface. Because of the high concentration of oxygen in Entonox the SCUBA FFMs used should be at least Nitrox 40 compatible so the effect on valves and seals of the second stage reg from the highly reactive oxygen will not be too rapid. Frequent maintenance of dive gear used with Entonox is highly recommended. Dosing requirements on Entonox can vary greatly depending on the weight and metabolism of the user so self administration is the best dosing regimen rather than supplying it directly through a SCUBA type regulator which may provide too little or in a few cases too much.

Entonox for fetish use: It’s not clear to me if it’s safe to use surplus rubber gasmasks with Entonox. My guess is that it’s not due to the reactive nature of the high oxygen content of the gas. New polycarbonate gasmasks like the Mestel SGE 400 and Nitrox capable SCUBA FFMs like the Ocean Reef Space Raptor used with Entonox must be cleaned of all oils and greases and all oily moisturizers and cosmetics should be removed from the faces of users before donning a mask to breathe Entonox to prevent the possibility of the mixture combining with the oils and spontaneously combusting inside the mask. Rubber enclosure suits should be tested for use with Entonox - before being worn for an Entonox encounter - to determine if the rubber material and latex cleaners and polishes can be used safely with high concentrations of oxygen even though the suit itself may not be pressurized by the gas.

Entonox at St Lucy’s: I don’t hold Entonox dive-labs for St Lucy’s girls because of the considerable danger involved, though some do get to experience the anesthetic effects of Entonox while wearing special medical grade silicone encasement suits for penetrative sex with extremely well endowed men – as covered under the school’s clinical trial protocol. That’s why they need self administered Entonox, to minimize the pain from having their cervixes rammed by a man who is a bit too large to be a safe partner for them.

In order to participate in the Entonox encasement suit sex-lab each student must be using an effective contraceptive method other than hormonal contraceptives and an Entonox lab participant must have a signed waver from her parents or guardian. The reason for excluding students using HCs is that women on HCs have difficulty becoming aroused and that means their vaginas don’t lengthen (tent) so they are at greater risk of having the ligaments holding the uterus in place torn by a large ramming penis (especially when using Entonox to mask the pain when that is occurring) Torn major support ligaments will cause it to drop and the cervix to be at the entrance to or protruding from the vagina. There is an operation that can reattach the uterus where it originally was, but it isn’t particularly successful as the ligaments that were originally torn don’t contract as much to cause the uterus to pull up and out of the way of a thrusting penis, which is similar to the hormonal contraceptive side effect that caused the original problem. Most students have GyneFix IUDs implanted or use cervical barriers so that doesn’t exclude too many students.

At St Lucy’s the students wear Ocean Reef Space Raptor FFMs that have been upgraded by the schools Divemaster for use with Entonox. The woman’s primary air is supplied from a standard SCUBA cylinder of Nitrox I – to ensure there are no reactive contaminants in the gas - on a trolley by the student’s lab-bed with the Entonox being supplied directly from a separate Entonox cylinder into the masks oral nasal unit through the drinking port by means of a standard self administered demand valve.

NuvaRing dive-sex and the diaphragm: We try to discourage use of NuvaRing by women, especially very young or petite women, wanting to learn dive-sex techniques. That’s because if worn in a gas-guard / diaphragm that is less than 70 mm in diameter the ring can interfere with the seal of the gas-guard. That’s because NuvaRing has an outer diameter of 54 mm and a cross-sectional diameter of 4 mm and it has to fit inside the dome with the cervix and if the ring is caught in the anterior fornix it could be pushed under the anterior rim of the diaphragm breaking the seal and causing it to leak and making it more likely that the diaphragm can be under-thrust. The ring can be removed for up to three hours w/o decreasing the woman’s contraceptive protection, but encounters can go on longer than that or the woman forgets to reinsert and then when she reinserts she has to wait 7 days for her hormonal protection to be reestablished.

Watching Aimée get drilled: It’s always a treat watching Doug pole a small woman and seeing him penetrate Aimée was no exception! Especially since it was her first time being taken by him and she was wondering to me - before their encounter - if she could take a man with a root that thick. She’s used dildos the same size or thicker, but with those she had total control of the depth and angle of thrust so she was a bit apprehensive. I told her she would be fine as long as she could take 6 inches w/o being uncomfortable and she assured me that recently she had been able to comfortably take 6 ½ so I told her she should be fine, and she was.

I told the girls I would stay out of their way, and I did. I didn’t say I wouldn’t watch which I did on the HD ‘security’ cams positioned so they make awesome porn videos of couples in the guest suites. Would I do that? Absolutely! The videos are not for sale, just kept on file in case a participant becomes a problem and I need leverage. I loved how Doug put several hard pillows under her buns to lift her pelvis because she is tiny like me and how Aimée adjusted her hips as she spread her labia to let Doug insert two fingers to check her lube. This was the day before she got her GyneFix and was still on Cerazette and she was dry. He inserted a 10 ml prefilled applicator of DiveGel to lube her then positioned the tip of his root to penetrate her. He held her hips and with a single long thrust all 6 inches of his shaft disappeared into her hard flat belly as she arched her back, threw her head back gasped and moaned. Doug is really good with G-spot orgasms and my labia were engorged and parted, my nipples and clit became erect and my natural lube wet my thong from watching Doug take her to a shuddering, gasping then screaming climax. I jilled-off caressing my left nipple with my right hand and the shaft of my clit with my left and came as he shot his wad filling her with his seed. This week Aimée has really enjoyed being away from academic subjects and being able to concentrate on perfecting her sexual techniques.

When she took other, longer, men – the girls swapped partners occasionally during the week - she used the woman astride position until she was sure how much of them she could safely take. That way she could control the depth and angle of penetration with her legs. All three of the couples needed full body massages after each full day of multiple acts of intercourse to sooth sore muscles in their thighs and abdomens. The intensity of the young women’s appetites for penetrative sex surprised the men they were partnered with as their stamina was put to the test. The girls are sad to be returning to there standard school day after Easter Monday.

Jack on women, sex and youth Vs experience

Giselle

Jack on youth Vs experience: “Perhaps I am a bit different than most out there being older. I observe some interesting phenomena without any data to understand how widespread or commonly held the paradigms I perceive are. First, most people respond sexually to young and healthy looking bodies (target partners). This makes sense from a performance perspective, younger are more fit and sex is a physical activity. But it is not usually thought of a skill we need lots of training for. Most sexual activity can be undertaken by most people aside from "positions" for coitus, for example which require extreme flexibility which is often associated with some manner of athleticism or dance training which are again activities performed by the young and healthy (mostly). Enter the mental aspect of sexuality. Sex may be instinctual in that it is similar to other biologic needs, driven by hormones and so forth, but it is a behavior which involves cognitive functions. We think about, plan, and fantasize about sexual encounters before and during the actual encounters. In fact, many will claim that the mind is the biggest or main sex organ of the body. Without our minds engaged in sexual activity and response we could enjoy it... I suppose it might be technically possibly to have a sexual response with no mental engagement, but how would we even know about it? I digress. Sex being a mind thing like the body thing makes better minds capable of "better sex". Learning any activity is both a physical and a mental development and in most cases they go hand in hand. A very young body (child?) has a very young and undeveloped mind and inexperienced mind. Therefore a young person cannot have achieved and advanced development of their sexuality. Of course when we reach physical sexual maturity we often are very intellectually and emotionally experientially naive. My observation is the kink and fetishes are the province of older, more experience, more aware, more developed minds. This doesn't mean that a lesser “sexually” developed mind can’t engage in kink, for surely they can. But the question is, is this a natural development of human sexuality.... or a bit of putting the cart before the horse... mentally and emotionally? Certainly we see that many endeavors REQUIRE experience and maturity and mental engagement to produce the best results... athletes and artists are obvious examples. But there are prodigies and this is a very outlier and mystifying experience”

I think there is some instinctual drive that causes men to select young beautiful women as sex partners. The smooth soft skin, the energy and ripeness of the figure all indicate subliminally that here is a set of reproductively healthy genes. And of course young women between the ages of 19 and 26 are the most fertile so when at mid-cycle are the ones most likely to become pregnant, a 50% chance from a single unprotected act of intercourse. Men are more attracted to women who are ready to ovulate probably by subtle body language and the woman’s scent which is why a fertile unescorted women at a beach, bar or fetish club will attract more men than one with the same or even better looks who isn’t fertile. I’ve had that happen. When I’m fertile – as I am now (I’m CD12) and will ovulate in two days - I can draw men away from a drop-dead-beautiful woman in her early 20s holding court with standing-room only men at the Meat Market. At 40 I’m still very attractive, but I’m not that beautiful! It’s the fact that my cervix is ripe and I’m about to release an egg and the men can sense it. That’s what has the guys peeling off her pussy-posse and following me. And they haven’t even had an opportunity to experience the delights I can provide from my 25 years of experience.

Jack on young women and the sexual experience learning curve: “So in the realm of sex we have an odd "thing" happening. On the one hand adolescents are "rearing to go"... and lacking experience and emotional maturity. Young, physically attractive, athletic and healthy (nubile) are what we covet in females (and the equivalent in males)... yet these bodies have hopelessly naive, inexperienced and emotionally undeveloped minds. For example, can a physically sexually desirable 25 year female make a "good" dominatrix? Well she could be dressed for the part, perhaps even learn some of the "moves", but could she truly posses the mental landscape of a more mature person? I think not. Maturity comes with experience and in a sense you can't get it until you are "equipped" to play in the big leagues. It's a bit of a conundrum for sure. The bottom line of this comment is that kink and fetish appeal fit with people of a certain level of mental development and maturity. We may desire young, for other sexual reasons, but to my mind young minds and kink don't match. And not only don't they match, but the idea is a bit disturbing or off putting. So what we get is the images mixing youth with what is associated with maturity... young models in fetish roles. I suppose it appeals to pedophilic desires in some people, but hopefully not in others. A good wine is not ready before its time. A great ballerina takes years and years of training and I would argue that a great fetish/kinky partner takes quite some time to form. Kink and fetish is much more of a mental overlay on the basic physical human sexual response. For example, vigorous fucking is rarely the emphasis, though sustained arousal and of course the desire for orgasm always is there... like the rabbit chased by the dogs around the track. I suppose this is why most fem Dommes are not nubile adolescent girls, but tend to be found in women in the mod to late twenties at the very youngest with most in their 30s, 40s and older. These are women of a certain level of experience, sophistication with a advanced level of social interactions and symbolism, style and composure simply not found in younger women. On the other hand a "sex slave" is hardly a role which requires more than the ability to take orders and be compliant... and this is well within level of a child's mental capacity.”

At St Lucy’s we work with our ripe bodied young women to guide their impressionable minds through a wide range of sexual experiences and alternatives, a smorgasbord of tricks and treats to be used for personal as well as mutual pleasure with a man. That way they have an extensive sampling of the delights available and can browse among them all or specialize in a few that take their fancy. We try to guide the girls toward interests that will draw and retain a man in orbit around her rather than into the more sophisticated field of D/S with any thought that she can quickly become a Domme and be good at it. But if that is a career path she wants to pursue we can set up interviews for graduates with responsible Dommes who want a younger woman as a student/slave to teach her the business, if she can last. Very few St Lucy’s girls are looking for that sort of life.

Jack on youthful heroines in ballet: “The same conundrum is present in the world of ballet. For example Romeo and Juliet is a about teens and to dance these roles one must look like a teen and dance like a season artist with decades of training. So we get younger and younger dancers, isolated from the real world and maturing experiences being asked to "act"/play roles which are much older people in many cases, or deal with mental states and experiences these talented dancers can't possibly have any real life experience with. Their AD's I suppose are helping them with this sort of thing. Remember how Nina was prompted to reach for "sexual passion" to help her with the role of Odile... I doubt whether an AD would actually do such a "thing" but it supports the notion that adolescent sexual energy is perhaps the most mature passion a naive mind can grasp... selfishness and greed come pretty early to children... and are hardly the province of adults. We sort of have in sex - fetish two sets (similar to ballet) of "curves" plotted over time... body curve tends downward and mental maturity curve tends upward over time. So in the "beginning" body is "there" and mind is not developed and at the end … after passages of years... mind is there, and the body is waning. The latter can be found with some sort of rigorous work... but one can't win that battle. The mind however can keep growing and advancing. And so for "mental" sex older is no handicap and is in fact an advantage. Perhaps that is why there are so many pervy older men (and women)?”

In one company I danced with the Ballet Mistress was thought to have been responsible for breaking up a romantic relationship between a female principal and an outsider (non-ballet) male to give the young principal some perspective on romantic loss to prepare her for the role of Giselle she was being groomed for.

Jack on the male libido: “The underlying driving urge for sex in a male is driven by his genes. THEY want to be passed along and so they have created the pleasure of sex to get them into another generation. Males aren't aware that they are having sex for their genes and so I suppose the self desire to leave a sex partner pregnant might be those genes working their way into his consciousness. Unless he intends to be a father, help raise a child or settle down with the woman, leaving her pregnant for her to deal with the 20yrs of raising a child on her own (presumably) is an act of extreme selfishness which not only makes it tough on the woman, but makes it hard on child who will likely grow up never seeing or knowing his father, the love and caring of two parents and so forth. I suppose there is the possibility that he might want to stick with the woman and her pregnancy may be the beginning of a committed relationship. She might be abortion averse and so she might demand he act responsible and "tie the knot" or commit to her and his future child. A child SHOULD be wanted, and when they are the result of self sex it's not likely to work out very well. But even the best laid plans of mice and men go awry. Suffering is not a good thing and being the cause of it or contributing to it makes one a monster.”

“It’s the woman’s problem”: I completely agree with what Jack says here that men have a hormonal drive to reproduce whether they realize it or not. During recreational sex women CAN NOT depend on a man to take the necessary contraceptive precautions, (except by withholding her favor) unless he is concerned about the possibility of contracting an STI. That is why I don’t think a male birth control pill will be effective for general use. Some few men who don’t want to be trapped by a woman who says she is on the pill and isn’t will use it, so a paternity test will prove he isn’t the father, but otherwise I think most men don’t care because “it’s the woman’s problem”. That is why we drill into our St Lucy’s girls from a very early age that as far as sex is concerned they are responsible for their own protection. They are the only ones who can be depended upon to protect themselves from unintended pregnancies while learning to use their bodies to attract and retain a suitable mate. I’m not sure I’d call a man a monster who intentionally impregnates his partner and then abandons her because she does have alternatives, but he is certainly unthinking and selfish.