The scent maven and masochism

Well used Freed Classic pointes with ¾ shanks

The Photo: A pair of well used Freed Classic pointe shoes with three-quartered shanks (similar to the ones I wear for performances) which show off the arches of the dancer’s feet. Anyone wondering if wearing dancer modified pointes are comfortable has only to look at where the shanks have been cut away from the outer soles and where the wearer puts her weight when on her heels, which is why we seldom put weight on our heels for long when wearing pointe-shoes with customized ¾ shanks. A great many successful female ballet dancers are masochists to some extent which makes it easier to deal with the discomfort of wearing and performing in pointe-shoes.

 Masochism: The term has several meanings:

1. The deriving of sexual gratification from fantasies or acts that involve being made to suffer physical or mental pain. Also, called sexual masochism.

2. The deriving of pleasure from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.

3. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.

Most women ballet dancers I know fall under the third meaning of the term. Though for me the discomfort (significantly lessened for me by wearing Gaynor Minden shoes for play) is worth the power, confidence I get from wearing and performing in pointes.

The scent maven: I like to be able to provide a fetish partner with a wide range of feminine scents to choose from when we are having a sexual encounter and the extent of options available for my scent bouquet will depend on where I am in my cycle and what I wear.

Some erotic scent sources:

The aroma of estrogenic sweat soaked pointes: Ballet and foot fetishists often agree that the English paste used in Freed pointe shoes made of traditional materials; hessian, cardboard, satin, leather and paste produces the best bouquet when soaked in a dancers estrogenic sweat. A quick way to get them sweat soaked is to wear them while exercising in a latex catsuit or leggings. Especially if they have three-quartered shanks (as in the photo above) since the sweat pours out of the ankle opening and into the backs of the shoes to be soaked up by the raw leather where the top of the shank has been cut away.  

Wearing them for too long when in latex can get them so soaked that the blocks will never recover even when heavily jet glued so if anyone tries this do so with an old pair first. There are a few pointe fetishists who like the sweat soaked aroma of Gaynor Minden pointes that have a chemical scent about them and a really pungent odor if an anti-bacterial spray hasn’t been used on the insides and they have become ripe.

A fun alternative for moistening one’s pointes is to have a partner cum in your shoes in the toe-boxes or on the exposed leather undersoles of ¾ shanked shoes. Or, I like to fellatite a partner and rather than swallowing his load spit it into my shoes.  And of course, the ever-popular option of having him come in my toe pads then push my toes into the thick hot sperm rich cream fresh out of a favorite man before forcing them into the tight toe-boxes of favorite pair of play pointes.

Tacking stitches – visual foreplay: If the role is demanding and if there is time between shoe changes, sometimes professionals will sew ourselves into our shoes (like, into the tights). Or sew tacking stitches in the knot to tack the endings so they don’t come out mid-performance. Afterward it only takes a moment to cut the tacking threads of the ribbons if the shoes can be reused for another performance or class. Letting a man watch me cut the tacking threads and remove my pointes occasionally after a performance or play date, along with the first whiffs of sweat softened paste can be used as foreplay with a fetishist deeply in thrall to any woman who can confidently wear and perform in pointe-shoes. I’ve had some men so fixated that they prematurely ejaculate, but that’s fine as it takes the edge off a bit so they last longer when thrusting inside me.

Toe Cheese: A mixture of dead skin, nail polish chips, bits from toe pads, mixed with estrogenic sweat, liniment residue and occasionally spiced with blood and blister seepage that collects between the toes that is mixed with the aroma of the pointes the dancer wears, especially Freeds in which the scent of the paste can enhance the taste of a dancer’s toe cheese. A few expert pointe-shoe fetishists can tell which makers pointes his partner has worn recently by the scent of her toe cheese.

The aroma of a sweaty latex catsuit: Not that other latex feminine garments don’t provide their own bouquets, but a catsuit can provide both pelvic and breast scents, if the wearer is lactating. Though rancid breastmilk can be a scent-too-far for some as it can cause nausea for the couple and it can be costly since it’s almost impossible to get the rancid scent out of a latex garment w/o damaging it.

A latex diaphragm: A latex diaphragm worn for more than 24 hours and marinated in female fertile cervical mucus (FCM), arousal lube, or menstrual flow and male genital secretions can be a sinus clearing scent!  Though leaving a diaphragm in place with menstrual flow for a protracted interval is very dangerous as bacteria buildup can cause Toxic Shock Syndrome (TSS) which can be fatal.

A latex diaphragm, now very difficult to get other than by custom fitting, is far better to use as a sensory toy because the latex surface is a bit porous and so reacts with reproductive tract secretions far better than silicone. As a toy the diaphragm can be used to collect fertile cervical mucus for consumption by a male partner or, when I’m luteal, we can act out a breeding fantasy by him ejaculating in the dome and I insert it so the tip of my cervix is submerged in a pool of semen instead of spermicide while he inseminates me the traditional way in missionary.   

Menstrual discharge: A diaphragm either latex or silicone or a menstrual cup (I wear a Diva Cup) can be used as a container by fetishists who are fond of consuming their partner’s menstrual flow. Of m partners who are menstrual fetishists all prefer the silicone Caya because the cup is deeper and can be easily drunk from. My partners think another plus is the grip dimples which prevent it slipping out of their grasp while licking out the “clots”, which aren’t really clots but pieces of endometrium that often come out in my flow. All my menstrual fetishists claim consuming my flow is a nutritional supplement, as a source of iron.  They are also fond of its thick consistency and metallic scent. I do try to eat an iron rich diet to ensure I don’t become anemic from blood loss and I’m fortunate not to have extremely heavy or long and painful menses.

Latex and breast milk: Breast feeding while in a latex catsuit can be wonderful, but high-maintenance as the wearer has to be careful to clean up any milk leakage afterward or the milk and sweat combination will quickly turn rancid and getting that scent out of latex can be very hard and sometimes impossible to do. Occasionally, with a male partner who enjoys revolting scents wearing a latex suit smelling of rancid milk can be a plus, but those men are very rare and good quality latex catsuits are expensive so I have an inexpensive one that reeks of rancid breastmilk that I wear if I’m with one of them. When not in use I wash it and keep it in an airtight bag so the scent is contained. 

Sweaty leather ballet-boots: Returning readers will recall that I wear custom made ballet-boots made by my cobbler Gepetto. They have unitized titanium toe-box and shank assemblies and easily replicable titanium heel spikes in case one bends or breaks which is very unlikely.   Properly sized and genuine leather ballet-boots even though the leather breathes can cause the wearer’s feet to sweat and swell. The problem with ballet-boots is threefold: 1) it’s difficult to get the correct size and heel height and, 2) made of top quality genuine leather - not smaller pieces stitched together - they can be very expensive and 3) there are few cobblers who still make quality hand crafted ballet-boots as the market is small and there is little profit, so the maker is usually still making them because he loves fitting fetishists, especially women. The rich fresh leather scent of a pair of new quality leather boots can be amazing and only improved when soaked in the wearer’s estrogenic sweat.

When I’m out clubbing I’m sometimes accused of “holding court” because some of the male members in my circle will come to my table kneel and pledge their fealty by ejaculating into the laces of my boots. It’s a lovely gesture, but it does make the cleaning of them afterward more difficult. I usually let them dry then loosen the crusty residue with a brush and blow it out of the laces with a hair dryer then polish the boots with Obenauf's boot oil which makes the leather soft, shine and waterproof.

Stamina training and backup protection

A few pairs of dead shoes discarded by the corps

The Photo: Dead Freed and Bloch pointes discarded by the corps. Corps members go through four or five pairs a week. Sometimes more sometimes less depending on the ballets and roles danced.

Pilgrim’s Progress: Here I’m defining Nikolai as a ‘pilgrim’ since he whispers in my ear every time he fills me with his semen how he worships my vagina and the muscles that contract around his erection to milk him of powerful jets of molten pearl. In that sense as his ‘spiritual advisor’ I see him as every bit a sexual pilgrim who I am guiding on a ‘religious’ pilgrimage as intense with his psychological enthrallment and intimate physical interconnection with me as Marvin’s is. I’m pleased to say that Nikolai is very accomplished with needle and thread, a consequence of growing up with hand-me-down practice clothes he had to repair himself when he was a child in ballet school in Leningrad. So he has had no problem in sewing ribbons and elastic on his pointe shoes. He was also familiar with the need to keep his toenails short and I showed him how to economically and effectively use toe tape and toe pads. And he is an exemplary pointe student though he is working on his développés and endurance sur les pointes, but his leaps of course are exquisite!

Ballet-sex dangers, Corps dancer’s stamina: I’ve mentioned in an earlier post the trouble Nikolai got into by impregnating corps dancers, but that was the result of rare failures of the individual women’s IUDs. A much more likely problem is a dancer being injured during ballet-sex even though she is in great shape for dancing.  Returning readers will remember that my definition of ballet-sex is for the woman to be penetrated from behind then rising en pointe and remaining there for the entire time it takes for her partner to give her an orgasm and or to orgasm himself which can sometimes be as long as twenty minutes.  Problems can arise with ballet-sex for several reasons: 1) if the woman must stay continuously en pointe longer than her strength will allow causing her to fall off pointe or; 2) If she has a strong orgasm and doesn’t hold back a bit she could go jelly-boned and lose control of her legs and fall off pointe. 3) Unexpected thrust-drop which is where the male partner’s legs are longer than the woman’s so when he thrusts he lifts her off the floor and drops her back on her platforms when withdrawing which often causes badly bruised nails.  Closely trimmed hails and wearing Gaynor Minden pointes with the thick soft internal platform pads will help minimize the discomfort from thrust-drop.

Some of the more sexually adventuresome Corps girls have tried ballet-sex and found it exhausting and a bit scary so have come to me asking about private stamina training for being penetrated in that position. I suggest they wear Gaynor Minden pointes with sueded tips for their comfort, support and traction during ballet-sex as most of them perform professionally in bespoke Freed Classics. For training I tell them to use a large dildo with a remote controlled vibi and a large suction cup base and a portable barre as most of the fixed barres aren’t far enough from the mirrored walls to get between the mirror and the barre and be able to bend over and support herself on the barre. The height to fasten the dildo to a studio mirror is easily determined by inserting the dildo then doing a 90° forward bend while supporting herself on the barre and backing up to the mirror.  Then go sur les pointes making sure to retain the 90° forward bend and with one hand push the base on to the mirror to develop a good suction. Then step away from the mirror to get off the dildo and mark the spot on the mirror as the height at which the dildo should be suction cupped. Once the spot is unobtrusively marked on the mirror she can fasten the dildo when she wants go en pointe and back on to it then turn on the vibi and move back and forth up and down the shaft. Doing this several times a day and walking around home en pointe should build up stamina for ballet-sex in a few weeks.

Women’s clothing for ballet-sex: Of course the vulva has to be easily accessible. You can wear a thong and sports bra or a thong-back leotard or go commando. I don’t recommend commando because while training with a dildo or during an encounter with a lover secretions can flow profusely and drip on the floor where they can cause a slip especially while en pointe (which is why sueded tips are recommended) I think at least tights or a thong is needed to catch coital discharge while walking to the bathroom or dressing room to kegel out most of it. Since I’m lactating if I’m with a lover I’ll wear a front close sports top so I can breastfeed him as part of foreplay before he penetrates me, a thong or tights with a cotton gusset and old suede tipped Gaynors. I wear old Gaynors because they will probably get splattered with lube and genital secretions during the encounter.

Let Nikolai be Nikolai: I’ve decided not to attempt to suppress Nikolai’s libido, but let him be the awesome bull his ego and talent make him. I’m already guiding his choices toward a few of the stronger more talented sexually experienced company girls with powerful libidos. These are some of the ones who have a strong desire to see if they can satisfy him enough to take him away from me so in that sense I’m consorting with the enemy. However, I think my plan is clever as I’m turning my competition’s drive and lust to my personal advantage. I am supremely confident that Nokolai is deep enough in my thrall that daily dalliances will not affect his need to thrill me in any way he can. So I will have time to tutor him in the social graces and soften his interaction with women before I release him to select a mate for marriage and a family if he chooses. This arrangement will keep his needs slaked during the day while I’m teaching class and fitting diaphragms at Blackstone Clinic until I can have him to myself when we have both fulfilled our professional responsibilities.    

Caya as backup protection: The corps girls know I fit diaphragms at a private clinic and some of the more sexually active ones have come to me asking about using backup protection. All in the corps are supposedly using effective methods of birth control. However, the two pregnancies that Nikolai was involved with earlier this year have caused them to be extra cautious as often there is no work for a pregnant dancer – if she is pro-life - or there is a huge delay in the career of a rising star if she carries to term. So some of the most talented and attractive dancers, who are also some of the most sexually active, have asked me to fit them for a Caya contoured diaphragm as they are becoming popular as an effective backup method. I have fitted seven of then so far. One of the attractive features of a Caya, from a man’s perspective, is the very lightly textured (think matte) finish on the dome which partners find very pleasing to rub their glans against. In the UK a fitting is not required for a Caya as it is in the U.S. but if a woman buys one w/o a fitting she could find that her vagina is too small (60mm or less) or too large (85 mm or more) or her post-pubic vault is not deep enough to fully contain the relief arch on the anterior end and have wasted her money.

I think it is deliciously ironic that some of these Caya girls are the same ones I’m grooming as day-fucks for Nikolai and each thinks I don’t have a clue that she wants the Caya for backup protection while she works to seduce Nikolai for herself. That doesn’t bother me in the least as while they are young I am far more lovely as an adult beauty, sexually experienced and know tricks they have never imagined to bind a man emotionally to me. The thing I’m going to have to manage carefully is that they don’t turn on each other and cause social rifts the Corps.

Dressed to fill – fetish lactation, dive-porn

Lactating and dressed to fill

The photo: The twin Medela swing electric breast pump the kind I use to express my breasts when no ANR partner is available is awesome! It’s so convenient! I can pump when I’m driving or when aboard Limnaea II or riding The Dragon and store my milk in a small fridge. 

The Pleasure of pumping: I’m not feeding an infant so I can have a glass of white wine and relax and enjoy the experience when pumping with no fear of harming a breast feeding partner. My let-down reflex (LDR) occurs very quickly so I have to be fast in getting into the harness and fitting the shields over my nipples or I’ll leak all over myself, but having been lactating for years I can don and doff my Medela very quickly. Fortunately my LDR is not super sensitive as it can be with some lactating moms whose nipples will start to leak when they hear a baby cry. Pumping is not as fulfilling as if I have an infant or an ANR partner at my breasts, but there is still the suction on my nipples and the warm tingly sensation when my milk begins to flow. Lactating requires a lot of work to keep the pump hardware clean, wearing LilyPadz to prevent breast leakage staining my tops and using wipes to clean up spills so I don’t smell like warm breast milk.  However, there are some breast fetishists who love the astringent scent when rancid milk is mixed with the aroma of estrogenic sweaty latex and latex polish when his partner is in a rubber catsuit. Although for most men a bouquet that complex can be an acquired taste. As I’ve mentioned before I love that front close bras have become fashionable especially in sports styles that provide comfort, support and ease of getting in to and out of it especially for those of us in ANRs.

Morning Wood and lactation: When they find I’m lactation a new acquaintance will ask, “How old is your baby?” Then I have to explain that I’ve never been pregnant and my induced lactation was a rare side effect of changing then coming off combined (estrogen/progestin) hormonal birth control pills. I found lactating such a pleasure, though a lot of work especially for a performing ballet dancer, that I kept my milk flowing and have enjoyed exchanging intimate secretions with my lovers for years. The down side is that my breasts went from a 32A cup to a B which caused me to have to redefine my center for turns and balances. Too a B cup ballet dancer is a bit busty so for some roles I bind my breasts and I always empty them before a performance; preferably of course with in an ANR, but often when I’m traveling with a breast pump as any dancer who has ever tried it never wants to jump, turn and be partnered with full breasts again. 

Marvin was already in love with me as the reincarnation of his dead wife Jenna before he found I was lactating just as Jenna was for their young son when they both were killed in a car crash several years ago. The physical similarities between Jenna and me are astounding: height (5’4”), weight (105), hair color (red), eye color (green), bone structure (fine), handedness (left), pelvis (wide), diaphragm user (80mm) and now lactation.   

When he found he could actually have an adult nursing relationship with me - Jenna had allowed him only a taste as she needed all her milk for their baby boy – he was ecstatic and wants me to marry him, but while I love him I enjoy my freedom unconstrained by a marriage license. When we go clubbing I like to wear a fashionable nursing top or a front-zip latex catsuit that displays my breasts beautifully and can be opened for a partner to milk me.

Las Vegas to Baker’s Bay, Virgin Gorda: We got a late start out of McCarran on Saturday the 16^th  as Pirate, the man running my casino’s stable of escorts, gave my wards a small graduation party where we all had what might turn out to be our last Vegas sex, but maybe not. The distance from McCarran International Airport (IATA: LAS) to St Thomas USVI Cyril E. King Airport (IATA: STT) is 3,275 miles. At a cruising speed of 550 mph the flying time was about 6 ½ hours, perhaps a bit less with a tailwind going east. Landing at Charlotte Amalie at 9:00AM AST. It took an hour to transfer the luggage to the Wanton Lass for the 7 ¼ hour sail from Charlotte Amalie to Lost cove on Baker’s Bay.

The sailing distance from Charlotte Amalie, St Thomas to Lost Cove on Baker’s bay, Virgin Gorda is about 70.0 km (43.5) miles. About 6 hours 14 minutes by ferry. On board the Wanton Lass IV sailing at 6 mph (5.2kts) it should be about 7 ¼ hours assuming good weather and sea conditions. The US and British Virgin Islands are on Atlantic Standard Time (AST) which is the same as the U.S. Eastern Daylight time so we are 5 hours behind British Summer Time, BST.  I’ve had a floating pier and elevator installed so we able to dock and walk ashore. There is no more landing in small boats and carrying supplies and luggage across the beach and up the cliff stairway to the house which makes things far more convenient. We were all unpacked, showered and settled in in time to enjoy a late supper of Caribbean spiny lobsters and drawn butter on the veranda overlooking the cove.

Dive-Porn at Lost Cove: Taryn’s porn production company, the techies and actors, arrived the next day, the 19^th, to produce another dive-porn video. My wards including Bea all want bit parts so they may be extras appearing in party or beach scenes or anonymous in SCUBA in underwater group scenes. They all want penetrative sex on camera in beach, bed or dive scenes, but with their hair or backs to the camera obscuring their faces so they can’t be identified and none have tats so they can hide fairly easily in dive gear even when wearing bikinis. Taryn’s Director is always glad to have more young hard-bodied women for background and the professional actresses don’t mind as the men use the new girls to practice with and there is a divemaster on every dive so the girls are physically quite safe and since everyone in the film crew and my girls and I have had recent negative full STI panel screenings – coordinated through Chris our male Gyn who always comes to Virgin Gorda with us - we should be safe in that regard.

Having penetrative sex with a gorgeous and massively hung male porn star is, in addition to a thrill, always a great story for a girl’s-night-out. So the girls had me check the fit of their latex Reflexions diaphragms which they use for flood insurance since they all have GyneFix frameless and stringless copper bead IUDs inserted for contraception. The cunilingus scenes are being shot first since we all use DiveGel+ in our vaginas for the underwater sex scenes and the silicone lube doesn’t taste good and coats the mouth so it’s a good idea for a man to avoid eating her pussy when he just fucked his partner while she was using DiveGel.

While blocking out underwater scenes yesterday, the 19^th, we had an interruption when a rented sailing yacht about the size of the Lusty Lass entered the cove and anchored just outside the buoyed area where filming was underway. There were three couples in their late twenties or early thirties aboard. The women had hard athletic bodies and the men were handsome and well muscled making lovely couples. They put on masks flippers and scuba gear and came down to see what we were doing and it soon became apparent that they were very interested in participating. We were at a depth of about 35 feet when one of the women had a seizure and expelled her reg and her dive buddies couldn’t get it back in her mouth as she vomited.

I later learned she was newly pregnant and suffered a miscarriage on the dive. She has the single rod Nexplanon contraceptive implant and wasn’t menstruating so she didn’t know she was pregnant and the stress of the pressure changes during her week of diving probably caused the spontaneous abortion. It was obvious to all of us that she couldn’t recover and our divemaster helped the men get her aboard their boat. We called for a medi-lift helicopter which took her and her partner to the hospital at Spanish Town and then on to Charlotte Amalie to be treated for aspiration pneumonia and her miscarriage. Before he boarded the helicopter her partner told me she had no idea she was pregnant and had been on the contraceptive implant for several years with no problems. The rest of her party pulled up anchor and sailed for Spanish Town.  

To avoid that sort of thing is why we all routinely test for pregnancy. While the risk is slight since we are all using very effective methods of contraception we are all having frequent sex with unprotected and very potent men. You can never be certain that you are completely safe from conceiving and pregnancy and diving is a dangerous combination. During the spontaneous abortion the camera crew never stopped recording. The director just had them switch from the actors to the woman in her bikini with blood gushing around her thong as her contractions pushed the aborted fetus into the water and her reg floated free above her head as she vomited. He plans to use that few minutes of a real life and death drama in the porn video.

K-valves, burst disks and asphyxiation dive-sex

A cut-away view of a SCUBA tank 3000psi K-valve 

The photo: A cut-away view of a SCUBA tank K-valve showing the burst disk assembly protruding from the right hand side of the illustration. In the Sherwood 5000 K-valve, which is what we are currently using, the specially designed burst-disc assembly evenly distributes escaping air, preventing (to some extent) the tank from spinning or tipping if the burst-disc vents. However, the diver is still surprised, jerked around and left gasping without air.

Dive porn training & location shoot: The porn actress “Juicy Breeder” is working for Taryn’s porn production group and they will be videoing location scenes in the cove for the next few days. Unlike most porn stars she’s a blond with a trim balletic figure and 32C+ cup breasts so she isn’t pneumatic at all even though she is silicone enhanced. Like me she has an extremely long vagina when aroused so can take exceptionally well endowed men w/o being injured  For contraception she has a stringless ParaGard IUD inserted since she frequently performs in fisting and menstrual sex videos. However, she had never had dive-sex and wants children later, so she was anxious to be fitted with a Reflexions (she took a 80mm) for flood insurance while performing in the dive-sex scenes.

Her male Co-star, “Long Tom” Spencer, is a delight to work with once we got him past being paranoid of unprotected sex with women in my circle after we all exchanged current negative full STI panels. He is amazingly well hung and knows how to use every inch to please a woman so sex scenes with him involve very little acting and a lot of gloriously pure lust and hormonal ecstasy on the part of his lovers.

The video story line: A young competitive diver is having an affair with her trainer and she is competing with a rival and more experienced diver for her trainer’s affection. The heroine’s tank is sabotaged and ruptures during a dive-sex encounter with her trainer just prior to an important competition including her diving and romantic rival. The sabotaged tank creates a situation which exposes our heroine to new levels of danger and sexual intensity with her trainer. The Director is even going to use scenes of me breast feeding (Juicy and my nipples and areolas look quite similar) as the heroine is having to deal with lactation as a side effect of coming off hormonal contraceptive s which is something that happened to me IRL.

Burst disk asphyxiation testing: Some time ago Jack and I had been testing commercially available chemical heat-packs of various sizes which during their chemical reaction develop and sustain temperatures of approximately 54°C, or 129.2°F. When properly positioned against a relatively full 3,000 psi tank we hadn’t been able to get one or even several large heat-packs to raise the temperature (and therefore the pressure) of the gas enough to cause the burst disk to rupture and vent the tank.

So we enlisted Jeff of Labia Labs to develop a hand size industrial strength chemical hot-pack that can boil a large pan of water in a minute or so. We have tried static tests and the burst disk vented the tank submerged in cool water in less than a minute on all five HP steel tanks we tried them on. But there are safety problems since the pack can ignite fires if placed in contact with combustible material and so is in an insulated shell except for the active surface that is placed directly against the tank and held in place by a waterproof adhesive or in the case of steel tanks a strong magnet.

Having a burst disk vent during a dive is a scary experience even when you are expecting it! With Jack as my partner we tried it with the industrial strength heat pack attached to the lower end of my tank on several short test dives the other day. I find we are safest if I hold myself away from him by holding on to the shoulder straps of his tank harness with my elbows against my chest and forearms straight so we were a foot or so apart to keep our masks from colliding when I’m shoved into him and we start to tumble. Even when expecting the tank to vent it’s frightening and the roar of the escaping air is deafening and the tumbling disorienting and getting jerked around during an orgasm while the tank is venting and being unable to breathe or inflate a buoyancy compensator is immensely erotic, which complicates the process of pulling off my mask, grabbing Jacks buddy reg and starting to breathe off it because I don’t want to lose the incredibly strong vaginal contractions of an asphyxiation orgasm. 

Heading for the surface might not be a good option until the tank finishes venting as it may be safer to stay strapped to it rather than to unfasten the harness and have it smash in to you while still venting. Assuming of course that your partner has a buddy reg and you can get to it. That’s what Jack and I have been doing. When the tank begins to vent I hold myself away from him with one hand while pulling off my FFM and use the buddy reg on Jack’s octopus. Then after the tank has vented unfasten the harness and send the vented tank to the surface with a lift bag. I’m fortunate that I’m wearing a hood that deflects some of the roar of 80 cu. Ft. of high pressure air escaping and the bubble clous rushing to the surface. Jack and Tom say the noise doesn’t bother them. But I know if they are exposed to much of that it will affect their hearing.  Even with the hearing concern that test arrangement has worked well so far and we have kept our divemaster busy replacing burst disks and refilling tanks.

Even though it would be more photogenic with our long hair floating loose we are wearing hoods with sound absorbing ear protectors and the women have our hair in a bun or French twist under them so when the tank bursts our hair doesn’t get caught in the valves and hoses while the ruptured burst disk is venting and rotating the tank. The hoods also reduce to some extent the roar of the escaping air right next to the woman’s head and less then two feet from her partner. I’m not sure what the director will want to do for the production videos rather then just the test and training we have been doing, but I hope at least Juicy wears a hood to protect her hearing.

Women and erotic asphyxiation: I usually think of erotic asphyxiation as a guy thing involving hanging or suffocation with a plastic bag over the head. However, what we are attempting to do for a scene in the video is have me (and later the actress whose tank vents) having an orgasm when the tank vents and there is no gas coming through her reg driving her to a hyper-orgasm with unbelievably strong vaginal contractions. Her orgasm with no air at the very time when at maximum exertion and oxygen is needed most, being a form of erotic asphyxiation. Her partner’s buddy reg is just out of her reach and her vaginal contractions are their strongest while she can’t get air.  It’s a very delicate balance between unbelievably exquisite sex and brain damage and there are no stunt doubles, the actors do all the stunts themselves. So we need Juicy and Tom to get their timing down precisely.  

Today Jack and I have demonstrated to Juicy and Tom how a venting tank gyrates wildly when the burst disk ruptures on my tank while Jack is thrusting inside me. Then while I switch tanks Jack worked to bring Juicy to orgasm and to get her somewhat accustomed to the burst disk rupturing on her own tank so her being nearly asphyxiated and being saved by her instructor during their white hot dive-sex encounter looks realistic when worked into her training regimen for a competitive SCUBA race while fending off a rival’s attempts for sexual encounters with her trainer/lover.

During Jack’s time penetrating Juicy and rupturing her burst disk I work with Long Tom getting him used to the effort required to thrust into a woman during dive-sex while I relax and let him have his way with me enjoying the bone melting orgasms from the talented penis of a hard and rising porn star before we got to the part where he pressed the start button on the heat-pack attached to my tank and he held on while ejaculating in me as the burst disk ruptured and we tumbled in the roar and cloud of venting bubbles while I groped for the buddy reg on his octopus.

Menstruation, lactation and toe pads

Diva Cup, a silicone menstrual cup

The photo: The photo is of a silicone Diva cup used to collect menstrual flow. It can be left in for up to 12 hours according to the manufacturer’s guidelines– depending on the woman’s rate of flow - though I have worn one continuously for 24 hours on my light days with no problem. I haven’t written much about wearing a Diva because for me it is a special use device. Returning readers know that I use a diaphragm for flow control and that works well for me even when I’m diving because I can have sex while it’s inserted. However, there are special circumstances, such as when I’m wearing a drysuit continuously for hours and hours during which using a Diva cup works extremely well since I can wear it all day w/o needing to empty it even though my flow is heavier when I dive.

While the manufacturer recommends a Model #2 for women my age I find wearing the smaller model 1 cup fits me better because my continuous training with Ben Wa balls and Kegel exercises keeps the grip of my ‘vaginal vice’ very strong. I always carry a Diva cup in my dive bag in case I find I need to wear a drysuit when I’m menstrual. Then it’s standard procedure to insert the Diva just after empting my bowels and bladder and before putting on an adult diaper and pulling on the thermal underwear worn under a drysuit. The adult diaper doesn’t allow the same form fitting look as when a wetsuit is worn, but the pants of a drysuit are baggy anyway and I’m not on the runway at Lincoln Center during Fashion Week in a drysuit so the extra bulk of the diaper for when I have to urinate isn’t that noticeable. And besides everyone I know wears a diaper when diving a drysuit.

The dimensions of the Diva cup: For anyone interested the Model 1 cup is 1 11/16" (~4.3 cm) in diameter and the Model 2 cup is 1 13/16" (~4.6 cm) in diameter. Both cups are approximately 2 1/4" (~5.7 cm) in length in the body of the cup, with another 3/8" (~1 cm) stem (2 5/8" total length). The stem may be trimmed to adjust for comfort. There is a small difference between the two sizes (Model 1 is 1/8" (~0.3 cm) smaller), but it is important to use the recommended sizing to prevent leakage. The manufacturer recommends Model 2 if the user is 30 or over 30 years old. As with a diaphragm once the Diva cup is properly inserted and positioned at the lower end of the vaginal vault it can’t be felt by the wearer. I’ve worn a Diva for 8 hours in a drysuit on one of my heaviest days and filled it with 20 ml of flow. It will hold up to 30 ml. Another nice thing about wearing a Diva cup is if a man is into drinking menstrual flow drinking it out of a Diva is easier than drinking it from a diaphragm since it fits his mouth better and is easier to compress to squeeze out the last few drops.

Diving and lactation: As I’ve mentioned when writing about lactating before, lactating is a high maintenance function. Extra pressure from wetsuits and/or tight bathing suits puts a lactating woman at greater risk for plugged milk ducts so there is breast maintenance, keeping my nipples and milk glands soft with a lanolin base cream to prevent clogging and the need to wear a front closure wet or dry suit so I can breastfeed or pump my breasts w/o taking the suit off. When diving, in addition to losing fluid when I’m menstrual and due to my milk production I also lose fluid from immersion dieresis - a type of increased urine production caused by immersion of the body in water (or equivalent liquid) which is mainly caused by lower temperature and by pressure - so I have to be very careful to stay well hydrated. And of course I need to breast feed or pump prior to diving and then every 4 to 6 hours to prevent considerable discomfort from engorged breasts, so I take my portable battery powered Medela breast pump when I go on diving day trips.

Toe pads as an aphrodisiac: In my AST (advanced sexual techniques) class I’m teaching tricks to keep a man fascinated. It’s the little unexpected things like letting him suck on your sweaty, smelly and sometimes bloody, toe pads that keeps a man coming back for more. We all frequently change toe pads when changing shoes so with a bit of planning we can take along several pairs of well used, stained and musky smelling pads that are ready to be trashed so when we give them to a lover to suck the sweat, tape residue, skin particles and blood out of them it’s a bonding experience with the guy at no cost to the woman.

I’ve switched to toe pads too when I want to feel semen squishing between my toes. I used to have the guy(s) jack-off in the blocks of my pointes but now that I’m wearing Gaynors when I’m planning to have sex en pointe it’s more convenient and – because Gaynors last so long - it leaves less mess in the blocks after the semen dries if I have the guy cum in my toe pads. That way I can slip my toes into them and get the full effect of the thick slippery fluid oozing between my toes before I force my toes and pads into the blocks of the Gaynors. Another nice thing about using the pads as semen containers is that when I give the cum pads to a lover to suck on he gets a more complete olfactory and gustatory experience. In addition to their feted scent there is the musky taste of semen along with the salty taste of estrogenic sweat, blood and skin particles… a sort of balanced meal as it were, with the trace nutrients and minerals from sperm.

Gigi has a client at Splash who is a ballet teacher at one of the local schools and he has her take his ‘class’ while wearing Freed Classics - which he paid for as a premium item - in one of the small studios at Splash. He requires her to wear old toe pads and sweat in them during their 45 minute pointe class. Then when she changes into Gaynors for ballet-sex he takes her sweat soaked pads to put in his gasmask so he can fuck her with the scent of her estrogenic sweat intermingled with the rubber scent of his mask. She says that for a German he is a considerate lover and gives her her pleasure first. She says he sounds like Darth Vader with his heavy breathing and muffled voice through his mask while much of the air flow is blocked by her sweat soaked pads.

I’ve had several severely sexually repressed men chew on my filthy toe pads when I peel them off when changing shoes. One of them is a high ranking business associate who I successfully negotiate with in the gaming industry. These men have socialized fairly well and are successful in the business world and in public with women they appear on the surface to be masculine and almost misogynistic. When with a woman in private however, they are extremely submissive though highly virile and potent and they need the scent and taste of a smelly sweat soaked toe pad to perform sexually. I always wear convertible tights over a thong bottom leo and take a pair of Gaynors and several pairs of well used toe pads when I’m dealing with one of them. It’s important to know an opponent’s weaknesses when you are in the business world.

Ballet and lactation

Practicing her aim with a full breast

Ballet, boobs and balance: I had such a lovely chat with a friend last evening! It started with how the economies in our respective areas of the country were doing and I was telling him about how the trade in very high end escorts and porn had taken off here as men retreated into fantasy as the economy tanked and that the high end European and Asian men seem to prefer big breasted blonds. And since we are a service industry we provide what the customer wants.

We commented about breast size not being all there is to a woman and I agreed saying that even with me lactating I’m just a 32A/B cup and when my breasts are engorged I’m a small B. And that I’m glad my set is no larger since for a classical dancer large breasts are a problem. Big boobs throw a dancer’s balance off and there is inertia to overcome starting and stopping turns and in jumps and landings as well so a B cup is about all a classical dancer can handle w/o binding her chest with an elasticized bandage or wearing a really snug body suit with built-in compression cups.

My friend asked how I came to be lactating and I told him. I have told this story before but perhaps not on Blogger so I’ll go over it again for readers who might care. First, no I wasn’t pregnant. Several years ago I was working as a model for a Canadian latex fetishwear company and I got a lot of breast stimulation while getting in and out of latex encasement suits. And, at the time I had a boyfriend who was very big into boobs and breast play. So much so that it seemed, to me anyway, most of the time he was with me he had one on my nipples in his mouth. Over a several month period my nipples began to leak and then flow and my breasts started to grow larger as my milk came in. My doctor had my pituitary gland checked for a tumor – a common cause of an increased prolactin level and nipple discharge) and found none. After that he concluded I was healthy and I’d just had induced lactation from the amount of breast stimulation increasing my prolactin level.

Now that I’m established in Vegas I have a stable of men who milk me and seem to enjoy the taste of warm breast milk. Being milked always makes me want sex. I think the oxytocin rush coming from breast feeding was originally a bonding mechanism between mother and infant but for me it seems to work just as well between adults. And my younger Ward, Cyndi, loves to milk me too. I think at least with Cyndi I’m Bi because we have such a good time in bed together. Fortunately she turned 16 earlier this year so she’s legal now in Nevada. I try to be careful that both of my breasts get the same amount of attention so one doesn’t get larger than the other. That would really be hell for a classical dancer, having to pad myself out… OMG!

I have a portable Medela battery powered breast pump for when I’m traveling and there is no one around to milk me, but I try to find a man interested in volunteering and I’m usually successful, especially if I offer penetrative sex afterward. If I’m flying commercial I’ll just pour the pumped milk down the sink rather that the hassle of trying to tell the TSA screeners it isn’t a bomb. That’s one reason I have ‘Limnaea’ my Gulfstream G550. No showing my diaphragms and plug sets to screeners and sex in flight when I’m on my own plane!