The scent maven and masochism

Well used Freed Classic pointes with ¾ shanks

The Photo: A pair of well used Freed Classic pointe shoes with three-quartered shanks (similar to the ones I wear for performances) which show off the arches of the dancer’s feet. Anyone wondering if wearing dancer modified pointes are comfortable has only to look at where the shanks have been cut away from the outer soles and where the wearer puts her weight when on her heels, which is why we seldom put weight on our heels for long when wearing pointe-shoes with customized ¾ shanks. A great many successful female ballet dancers are masochists to some extent which makes it easier to deal with the discomfort of wearing and performing in pointe-shoes.

 Masochism: The term has several meanings:

1. The deriving of sexual gratification from fantasies or acts that involve being made to suffer physical or mental pain. Also, called sexual masochism.

2. The deriving of pleasure from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.

3. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.

Most women ballet dancers I know fall under the third meaning of the term. Though for me the discomfort (significantly lessened for me by wearing Gaynor Minden shoes for play) is worth the power, confidence I get from wearing and performing in pointes.

The scent maven: I like to be able to provide a fetish partner with a wide range of feminine scents to choose from when we are having a sexual encounter and the extent of options available for my scent bouquet will depend on where I am in my cycle and what I wear.

Some erotic scent sources:

The aroma of estrogenic sweat soaked pointes: Ballet and foot fetishists often agree that the English paste used in Freed pointe shoes made of traditional materials; hessian, cardboard, satin, leather and paste produces the best bouquet when soaked in a dancers estrogenic sweat. A quick way to get them sweat soaked is to wear them while exercising in a latex catsuit or leggings. Especially if they have three-quartered shanks (as in the photo above) since the sweat pours out of the ankle opening and into the backs of the shoes to be soaked up by the raw leather where the top of the shank has been cut away.  

Wearing them for too long when in latex can get them so soaked that the blocks will never recover even when heavily jet glued so if anyone tries this do so with an old pair first. There are a few pointe fetishists who like the sweat soaked aroma of Gaynor Minden pointes that have a chemical scent about them and a really pungent odor if an anti-bacterial spray hasn’t been used on the insides and they have become ripe.

A fun alternative for moistening one’s pointes is to have a partner cum in your shoes in the toe-boxes or on the exposed leather undersoles of ¾ shanked shoes. Or, I like to fellatite a partner and rather than swallowing his load spit it into my shoes.  And of course, the ever-popular option of having him come in my toe pads then push my toes into the thick hot sperm rich cream fresh out of a favorite man before forcing them into the tight toe-boxes of favorite pair of play pointes.

Tacking stitches – visual foreplay: If the role is demanding and if there is time between shoe changes, sometimes professionals will sew ourselves into our shoes (like, into the tights). Or sew tacking stitches in the knot to tack the endings so they don’t come out mid-performance. Afterward it only takes a moment to cut the tacking threads of the ribbons if the shoes can be reused for another performance or class. Letting a man watch me cut the tacking threads and remove my pointes occasionally after a performance or play date, along with the first whiffs of sweat softened paste can be used as foreplay with a fetishist deeply in thrall to any woman who can confidently wear and perform in pointe-shoes. I’ve had some men so fixated that they prematurely ejaculate, but that’s fine as it takes the edge off a bit so they last longer when thrusting inside me.

Toe Cheese: A mixture of dead skin, nail polish chips, bits from toe pads, mixed with estrogenic sweat, liniment residue and occasionally spiced with blood and blister seepage that collects between the toes that is mixed with the aroma of the pointes the dancer wears, especially Freeds in which the scent of the paste can enhance the taste of a dancer’s toe cheese. A few expert pointe-shoe fetishists can tell which makers pointes his partner has worn recently by the scent of her toe cheese.

The aroma of a sweaty latex catsuit: Not that other latex feminine garments don’t provide their own bouquets, but a catsuit can provide both pelvic and breast scents, if the wearer is lactating. Though rancid breastmilk can be a scent-too-far for some as it can cause nausea for the couple and it can be costly since it’s almost impossible to get the rancid scent out of a latex garment w/o damaging it.

A latex diaphragm: A latex diaphragm worn for more than 24 hours and marinated in female fertile cervical mucus (FCM), arousal lube, or menstrual flow and male genital secretions can be a sinus clearing scent!  Though leaving a diaphragm in place with menstrual flow for a protracted interval is very dangerous as bacteria buildup can cause Toxic Shock Syndrome (TSS) which can be fatal.

A latex diaphragm, now very difficult to get other than by custom fitting, is far better to use as a sensory toy because the latex surface is a bit porous and so reacts with reproductive tract secretions far better than silicone. As a toy the diaphragm can be used to collect fertile cervical mucus for consumption by a male partner or, when I’m luteal, we can act out a breeding fantasy by him ejaculating in the dome and I insert it so the tip of my cervix is submerged in a pool of semen instead of spermicide while he inseminates me the traditional way in missionary.   

Menstrual discharge: A diaphragm either latex or silicone or a menstrual cup (I wear a Diva Cup) can be used as a container by fetishists who are fond of consuming their partner’s menstrual flow. Of m partners who are menstrual fetishists all prefer the silicone Caya because the cup is deeper and can be easily drunk from. My partners think another plus is the grip dimples which prevent it slipping out of their grasp while licking out the “clots”, which aren’t really clots but pieces of endometrium that often come out in my flow. All my menstrual fetishists claim consuming my flow is a nutritional supplement, as a source of iron.  They are also fond of its thick consistency and metallic scent. I do try to eat an iron rich diet to ensure I don’t become anemic from blood loss and I’m fortunate not to have extremely heavy or long and painful menses.

Latex and breast milk: Breast feeding while in a latex catsuit can be wonderful, but high-maintenance as the wearer has to be careful to clean up any milk leakage afterward or the milk and sweat combination will quickly turn rancid and getting that scent out of latex can be very hard and sometimes impossible to do. Occasionally, with a male partner who enjoys revolting scents wearing a latex suit smelling of rancid milk can be a plus, but those men are very rare and good quality latex catsuits are expensive so I have an inexpensive one that reeks of rancid breastmilk that I wear if I’m with one of them. When not in use I wash it and keep it in an airtight bag so the scent is contained. 

Sweaty leather ballet-boots: Returning readers will recall that I wear custom made ballet-boots made by my cobbler Gepetto. They have unitized titanium toe-box and shank assemblies and easily replicable titanium heel spikes in case one bends or breaks which is very unlikely.   Properly sized and genuine leather ballet-boots even though the leather breathes can cause the wearer’s feet to sweat and swell. The problem with ballet-boots is threefold: 1) it’s difficult to get the correct size and heel height and, 2) made of top quality genuine leather - not smaller pieces stitched together - they can be very expensive and 3) there are few cobblers who still make quality hand crafted ballet-boots as the market is small and there is little profit, so the maker is usually still making them because he loves fitting fetishists, especially women. The rich fresh leather scent of a pair of new quality leather boots can be amazing and only improved when soaked in the wearer’s estrogenic sweat.

When I’m out clubbing I’m sometimes accused of “holding court” because some of the male members in my circle will come to my table kneel and pledge their fealty by ejaculating into the laces of my boots. It’s a lovely gesture, but it does make the cleaning of them afterward more difficult. I usually let them dry then loosen the crusty residue with a brush and blow it out of the laces with a hair dryer then polish the boots with Obenauf's boot oil which makes the leather soft, shine and waterproof.

The eroticism of pointe shoes

A student in Suffolk Solo training pointes

Power Pointe: I love wearing pointe-shoes both to perform in and in my personal life! When in pointes I’m confident and love the feel of the snug blocks confining my feet. I know my legs look their best when I’m on my toes and revel in the power they give me over men. I’m teaching a class for ballet students this semester at St Lucy’s (Pointes and Covert Seduction) in which I show the girls how to seduce men by wearing toe-shoes when they will be around men they want to attract. It’s not that difficult really if the woman is skilled in wearing them. Just several pairs of old, nearly dead, shoes that have been pancaked to clean them up a bit so they are comfortable and presentable to wear on casual dates. If the woman has the money wearing Gaynor pointes in her social life is more comfortable and she doesn’t have to worry about the blocks melting or crushing the shanks if she wants to go en pointe to show off her legs after hours wearing them on a date.

Most men can be led around mentally by their penises if a woman is skilled enough. The little brains between their legs can be enticed to do almost anything by a pretty woman if he thinks she will let him get into her panties. One of the most acceptable ways to mind-fuck a man is by wearing attractive clothing. One highly attractive item is footwear and at the top of the erotic footwear list are pointe-shoes because they make girls legs extremely attractive by lengthening the line of the leg and showing off contracted calves. Although ballet dancers know how effective wearing pointes can be for other women toe-shoes are underused resources because of their seeming perversity. Women w/o pointe training find it impossible to wear even de-shanked shoes comfortably and wearing shanked shoes confidently and expertly requires years of training. The required commitment of money, time and training limits the pool of women who can fully utilize the erotic potential of pointes in controlling men.

Toe pads and toe cheese: Another aspect of a pointe fetish that fascinates some men is the toe pads we wear in our shoes. My toes are toughened by years of wearing pointes. Even so I have my shoes fitted while wearing pads so that when my feet swell during my periods I can still wear my shoes comfortably to perform or play in. An aspect of toe pads that men seem to like is the ability to ejaculate in silicone lined pads, think Ouch Pouch, where their seed won’t soak in so the full 5 or 6 ml will be available to squish between the woman’s toes when she puts them on and holds them in place with the convertible feet of her tights. After she takes class or performs in semen filled pads her lover can turn them inside-out and suck the toe cheese out which consists of dead skin cells, sweat, semen residue, toe polish chips, lint and adhesive residue from toe tape and occasionally blood, pus and liniment which can give the cheese a spicy taste. While wearing semen filled pads can be erotic the down side is that the fluid can soften calluses and cause pressure problems if the woman does it too often.

Shoes of traditional materials for training: Readers know how much I love Gaynor Mindens with their unitized polymer shank and padded toe boxes, but the best shoes for training students are ones made with traditional materials hessian, paper, satin, leather and paste. A student needs to know how to make the blocks and shanks of her traditionally made shoes last and what it feels like when the blocks begin to melt as her sweat softens the paste and the shoes no longer provide proper support. There is also the scent of shoes made of traditional materials when damp with estrogenic sweat that some men find alluring; especially when his partner’s calves are on his shoulders, or her feet are by her ears where he can enjoy the full bouquet while he is thrusting deep into her flat belly.

Rectal gas asphyxiation

A Russian gray latex gas mask

Rectal gas asphyxiation: Taryn and I went on another cleanup last night. It was to re-dress the corpse and straighten up the immediate surroundings of a ballet-boy who had apparently gassed himself, one assumes unintentionally. I say unintentionally because he had recently married (in California when same-sex marriage was still legal) a lovely man 20 years older than himself and they were deeply in love. In addition, he had just taken possession of a custom fitted Mercedes sports car that cost $125,000 and no one contemplating suicide buys a $125 K car! His partner who is a well known film director was panic-stricken when he found his partner’s body and called in a chit which resulted in me (and Taryn) getting ballet-boy out of his latex encasement suit, gasmask and hoses with which he accidentally asphyxiated himself and into traditional boxing workout gear so his doctor could record the death as heart failure, which in a sense it was. We used boxing gear because the protective sparing helmet will leave much the same pattern of lividity as a gasmask if one isn’t paying close attention.

According to his partner, ballet-boy was addicted to inhaling his own rectal gas which he increased by consuming large quantities of navy beans and carbonated beverages. The major components of rectal gas in desending order by percentage are: Nitrogen, Hydrogen, Carbon dioxide, Oxygen and Methane. He would channel the gas from his anus to the standard 40 MM canister fitting on a modified Russian gray latex gasmask (similar to the one at the top of this entry) by inserting a hollow 25 mm polymer anal plug with an adaptor to fit the NATO standard 40 mm hose fitting and channel the gas through a 4 foot corrugated rubber hose into the gasmask through the canister fitting. He also had a latex rebreather bag connected to a second canister fitting. Of course the valve on the 3 leiter rebreather was closed so he was breathing his own exotic and highly toxic atmosphere. We nserted a gas analyzer into the drinking port on his mask before moving the body and there was almost no oxygen in the mask with high concentrations of methane, nitrogen and CO2. He didn’t seem to have suffered. It appears he just went to sleep and never woke up. We took off his mask and black latex Polymorphe encasement suit, booties, hood and gloves, hung the suit correctly in its storage bag and put the other items back in their boxes. We washed off the anal plug, disconnected the hoses and put the hose set back in its carrying bag and the gasmask back in its mask bag. We gave the fetish clothing and equipment that ballet-boy had been wearing to his grieving partner who received it with tears and thanks.

Gaynor Minden for sex en pointe: For comfort and support when having classic ballet sex - sex en pointe in pointe shoes rather than ballet or toe boots - we are all wearing Gaynors now because the shanks are made from an elastomeric polymer which can be easily customized with a hair dryer to give the dancer the exact arch of the shank she needs for maximum support while showing off her insteps and arches to their best advantage. Pre-arched pointes have been available for years but I’ve found that the polymer formulation in Gaynors retains the arch longer - weeks - before needing to be readjusted. Another nice thing about Gaynors, with sueded leather covering the platforms (an option) is that the shoes last a long time because the blocks don’t melt when wet with sweat. The polymer boxes and inner padding of Gaynors are great, but I think the best thing about Gaynors for pointe-sex is their unbreakable shanks that can be pre-arched so they are amazingly comfortable while allowing the wearer to relax a bit and “sit in her shoes” (to put her weight on her heels rather than on her toes over her center) while being drilled w/o shattering the shanks

Elke’s first dive-sex training encounter: Returning readers will remember that Elke is the former ballet dancer who is the Swiss school’s Mistress who will be teaching Dive-sex at the school on Lake Maggiore. She began her training course with Robin in one of the 20 ft deep training pools today. Robin said she has a strong vaginal grip and has good dive technique. The course is two weeks long, one of technique and then the instructors course which is primarily more difficult encounters and how to handle them safely for both the instructor and the individual or couple she is teaching. She has a GyneFix IUD implanted so there is no concern about pregnancy and she is using a strapless FemCap as a gas guard. It’s taken her a while to get used to inserting the FemCap before diving as she used to have underwater intercourse with a member of the German Olympic swimming team, but it was only a few times and fortunately, when she wasn’t wearing upper reproductive tract protection she had no problems. But her partner was on the small side and men with smaller erections are less likely to cause thrust hydraulics that force water or air into their partner’s cervix where it can cause infections or deadly embolisms.

Foreplay with pointe-shoes

A well broken in pair of my Freed Classics with ¾ Forteflex shanks

Men, pointe-shoes and desire: It’s easy to tell if a man has a thing for women’s feet or pointe-shoes and if he does I consider him fresh meat! It is so easy to seduce a man who has those sorts of interests. Just by letting him watch me preparing my toes by taping them and putting on my pointes I can have him uncomfortably aroused and hoping for more. I will give the tour a brief overview of what they are going to see while taping and putting on pointes so I get to tease men this way when we have groups come through on behind-the-scenes tours, but those instances usually come to nothing as far as encounters are concerned. The real fun is when a VIP is brought through. We have advance notice so we can be rehearsing something erotic or psychologically dark and troubling so the guests will have something to remember us by when he get home to the wife and daughters. And, occasionally when he is important enough or is rabid enough about his foot fetish a one-on-one encounter is arranged. It’s almost always guys who make up the tours that get to watch and sometimes meet us so we cater to a guy’s fantasy of what Vegas dancers are like.

The XY Chromosome puzzle: I know it’s a very small sample but in my experience the guys who are into legs, feet and shoes all seem to have only daughters, why is that? Some guys seem not to be able to get a Y chromosome to take with a mating partner. What ever the reason the guys with daughter want to be all over me sucking my toes, helping me tape my toes, helping me slip my toes into their gel pads and then watch me slowly force my toes into the blocks of my pointes and pull the backs over my heels so my toes are packed in the blocks. I wear Freed Classics so there is the scent of sweat dampened leather and paste which is distinctive to Freeds English paste pointes. Some other men get stiff watching me wrap the ribbons tightly around my ankles tying my feet securely into my shoes. I think it’s the guys into bondage who love seeing me force my toes into their blocks and bind my feet into the pointes and since I love the feel that works for me! Usually that sort of guy wants to know that the woman he is watching is uncomfortable so I tell him my feet hurt when actually I’m probably having more fun being drilled that he is taking me. Being a masochist I enjoy the pain for the first few minutes, after that my toes go numb. It’s pretty standard for me to have the guy take me bent over a barre or table, en pointe and from behind when I will be the tightest – vaginal muscles are clenched when a girl is en pointe - and can be penetrated the deepest. By having us en pointe, in addition to making our legs look longer and more attractive I think there are also elements of misogyny as well as sadism involved in a man’s love of seeing women’s feet bound into pointe shoes and being penetrated that way. That’s because of the discomfort most of us experience when in pointes and en pointe for any length of time which has been widely written about. Only Toni Bentley, who is a best selling author and who danced for Balanchine at NYCB, has written about the few of us who enjoy wearing and performing in pointes and who only experience pain when we take them off. It’s when our feet are adjusting to their natural shape again that can be uncomfortable to me. During those times icing my feet reduces the swelling and ibuprofen helps with the pain.

Gardasil update: “On June 9, 2009, the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) approved a revised label for Gardasil. … FDA requested the manufacturer, Merck and Co., Inc., to add this information to the Warnings and Precautions section of the label, so that it is more prominent, and reminds healthcare providers that recipients of Gardasil should be closely observed for 15 minutes after vaccination. Gardasil recipients should be encouraged to remain seated or lying down for this length of time and be alert to the following warning signs and symptoms that may happen before a person faints: paleness, sweating, dizziness, ringing in ears or vision changes.”

Comment: Since we began offering the vaccine our clinic has had Gardasil patients rest for a few minutes after getting an injection. We recognized early on that it was not uncommon for a girl (or boy) to become light headed and occasionally faint after getting the shot.