Death Rubber diary

A latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm

The photo: One of my 80mm Reflexions diaphragms. It is made of natural rubber latex and is the style that when worn by a woman when she died during sexual intercourse becomes (for my purposes) a ‘Death Rubber’ diaphragm containing special powers that supplement my sexuality. I know I use photos of Reflexions a lot, but I can’t stress enough how desirable they are for contraceptive and dive-sex safety and for their strong appeal to latex fetishists.

My Death Rubber collection:  For readers who are new to my blog a ‘death rubber’ is a diaphragm, especially a latex one, which was being worn by a woman when she died while having penetrative intercourse. Until my last post (Dating Gigi on May 2, 2015) I hadn’t written about harvesting one for about five months - in my entry for November 21, 2014 - when I harvested one from a Las Vegas Towel Girl at Splash. As this is written it has been eleven months since I added to my collection so readers can understand how difficult it is to obtain a Death Rubber under ideal conditions, meaning that I harvested it myself.

During an orgy in Vegas years ago I found that wearing a latex diaphragm I harvested from the vagina of an elite rubber fetish escort – one I watched die while being fucked at the bottom of a training pool for rubber fetishists - gave me access to the residual Chi contained in the diaphragm that had been protecting her cervix. Through her Chi her memories of past lovers and the pelvic experience and tricks she knew to please them become available for my use which enhances my confidence and pleasure when wearing it.

There are some challenges in collecting this specific item:

• Few women use diaphragms these days.
• The device needs to be in my size, 80mm – usually worn by women much taller than me.
• The woman has to have died during sex while wearing it.
• And so I can safely wear it she must have been free of STIs which means at the time of her death she had had a recent negative full panel STI test.
• And now the Reflexions is no longer being made. However, latex flat spring diaphragms can be custom made for those of us who need them.

Too there is the usual down side to a latex device:

• Some people are allergic to latex.
• The useful life is much shorter than a silicone diaphragm.
• The odor from a latex device worn too long can be very strong, however, that could be a plus if you are with a man who is into funky vaginal scents.

The good news about a latex flat spring device is:

• The heat transfer properties are far superior to silicone.
• A latex device can be safely used with silicone lubes necessary for proper vaginal lubrication during underwater sex.
• A great safety feature of a flat spring rim diaphragm is that since it folds in a single plane it is almost impossible for a mischievous partner to under-thrust the rim of one that is properly sized and correctly placed.                         

Fortunately as with my former position in Vegas I have access to the medical records of the Escort service run by Tanaquil for Taryn’s European operation so I know who wears 80mm latex diaphragms (mainly for male clients with latex fetishes) or for under-thrust ‘flood insurance’ during dive-sex. It so happens these are the women who are the greatest risk takers so are the ones most likely to have a fatal accident during an encounter with a commercial client or during filming porn videos. I think the risk is part of my fascination with asphyxia sexual highs while having SCUBA sex because there is so little margin for error. It certainly is a huge thrill and marvelous high for me!

A more recent and serious ‘Death Rubber’ limitation briefly mentioned above is that the Reflexions FS diaphragm was discontinued at the first of 2015. Fortunately the Clinic had received a routine stocking order of the Reflexions so we should be able to provide them to patients for the next few months as they are how only used by up-market fetish escort clients. Also, we are able to have latex FS diaphragms custom made, but at higher cost. The fall-back position is to use 80mm silicone Milex diaphragms as death rubber devices, but the flat spring rim was ideal in providing women and especially fetish escorts with superior under-thrust protection and I suspect those of us in the profession will go to the custom made latex flat spring as for us there really is nothing as good.

Currently my collection consists of six 80mm latex Reflexions diaphragms that I have personally harvested from the vaginas of their previous owners. I try to take good care of them as they all contain their former owners sexual exploits that reside in the portion of her Chi still contained in the diaphragm which supplement my own sexual knowledge and experiences when I wear them and each is unique and irreplaceable in that way.

My latest harvesting acquisition: This is the second ‘death rubber’ I’ve harvested since I moved to the UK in January of 2015. The most recent was a French twenty-something ballerina on holiday with her English lover who was at a fetish swim party at a country house in Berkshire which I attended last weekend. I knew her as a candidate on my list of possible Death Rubber donors as she was quite tall at 5’8” for a ballet dancer. She had been fitted by one of Tanaquil’s Gyn friends in Paris and wore the Reflexions FS in my size. She said she was familiar with basic SCUBA gear and was anxious to have her lover take her to orgasm submerged in our host’s pool while other guests watched. Her lover was against it as she was known as something of an exhibitionist, but she teased him about not being able to get it up underwater and so to defend his sexual prowess he reluctantly agreed.

They were using our hosts OTS Guardian FFMs, 60 cu ft aluminum tanks and everything seemed to be going well. The woman was tethered to the bottom of the dive well with an ankle leash and she was out of her tank which was on its side on the bottom so she could be entered from behind. The audio from their comm. link was on the speakers in the pool area so we could hear them talk to each other and both of them gasp and moan from their sexual exertions. She was facing the pool bottom as he entered her from the rear and she grunted, mewed, gasped and moaned as he pushed his way inside her and she adjusted her hips to take his length and thrusts.  He was holding on to her hips and had given her several vaginal orgasms when she began to quiver, gasp and begin to gag and she doubled over possibly to try to unfasten the ankle leash or perhaps from cramps, but her partner kept thrusting into her trying to reach orgasm himself before he withdrew. 

After he came he pulled out, but by that time she was limp and not breathing and I and several other divers had jumped in to help pull her out. I unfastened the ankle leash, a man lifted her tank off the bottom and her partner raised her to the surface. After we got her on the pool surround we tried CPR, but she had apparently drowned in her own vomit.  While straightening her thong and covering her with a blanket to await an ambulance I pulled out the 80mm Reflexions she was wearing still slippery with her lover’s thick creamy semen that hadn’t had a chance to liquefy and slipped it down my cleavage.

She had the results of a serum pregnancy test in her purse that showed she was about eight weeks pregnant so that may have been why she became nauseated though there were two other women at the party who came down with food poisoning so perhaps it was that.

My London Derrière, baby making, mind-fucked

Another view of my stretch black tulle playsuit

The Photo: One of my lovers called this a view my ‘London Derrière’. The stretch tulle thong is wonderful to show off the unblemished skin of my cheeks and makes it easy to slip it over a cheek for convenient rear entry something needed for ballet-sex. Here at the castle I bend over a portable barre, table or a chair back for support placed near a fireplace with a lovely fire going to keep warm when wearing this playsuit.   

Tim as a bedmate, the saga continues: Returning readers will recall that my New Years eve bedmate Tim (the SAS officer in the gorgeous uniform that I tried not to tear as I almost ripped it off him) and I had a marvelous time, but very little sleep on New Years eve. He told me that he hadn’t been with a woman (or masturbated either from the quantity of ejaculate) in months which contributed to his amazing sexual stamina. So I was interested in whether he could continue that pace with me two nights in a row.

BREAKING NEWS: he could! He did! And it was the most fun I’ve had with a new partner in years! My wards say I glowed with energy when I showed up at 6:30 AM in the studio for technique class. I was a bit sore but 400mg of ibuprofen took care of that. I was loose, flexible and absolutely bursting with as much energy as a 19 y/o! I was still draining semen after Kegeling as much out as I could so I inserted a Diva Cup to collect the remainder to prevent staining my tights during class.  The other girls he has been with when he comes home call him ‘Tiny Tim’ because his equipment is so impressive and is supposedly the terror of many local girls with regular size vaginas, but the two I’ve talked with say he didn’t try to bury his full length in them and let them take him astride where they could control the depth and direction of his thrusts so they felt very safe with him.

I know it’s just the first few days into the relationship that is pure lust and won’t last as he has to report back to his regiment in some location that he can’t talk about. However, he is due for transfer soon and has asked for a transfer to a unit of his regiment that provides security here at home. So if he gets the posting he wants I may get to see him again. If I wasn’t too old I would like to have his children. I had eggs harvested and frozen when I was in my mid 20s so there is always going the IVF route, but it would be awesome to get preggers the old fashion way with his sperm swimming up my tubes and fertilizing an egg shortly after release, but at my age the chances are only 3% or 4%.

Not impossible, but very unlikely except if I were trying my best to avoid conceiving and had an oops. Someone having that happen to her is known as being had by the perversity of inanimate objects. The bad thing about being preggers would be that I’d be away from dancing for almost a year and at my age it would be very hard to get back in peak shape. Having a pregnancy distort the ballet body that I’ve worked to perfect for more than 35 years and leave stretch marks on my abdomen is what has put me off having children until now and even with the pull that Tim exerts I’m still not sure I want to conceive if I had the chance with him.

I know that is something I haven’t said before and I know the mood will pass, but right now I have these thoughts about forgetting to use a diaphragm and spermicide with him when I’m fertile. I’m CD22 as this is being written and I shouldn’t be fertile for another 14 days or so so he will be long gone before I’d have my willpower tested to see if I’d actually take him unprotected to try to get preggers with him.  He took me in all the positions we used the night before and he was so gentle and considerate and an absolutely amazing lover filling me over and over with his thick creamy seed. And he loves to breastfeed as well! What an amazing man! Oh my god, I just realized… he’s mind-fucked me!

 

 

More contraceptive sabotage, Seminarian training

So, my breasts are sore because I’m pregnant?

The Photo: I love that color! A front close clip and zip sports top that is a godsend to woman who are lactating. It’s so easy for me to feed an ANR partner. I just lift my sweat or tee or unbutton my blouse w/o having to unfasten the hooks in the back and pull the cups out of the way. And the support for ballet and thrust-drop training is marvelous with hardly a giggle.

Halloween contraceptive sabotage: I found out after the fact that Adolph had been lacing the six mistress’s food with ella during their stay at The Lorelei for the ten day training session prior to his Halloween Ballet assignation party. He admitted it to me when he said after the party “well I wonder if any of the women will become pregnant”. I said “they all were being very careful about their birth control given that they knew what was going to happen during the party.” He smiled and said, “Yes, but the ones on hormonal contraception might find their method wasn’t as affective as they would like”. I’m thinking, “OMG!” And asked, “What did you do? He said he had them dosed with ulipristal acetate, a progesterone agonist/antagonist that binds to the woman’s progestin receptors. It’s used in 30mg pills in the U.S. as the EC drug ella.

None of the women mentioned feeling a bit off or the food tasting strange which could have been from ingesting the drug during their training and I suppose the first indication that something happened is if one or more has a heavy period which would indicate she had ovulated but wasn’t pregnant. So we waited to see if any of the six became preggers. In the 12 days total they were here all of them had been with the six escorts training them and a minimum of three or more men at the party so of the nine or more men whose semen might have reached their tubes any of their partners could be responsible for any pregnancy. We found out the other day that one is pregnant and another miscarried. This sort of thing is the reason that a frameless copper bead GyneFix IUD is such a good option for a woman who is sexually active among mischievous men.

Still more contraceptive sabotage: The Swan twins have been saying for weeks that someone is lacing women’s drinks at fraternity parties with something that can significantly decrease the effectiveness of hormonal contraceptives which most of the undergrad women are on. And if a woman was already on a diet pill that increased her metabolism and therefore reduced her protection the woman might have very little hormonal contraceptive protection.  The twins really hadn’t paid that much attention before since they have copper IUDs implanted, but now that they are on Yaz to increase breast size it’s more of a worry. Chris. Our male Gyn, said that whatever is being used probably binds to a woman’s progestin receptors making it impossible for the progestin in her hormonal contraceptive to protect her, it’s the estrogen in the pills that the twins need for breast size. So in that respect they are ok as they are still protected by the copper ions from their GyneFix IUDs. However, if they ovulate on Yaz because of something they ingested they will be back to heavy copper IUD periods again and that hasn’t happened yet.

A Brit student friend of Willow’s is on a progestin only pill (POP) Cerazette: 0.075mg of the progestin Desogestrel - which metabolizes into etonogestrel used in NuvaRing and the implant Nexplanon. Because of the long half-life of etonogestrel Cerazette can be taken as long as 12 hours late and still provide effective protection so for a POP it is a great oral contraceptive.

However, Willow’s friend is also on the migraine med Topamax which will cause birth defects when taken while pregnant. And after not feeling quite right and being nauseous in the mornings for several days she tested and found she was pregnant. Knowing about the birth defects caused by Topamax and in no position to care for a baby she asked Willow to contact Chris about a vacuum aspiration as she didn’t want to go through Student Health since her parents would find out.  In the blood work done to validate the urine pregnancy test ulipristal acetate (a progesterone agonist/antagonist that binds to the taker’s progestin receptors) was found in her blood which, since she was six weeks preggers, meant that she was still ingesting the chemical at parties.

It is fairly easy to get Ulipristal acetate 30 mg Tablets (ella in the U.S and ellaOne in Europe) clandestinely and it is commonly used by mischievous men to decrease the effectiveness of their partner’s hormonal contraceptives.

A GyneFix is implanted: Willow sat with her friend while she was in the stirrups as Chris inserted a cannula and sucked out the reproductive tissue. And while she was there he implanted a six bead GyneFix frameless copper IUD so she should have very effective contraceptive protection for several years.

Bea as a Temptress: At seventeen Bea is coming into her own as a Temptress. She especially enjoys seducing married men and she is so into it that I’m having to repeatedly caution her about being sure the men she seduces have recent clean full STI panels. Recently she seduced the guest pointe teacher at St Lucy’s. He was teaching master classes and coaching a select group of ballet girls on pointe technique and Bea was one of them. His reputation as a stallion who enjoys selectively breeding his students had proceeded him so all of the pointe girls were there most flirtations vying to see which of them he would take first but he usually stays away from teens preferring adult semi-pro ballet girls. He is known to penetrate his women bareback so it’s the responsibility of his partners to take what contraceptive measures they think necessary which has resulted in pregnancies and terminations for many of the students who have taken his classes.

He has always managed to make sure the pregnant ones terminate the pregnancies and that is well known by his students so the sexual tension in his pointe classes is very high even though everyone knew he was unlikely to initiate a sexual encounter with the St Lucy’s class. Bea said lust was as thick in the air as the scent of estrogenic sweat as the girls all tried to entice him to initiate an assignation. Amazingly each student has the fantasy that she can enjoy having him unprotected inside her be filled with his seed and escape the usual consequences. The old it-won’t-happen-to-me syndrome is alive and well in teen ballet girls and Bea said after his pointe classes the girls are so aroused that most have to masturbate to relieve the pelvic congestion. Most of his students are on the pill, but because many young women can’t remember to take the pill correctly the effectiveness is about 80% which usually means one pregnancy in each class he teaches. So far Bea seems to be his fave as she let him know that she had a GyneFix implanted which increased his interest in her though he is trying not to show favoritism with what he once called his “breeding stock”. While classes are very strict she has been with him in the evenings emptying him of his genital secretions and reveling in the g-spot orgasms he give her while they have been together for the last few days.  

Seminarians and lust: Willow and I have a new, but possibly short life project. Willow, returning readers may recall, is Jack’s 19 y/o natural daughter by an RB ballerina. She danced with the Royal Ballet and now dances in my ballet Co in Vegas and attends UNLV. I thought Willow a good choice for this project as she is more the male participant’s age while I can take the role of a sexually assertive unfaithful wife, widow or an attractive older woman in need of sexual satisfaction with a male.

A deserted abbey in the hills outside town has been refurbished and is being used to host retreats for seminarians from seminaries all over the U.S. so they can strengthen their ties to their faith. The administrator, a Jesuit, decided to test the willpower of the seminarians to resist carnal temptation while counseling emotional female parishioners.

Bishop ‘Tom’ recommended me to the Abbey administrator as someone who could provide suitable female s to act as emotional parishioners and tempt the students to forsake their vows. Returning readers may recall the Bishop when he was a newly ordained Priest, who I knew as Father Tom, when he was assigned to a parish in up-state NY where my ballet boarding school was located. He was then my spiritual advisor and taught me a lot about fulfilling the carnal needs of the female body and helped me satisfy my own. The staff, nuns from St Lucy’s, running the retreat facility and training syllabus thought that the exercise was designed to fail when they found Willow and I would be the temptresses.

And so it came to pass that for the past few days Willow and I have been interacting with individual seminarians. After an initial lecture during which the carnal knowledge seminar leader told the students their willpower would be tested, but didn’t say how. Then they went about their normal schedule of classes. Willow and I were separately and covertly introduced to individual students who have no access to any form of electronic social media so can’t record or photograph us.

The student is told that we are dancers who have come to recover from an emotional crisis and need cloistered ballet classes to exercise the mind and body as well as spiritual guidance and we meet with the seminarian in a room that has a desk, chairs, barre and mirrored wall. Once a student begins seeing each of us separately several times over the course of a week he is separated from the rest of the students as it shouldn’t be a surprise by then how his willpower is being tested and by whom.

It almost always happens that the seminarian is thoroughly compromised by the end of Willow’s or my second counseling session and we are having penetrative sex lying on our backs with our legs on our spiritual advisor’s shoulders while his hard shaft thrusts into us with his hands holding our hips to ensure he drives as deep as he possibly can. Some start out using condoms but when we ‘help’ roll them on we coat his shaft with his own pre-ejaculate so by the second or third thrust he is bareback and the condom is pushed into the posterior fornix.  Only later when we ask him to fish out the condom he shed does it occur to him to consider where we might be in our cycle and what if any contraception we might be using and by then he is thoroughly mindfucked.

It wasn’t a surprise that Willow and I were able to thoroughly mindfuck and have bareback sex with every one of the seminarians and I have to say they enjoyed being led astray immensely. Only later did it occur to them what a strong drive carnal temptation can be for a man. And that is probably the only meaningful lesson to come from the exercise of celibate men ministering to sexually assertive women.

 

 

Jenna’s contraception and breeding diaphragms

A silicone wide seal Milex Omniflex (coil spring) diaphragm

 

The photo: One of Jenna’s Milex coil spring diaphragms. She had two, but she was wearing one when she burned to death in a car accident. Three years ago, before she became pregnant with their baby, she was using a 65mm All-Flex arcing spring rim diaphragm. After giving birth two years ago she was fitted with a 70mm Milex wide seal Omniflex with a softer coil spring rim. The 8mm wide seal flange on the inside of the rim of the Milex helps provide a stronger seal (than other diaphragm rims) against vaginal tissue.  Being a ballet dancer her vaginal muscles were very strong so the softer coil spring rim should have worked effectively for her. I found it in the drawer of her bedside table along with the empty case of its mate which she was wearing when she died. This one had hardly been worn. I turned it inside out and made sure the area under the flange was clean – an area easy to miss - then sterilized it by soaking it in isopropyl alcohol for 30 minutes before wearing it myself.

Diaphragms and ballet-sex: Returning readers recall that I’ve defined the term ‘ballet-sex’ as: being penetrated from behind while bent over and holding on to a barre, chair, table or railing with the feet sur les pointes a la seconde.  In that position a woman can be penetrated deeper w/o discomfort since when her trunk is horizontal the uterus and therefore her cervix is pulled deeper by gravity.  So gravity adds additional depth (to the arousal tenting effect) of her vagina.  When being pulled deeper during arousal the cervix pulls the posterior rim of the diaphragm (which is behind the cervix) with it, thus pulling the anterior rim further away from the back of the pubic bone. This makes the anterior rim more likely to be hit and perhaps under-thrust by her partner when she is having ballet-sex or when penetrated doggie style, while on her elbows and knees.

Ballet-sex is the perfect position in which to use a ‘breeding diaphragm’, one that is two sizes too small and with an All-Flex or coil spring rim, which makes it very easy for a man to thrust the chisel tip of his glans under the rim of the diaphragm where he can caress her G-spot with his frenulum and ejaculate under the dome.  There is only one way to effectively protect against having a diaphragm under-thrust while being taken from the rear. It is to wear a correctly sized and properly placed latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm. The flat spring rim is almost impossible to under-thrust because the spring only folds in the horizontal plane of the rim and when correctly inserted it’s almost impossible to fold it by hitting it with a thrusting penis. And when hit at any other angle it is very painful to the man.

Double bagging: If you have gotten this far and are wondering why I’m telling you all this it’s because Brad wants me to wear Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex diaphragms for contraception during his fantasies with me when I’m channeling his dead wife. And doing the math, since my proper size diaphragm is an 80mm diameter and Jenna’s is 70mm and since hers is also an Omniflex that can be rather easily folded in two planes then her 70mm coil spring is two sizes too small for me. So, by definition if worn by me it’s a breeding diaphragm. I knew where he was going with his request and wore my Oves cap screwed down tight on my cervix. Then while he is watching I insert Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex so my cervix is double bagged. That way when he under-thrusts it and comes in the dome I’m still safe. I’ve been extra safe for the past week since I’m CD 24 and Luteal. I ovulated a week ago and should start my period this coming Sunday, March 9th. I have a bit of ovulation pain (called Mittelschmerz or middle pain because it generally occurs mid cycle) when the follicle bursts to release the egg so even if I’m not checking cervical position and fluid, which I usually do, I know when I’m ovulating.

Jenna’s Chi from her Omniflex: With Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex inserted I can channel her sexual experiences back to before she and Brad met. However, her aura and Chi from the Omniflex is different than the Chi I experience when I wear a death rubber. Returning readers remember that a death rubber is a latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm in my size that I’ve harvested from a woman who died during sex while wearing it for protection.

From Jenna’s Chi I could tell she was newly pregnant with their second child when she died, but it was too soon for her to realize it. Brad had been routinely taking her from behind and under-thrusting the Omniflex. She was weaning their six month old son and was no longer protected by lactational amenorrhea, so had just begun to cycle again. She never had a period since giving birth as Brad’s sperm was waiting in her tubes when she released the first egg after her son was born. It was fertilized and implanted so she never had a period.  I have a very strong feeling that is what Brad hopes will happen with me as he intentionally under-thrusts Jenna’s 70mm Omniflex he has me wear during his fantasy. And actually going along with that aspect of his fantasy I find quite endearing as well as arousing. I suppose he thinks that while we are having wildly exciting sex trying to fuck each others brains out I’m so into him I’m not paying attention to my protection and what he’s trying to do to me.

Reducing the effectiveness of Mirena

I am not pregnant! I have a Marina inserted!

The photo: an escort trainee from another casino, who had Mirena, Levonorgestrel releasing, IUD inserted 2 years ago finds she is pregnant at her recent weekly hCG test at my clinic after being away on Christmas vacation for 4 weeks. Worse, it’s an ectopic pregnancy. Up to half of pregnancies that occur with Mirena in place are ectopic and she is going to need surgery to terminate the pregnancy and may lose her tube.

This photo of a lovely Scandinavian escort, Birgit, encased in transparent and pink latex shows why my casino does not hire or train escorts of either sex who have tats as the ink detracts from the natural line of the body and this is particularly true for women who are prized for our smooth unblemished skin. She would look out of place in a strapless gown, but right at home in a tee, jeans and Doc Martens in a biker bar. I have nothing against bikers, but they aren’t the market we are targeting with ballerina quality escorts.

Contraceptive sabotage: We did blood tests to try to determine why her Mirena failed. She hadn’t been on an antibiotic, a common cause of hormonal birth control failure,  and her Mirena was properly positioned. However, when we checked the meds and supplements she is taking we found that the pills in a nutritional supplement bottle had been switched. The correct pills - to be taken once a week - had been switched with the emergency contraceptive pill, ella (or ellaOne in Europe), a 30mg ulipristal acetate tablet, that looks very similar to the one it replaced.

She thinks a boyfriend who is a pharmacist in Gothenburg switched her pills with the EC pills as she began getting headaches at the start of the 4 weeks she stayed at his place before breaking up with him because he wanted her to move back to Sweden and have his babies. The ella prescribing information (below) says there can be an interaction between hormonal contraceptives and ella leading to the decrease in effectiveness of hormonal contraceptives. The prescribing information says:

FERTILITY FOLLOWING USE: A rapid return of fertility is likely following treatment with ella for emergency contraception; therefore, routine contraception should be continued or initiated as soon as possible following use of ella to ensure ongoing prevention of pregnancy. While there are no data about use of ella with regular hormonal contraceptives, due to its high affinity binding to the progesterone receptor, use of ella may reduce the contraceptive action of regular hormonal methods. Therefore, after use of ella, a reliable barrier method of contraception should be used with subsequent acts of intercourse that occur in that same menstrual cycle.

The most common adverse reactions to ella (≥ 5%) in the clinical trials were headache (18%), abdominal pain (12%), nausea (12%), dysmenorrhea –menstrual pain (9%), fatigue (6%) and dizziness (5%).  Thinking back, the only noticeable side effect she experienced was headaches and so she has probably been taking ella for the last 5 weeks. Her surgery will be tomorrow.

 

Virgin Gorda, other’s misfortune and me

A woman before the dive on which she miscarried

Others misfortune and me: Having recently found that I’m descended from ancient British roots on both sides of my family I think that my genetic heritage may explain why I have the cravings for thrills and risk taking I do. For more about that see my January 9, 2012 post: The Winter Solstice and other Holidays.

Some time ago a good friend and faithful reader asked why I crave taking risks for thrills and write about violence, death and tragedy. It’s taken me a while to think about that and until recently I wasn’t sure I had an answer. My therapist (unaware of my family history until recently) thought I had a death wish because I seem to gravitate to the most extreme sexual encounters involving breathplay while wearing a gasmask and rebreather bag or during dive-sex or some other bizarre sexual encounter to get my thrills and he’s still not entirely convinced otherwise.

By wearing pointe shoes as standard footwear (a fairly harmless kink) while at work as my ballet companies AD and choreographer or in the boardroom of the company I own and even while shopping I’m not only able to enjoy my pointe-shoe fetish in public, but have developed a public persona that projects my artistic ability. While within the business community my rivals who thought the ‘cunt in toe-shoes’ would be a pushover discovered how wrong they were when I handed them their asses in one business deal after another when the real-estate and casino bubble burst here four years ago.

My shrink still thinks my fetish for wearing ‘death rubber’ (which I’ve managed to collect from the bodies of women who died during sexual encounters) reflects my need to make up for the loss of my mother when I was a child. He sees my belief that the dead owner’s Chi (which still inhabits such an intimate rubber device) provides me with her spiritual protection when I insert it in my vagina, as a psychological coping device which calms my fears and gives me confidence in my ability to get through dangerous situations safely. I think there is far more to it than that since wearing death rubber seemingly has protected me from serious injury in difficult situations since I began wearing it about five years ago. I’ve been tested by endocrinologists for chemical imbalances and every test has been within ‘normal’ limits so I’m thinking my craving for danger is hereditary and I’m sensitive to the ancient beliefs that every item has certain powers that can be used by sensitives to advance their own devices and desires.

In Vegas I seem to have been passed over for the contract to tidy up after most of the Organization’s periodic efforts to discourage others from encroaching on the profitable portions of their diversified businesses. Or, perhaps they are just using more stealth and guile rather than blunt force. That’s not as much of a loss as it might first appear as I have become so busy with other projects that Organizational clean-up was becoming a problem for me. But I’m still being called when the cleanup involves women so my access to a primary source of death rubber is still in tact which I’m relieved to know.

The dangers of diving while pregnant: The men with us in the Caribbean were Chris (with Cyndi), Chuck, who is our Gyn (with Anya) and Jack (Lord John) with me. I try never to travel w/o a Gyn since we are all so sexually active especially since Chuck saved Cyndi’s life. It was nearly three years ago when Cyndi had her miscarriage while diving the cove with Chris who was then her bodyguard and lover, when she was almost 15. Long time readers may remember my writing about it at the time in my blog entry on Yahoo 360 for January 12, 2009. She was on the pill and hadn’t realized she was pregnant and while in the pit she began to cramp and hemorrhage as she miscarried. Fortunately Chris got her to the surface as we were entering the cove and Chuck was able to stop the bleeding and administer antibiotics until she could be seen by her family’s doctor who was flown in by RAF fighter jet from the UK.

This time we had The Wanton Lass IV, His Graces sailboat, that’s docked at Spanish Town meet us at Charlotte Amalie on St Thomas where we landed ‘Limnaea’, my G550, at Cyril E. King (STT) with its 7,000 ft runway, and take us around to the north side of Virgin Gorda where we anchored it in the cove as a diving platform. The next morning (after ballet class for the women) we took the Lass’s zodiac out to the yacht disappointed that another boat had come in to ‘my’ cove after dark and anchored for the night. The young couple was already in dive gear as we arrived and after a brief hello they began diving the cove as we boarded the Wanton Lass. Most of the cove bottom is sand at a depth of 60 feet after a steep drop-off from the beach except for the south western end which drops off to 100 -120 feet and has the aquifer emptying into the pit which reduces the salinity of the water there and the current has cut a deep channel that leads out of the cove to the edge of the shelf and empties into much deeper water.

After we put on our dive gear we entered the water and as we began our descent we could see the woman was in trouble and her partner was trying to get her out of the pit, but they were caught in the current. Neither of them was wearing a buoyancy compensator and were over weighted for the fresh water they found themselves in. By the time Chuck, Chris and I got to them the man had dropped his weight belt and was struggling to keep the reg in the woman’s mouth while trying to unfasten her weight belt as they were being swept into the channel and out to sea. Chris helped the man while Chuck, Jack and I grabbed the woman and we all inflated out vests to rise out of the channel so we could swim out of the current. Once we were out of the current we ascended to the surface and had the zodiac come and pick us up. We took the couple aboard the Lass and stripped off the woman’s wetsuit. She had water in her lungs but managed to get most of it out while cramping severely and passing fetal tissue.

Once she had passed the fetus and got her lungs cleared she said she had no idea she had been pregnant. From the size of the fetus it was about two or three months old. She was on Lybrel and had been taking diet pills that speeded up her metabolism which flushed the contraceptive hormones out of her body so quickly that the amount of hormones in Lybrel weren’t able to prevent her from ovulating. Chuck cleaned her up, made sure she wasn’t bleeding and gave her a five day supply of a powerful antibiotic and said she should see a doctor at a OB/Gyn clinic in Road Town on Tortola about a half days sail away to see if she needed a D&C. The couple had rented their boat at Road Town so they knew the way and began their return immediately.

Penelope and Sylvie

Beginning dive-sex training in woman superior position

Suction, the cervix and desire: I’ve written about this before, but not quite in this way. I love wearing a vacuum enhanced Reflexions latex diaphragm with the dome vacuum significantly increased by TED exercises as I mentioned in my July 16, 2011 post entitled “Gas guard tricks professionals use”. I started wearing it with an enhanced vacuum as a training exercise to get used to the pressure of the latex dome being stretched over and gripping my cervix when the vacuum pulled the stretchy rubber into my anterior fornix. Returning readers will remember that increasing the dome vacuum minimizes the likelihood that the diaphragm will displace during dive-sex if the vagina floods while it’s being worn as a gas guard. I had written earlier that pumping down the vacuum was easy to do.

A reader asked if that comment covered women outside my circle of ballet and escort friends who have very strong vaginal muscles. The answer is no, and when I thought about it I think it’s unlikely that a woman who hasn’t had vaginal muscle strengthening as part of her training regimen as have classical ballet students, dancers (who clench their pelvic muscles every time they rise en pointe) and professional escorts will find it difficult or perhaps impossible to totally evacuate the dome of her latex diaphragm. My Gyn who’s patients are mostly ballet dancers and very high-end escorts said that most women who pump down the vacuum of a Reflexions take a while to get used to the feel of the dome gripping the cervix before they begin to enjoy the feeling of security that I found the first time I used TED exercises to cause the stretchy membrane to grip my cervix. And, curiously the feeling makes me even more sexually assertive than if I was wearing an Oves cap.

Reflexions is the only diaphragm that meets all the requirements for a deep water (below 30 feet) gas guard since the flat spring rim will not distort under increased water pressure. I’ve used it successfully at depths of 6 ATA, below 200 feet. A flat spring rim is also important because it is very difficult for a man – even intentionally - to under-thrust. And the latex dome is softer and stretchier than silicone which means it can transmit body heat more effectively, but more importantly for this application (as I’ve mentioned above) the dome can be more completely evacuated so the latex membrane is stretched over the cervix and clings to it like a coat of paint making it very unlikely to dislodge. Total evacuation puts pressure on the cervix which some women find reassuring as it is a sign that the vacuum is very strong. Others, especially women inexperienced with dive-sex, find pressure on the tip of the cervix to be uncomfortable and can’t stand it so a strong vacuum while important can be an acquired taste. The down side of the Reflexions is that a flat spring rim can be harder to insert correctly than an arcing spring rim and a latex device has a shorter service life than silicone and can’t be used by couples who have a latex allergy.

Penelope’s pregnancy: A few days ago Penelope, the Duke’s most recent mistress, came to me to tell me she was newly pregnant. She has been on the Progestin-only-pill (POP) Cerazette that has 0.075mg desogestrel in each pill. She had been taking an antibiotic for a sinus infection and it apparently decreased the effectiveness of her pills to the extent that she ovulated and Colin – my escort who has been servicing her while the Duke has been convalescing and I’ve been with John - impregnated her. We don’t know for sure, but everyone thinks that’s who got her preggers because His Grace, while not exactly shooting blanks, is not as potent as he once was and Colin has been routinely filling her with class 5 sperm on a continuing basis for the last four weeks. His Grace rather than being upset is quite envious as he would have liked to have impregnated her himself. It would have been another ‘notch on his gun’ in a manner of speaking. Penelope said she wanted to abort the pregnancy and I went with her when she told Himself and he agreed.

The Duke had the Gyn he has on call fly out to the Abbey with a portable evacuation pump and I assisted during her abortion yesterday morning. Penelope’s cervix didn’t need dilating and the procedure went well taking less than 45 minutes. She seemed to be taking the procedure well physically, but mentally she was very upset and wanted to go back to her apartment in Edinburgh to rest so she flew back with the Gyn and the helicopter returned a few hours later with her replacement.

Sylvie: As soon as we found that Penelope was going to leave I phoned Tanaquil, the European head of Taryn’s Adult Services Empire, for a suitable young courtesan to take her place and Tani produced one almost immediately. Penelope’s replacement is Sylvie a 23 y/o courtesan and Soloist with the Paris Opera Ballet who comes from a noble French family and who works with Tanaquil. Tani had been looking for a way to introduce Sylvie into the British Aristocracy and having her fill this vacancy as a play-girl during the Duke’s deer shooting party seemed to be a perfect opening. Tani emailed me Sylvie’s CV and recent medical records for the Dukes approval. The results of her most recent full STI panel verified she is negative of all known STIs and safe to play with and she has had the full series of Gardasil injections. She will also take over Cyndi’s ballet training while she is with the Duke this summer.

I asked Tani how it was possible to have Sylvie at the Abbey less than 24 hours after we found we needed another suitable woman. Tani said she was already packed and had been scheduled to be placed in another nobleman’s household where the man is a happily married balletomane who wants a live-in teacher for his daughters with a little something on the side as relaxation during his wife’s extensive travels. Instead, Sylvie being placed with the Duke - where she has a chance at a relationship with John and perhaps becoming a future Duchess – is a much better use of her skills as she has a raging libido and is not only an accomplished ballerina, but a diver and rubberist all of which appeal to the Marquis of Marle.

Honestly, it hurt when I learned another woman was intentionally being inserted into the Duke’s household with the hope of attracting John’s attention and capturing his affection. However, as I wrote in an earlier entry at 40 I’m too old to give him the best chance of producing an heir free of birth defects so I understand the need. Also, if we stay friends and she becomes the Duchess we have a powerful ally in the upper reaches of the British Nobility. However, she was brought in as a consort for Himself and I still have John at least for the duration of my visit. So, for now, since Himself is on light duty that limits him to a bit of oral sex with Sylvie who will be primarily serviced by and servicing Colin.

RH Protection: One of the first things Sylvie did when she got settled at the Abbey was to introduce herself and to say how pleased she was to meet me as Tani had been very complementary, telling her that her reproductive health was quite safe in my hands. She told me she, like Penelope, is on the POP Cerazette for contraception and wanted me to check the diaphragm she had been recently fitted with for upper reproductive tract protection because she wanted me to give her a basic course in dive-sex since she was unfamiliar with the necessary precautions and techniques.

She had been prescribed a 70mm All-Flex a wonderful design for vanilla sex and the most prescribed diaphragm in the U.S., but it’s not the best rim style to use as a gas guard for protection during dive-sex since it can be under-thrust relatively easily and the rim will distort from the pressure on dives deeper than 30 feet. So I rechecked her size and 70mm was correct so I gave her one of the 70mm latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragms and showed her how to insert it and do TED exercises - after applying a gel in the dome to lube her cervix - to increase the vacuum in the dome so it gripped her cervix. She was immediately proficient in doing the TEDs and she loved the snug secure feeling as the latex membrane sucked tightly against her cervix. I told her that Colin would be her lover for now and she said Tani had told her she would be with Colin until John became available when I left and that was fine since it would give her a chance to settle in before she focused her charms on him. I think Sylvie and I will get along quite well.

My life and Facebook

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Social networking and me: Since I began this blog more than 14 months ago (on May 30, 2009) I’ve been occasionally asked to join various social networking sites. I’m appreciative that readers would like me to be their friend on facebook, MySpace, Hi Five, Groupie, Twitter etc but as you can see from the list and it goes on and on I do have to limit my time on-line. I decided early on that this blog, my YIM account and my email are all I can reasonably cover in the time I have available.

I hope I haven’t offended anyone by not replying to their friends request but I have to draw the line somewhere and leaving an account in this blog of what is going on in my life in Vegas (where it can be searched and indexed by Google and other search engines) gives me the biggest bang for my buck, so to speak and just may be less invasive of my privacy than Facebook etc. Thank you again Eric! If readers want to comment on a post and will leave an email address I will do my best to reply as time permits.

Right now is an especially busy time for me as we are working on the new fall program for my casino’s ballet company, we are performing Miss Julie again this season which was a favorite last year. In addition my commitment to the Gyn clinic and St Lucy’s in teaching young women to appreciate the power of the female body and to get the most from it by honing their physical skills is profound. I think there is nothing more important that passing on to young women the skills and lessons that I have learned over my twenty year career as a dancer.

My blog: Jill’s World, has given me a forum to write about and publish - uninhibited by social mores - what is really happening in Vegas and elsewhere for which I’m especially grateful. Someone accused me of writing ‘Slit-Lit’ which he defined as erotic stories for and about women. For anyone who hasn’t realized it yet Las Vegas is not Disneyland! If my writing is of interest to anyone I’m glad. I just want to record what happens in one dancer’s life in a city that caters to human lust, greed and risk of all kinds the 95% of the time when I’m not performing before an audience, to show that life in the entertainment industry can be very rough, sometimes violent and amazingly hard work, not all parties and pleasure.

Be a follower: And, for those readers who want to stay current with my activities; my latest stallion, dive-sex encounter, clean up project for the city fathers, discipline training at Adolph’s and who’s pregnant at St Lucy’s, had an abortion or what I think about the new EC ella for example, you can become a follower of my blog. I hope you will. A performer loves an audience! Following me is free…some sites charge to read about the sorts of things that happen to me! Go figure! So if you are interested in the things I do I’d love it if you would be a follower. Ok?

Teens, rhythm and pregnancy

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Aug. 6, 2010
By Lois McGuire, R.N., M.S.N., W.H.N.P.

Teens and the rhythm method: Bad news

A growing number of teenagers are trying to use the rhythm method for birth control, according to a survey by the National Center for Health Statistics (NCHS). The rhythm method, also called the calendar method, calendar rhythm method or periodic abstinence, is a type of natural family planning.

To use the rhythm method, you track your menstrual history to predict when you'll ovulate. Once you know when you'll ovulate, you can determine which days to avoid unprotected sex.

Couples who use the rhythm method for birth control generally take classes together for detailed understanding of the menstrual cycle and the factors that control it. Effective use of the rhythm method also requires diligent record keeping. You and your partner both need know what's going on with your reproductive cycle from one day to the next.

Successful use of the rhythm method takes more than just identifying the woman's most fertile days and avoiding intercourse on those days. You also need the discipline to abstain from intercourse for several days before ovulation, as well as during ovulation and for a few more days afterwards. If you and your partner aren't comfortable talking about sex, or if you generally avoid sexual activities other than intercourse, the rhythm method is not right for you. Out of about 100 typical couples who use the rhythm method for a year, 22 will get pregnant. In other words, the rhythm method is about 78 percent effective.

If the rhythm method has a 22 percent failure rate in adults, its performance in teens must be abysmal. No statistics are available on teen pregnancy due to rhythm method failure. But the survey cited at the top of this blog, based on interviews of thousands of teenagers about their sexual behavior, contraceptive use and childbearing, reported that 17 percent of sexually experienced girls said they had used the rhythm method for birth control. That's a striking increase since 2002, the last time this survey was conducted. In 2002, only 11 percent — still too many — reported using the rhythm method.

The rhythm method is a poor birth control choice for teens partly because they lack the emotional maturity to track their fertility and abstain from sex for several days a month. But there's another obstacle that may trip up even the most stable and responsible teen couple favoring the rhythm method: Teenage girls may take several months to establish a regular menstrual cycles, so they might find it particularly hard to calculate their fertile and safer days. This unpredictability may be one reason why teen pregnancy rates rose from 2005 to 2007, after a steady decline starting in 1992. In 2008, teen pregnancies declined again, but only by 2 percent.

Remember, too, that the rhythm method protects neither partner against sexually transmitted diseases. Unless you've both been tested and found to have no STDs — and you're both absolutely committed to your monogamous relationship — you should use a condom every time you have intercourse, preferably along with a hormonal contraceptive, such as birth control pills. Responsible, caring sex partners want reliable birth control as well as protection from STDs. For most young people, the rhythm method fails on both counts.

Personal comment: The rhythm method is not to be confused with the Fertility Awareness Method. The Rhythm method can be disrupted by any number of factors that make it unsuitable for adults much less teens. Fertility Awareness on the other hand where a woman’s fertile signs: basal body temperature, cervical fluid and cervical position are monitored to tell when she is fertile and a barrier method or abstinence must be used, can be extremely effective if all the rules are followed all the time and the woman doesn’t take risks with just-this-once behavior. Even so, I don’t think teens should try using FAM because most lack the emotional maturity to follow the rules

I encourage recreational sex as I think it is a wonderfully healthy way to relax and get to know a ballet partner. It also helps to tone the abs. So I teach my students and the dancers who come to me for advice that the rhythm method should be avoided and an effective method of birth control either barrier, hormonal on implant should be used for contraceptive protection and a condom should always be used if you aren’t certain of a partner’s sexual history.

Cyndi’s cycle

5 minute results serum pregnancy test

Cyndi’s cycle: Well, it’s Friday July 30th and cycle day one (CD1) for me and most of my circle whose cycles are synched to mine. Returning readers may remember that almost all the women who train with me and who are cycling naturally found that their menstrual cycles almost always are synched to mine because of the pheromones from training and sweating in close proximity to each other so much of the time.

You remember that because Cyndi became infatuated with Freddy, (the Austrian dancer who was one of Natasha’s lovers and who I hired to partner Natasha while she is dancing at the High-rollers club) she thinks he impregnated her as he had so many of the dancers he was intimate with in various European ballet companies. The fact that Cyndi has a GyneFix IUD inserted so it is nearly impossible for her to become pregnant didn’t lessen the certainty of her belief that she would miss her period this cycle and test positive for the pregnancy hormone, hCG.

I took her to the clinic the first of this week for a serum pregnancy test which is far more sensitive than the First Response HPTs she had been using and there was no trace of hCG, but she was still skeptical. She could have gone alone, but I wanted to show my support whichever way the test went. At this point I’m not sure if she really wanted to be carrying Freddy’s baby or if she is laying a guilt trip on herself. She had been feeling pre-menstrual for the last several days with the normal accumulation of fluid prior to the start of menstrual bleeding and she interpreted that as very early signs of pregnancy, which would be extremely rare.

As I mentioned earlier the women in my circle who are cycling naturally are in synchrony with my cycle and nearly all of us (including Cyndi) started spotting yesterday and switched to wearing diaphragms/gas guards or menstrual cups for flow control. Cyndi began flowing normally last night so she is definitely not preggers and now seems to have accepted that fact and I think she is happy with that outcome.

Menstrual sex and gas guards: A lot of our men (especially European and Asian clients) love it when we are menstrual because they like to play in our bloody discharge. You’ll remember that when menstrual the only effective upper reproductive tract protection from embolisms and infection from pool water during deep dive sex - at depths below 10 meters - while menstruating is the Reflexions flat spring latex diaphragm. When not menstrual an Oves cap is the best gas guard (if a women can be correctly fitted with it) because of its small size, but an Oves or FemCap can’t be worn when menstrual because the flow would float the cap off the cervix and allow gas bubbles or pool water to pass into the uterus. So when menstrual we all use Reflexions latex gas guards to make things simpler; if a girl has an opportunity to dive deeper that ten meters she doesn’t have to switch from an arcing or coils spring rim to a flat spring Reflexions to be fully protected. Women who have GyneFix IUDs inserted or have cycles of 28 days or longer (so there is no chance of ovulating while menstrual) can safely remove their gas guards while menstrual if not planning to have sex underwater. That is such a popular option – to go with the flow - for escorts or courtesans since so many of our lovers enjoy the scent, taste, feel and look of bloody discharge during menstrual sex.

A reader asks: “Can you pump pure oxygen into the uterus?” OMG! Yes, you can, but why would you? Gas in the uterus will kill the woman! And it doesn’t have to be done with pure oxygen, any gas will do. We recently found that was used to off a Russian courtesan who specialized in dive sex while she was visiting friends in town. It’s a popular option for a professional hit since it is a fast and clean way to snuff a chick during a dive. You don’t even have to remove her gas guard- unless she has an Oves sucking on her cervix because Oves is the only gas guard that will protect the upper reproductive tract while being bubble fucked -.just insert a bubble-fuck reg and depress the purge button. I think the snuff video purists like to see the girl spasm during a heart attack. With a stroke there is usually a lot less action because the woman is paralyzed and drowns or suffocates quickly. So the videos of the heart attack victims writhing in pain in dive gear are much more eagerly sought after. For more about bubble-fucking see my entry for August 16, 2009

If a bubble-fuck regulator isn’t available you can make a surface apparatus by rigging up a cannula to a demand valve on one end and menstrual cup on the other. The Menstrual cup (A Diva or a Moon Cup) is inserted in the woman’s vagina and fitted over her cervix. Pressure from the cannula holds the cup in place. The purge button on the reg is depressed sending a surge of compressed gas into the wearer’s uterus where it will enter the bloodstream and cause an embolism that will cause a massive stroke or heart attack just as though she was underwater. Compressed air inserted in the uterus leaves no external marks on the body so at first it appears the woman died of natural causes.

The guest artist

A marvelously detailed tutu upskirt

A Guest Artist: My ballet company has a Guest Artist this summer. She is a first soloist of Mariinsky Theatre in St. Petersburg, Russia and we had been negotiating with her agent for months. Tanaquil closed the deal by buying her Monte Carlo gambling debts on my behalf from our sister casino in the principality. When she got here it also turned out that she was newly preggers and needed an abortion though she is conflicted about whether to go through with it. Like most young and very talented ballerinas she lives to dance and carrying the baby to term will take the better part of a year out of her career when she won’t be able to dance. There is also the fact that she says she doesn’t know who the father is. She has a very active social life and says it could be any of four men. The other side is that she comes from a very religious and conservative family and if they knew they would be opposed to her terminating the pregnancy. Most recently she has been a guest artist with the Frankfurt Ballet and she picked up an admirer one of her partners from the Vienna Opera Ballet who has followed her to Vegas.

She is going to have to decide soon what she is going to do and if she decides to terminate then whether to go with Mifeprex, she still has a few days, or a menstrual extraction. I’ve recommended an ME because it is over with in less than an hour, there are almost no side effects and she can resume sex as soon as she feels able if she is on an antibiotic regimen and wears a gas guard. While on the table she could also have a GyneFix implanted which would make it far less likely that she would ever need another abortion. My Gyn is expert at menstrual extractions and performs a lot of them for young A-List Hollywood actresses who need that sort of help.

Frederick the Great: Our new Russian ballerina’s German lover auditioned for an opening in our ballet company and I hired him as another guest artist even though I know he is a trouble maker. I took him because he can partner her without any training interval and they have amazing chemistry together since their styles complement one another. He is also one of the four men who may be responsible for her current condition. It turns out that Adolph knows of him because he is a distant cousin who has a well deserved bad-boy reputation among European ballet companies. It’s the sort of thing we often see with itinerant male dancers of considerable ability and charm. They are a type who can charm their way into the tights of any dancer they want and leave a string of pregnancies behind as they move from one company to the next. You would think we would know better but our hormones keep getting in the way of prudence. The guys get away with that sort of behavior because there are so few really great male ballet dancers. They will perform Pas de deux from the classics: Don Quixote, La Corsaire, La Bayadere, Swan Lake and Sleeping Beauty in our High-Rollers Club.

His name is Frederick and he has a pointe shoe fetish which I find rather endearing. He is almost as good as a woman en pointe but he gets off by smelling women’s sweaty shoes and having the girl wear pairs of pointes in which he comes so she can feel his seed squishing between her toes during a performance or as he fucks her brains out. His fetishes aren’t uniquely kinky coming from an expert swordsman among ballet dancers, but they are ones I find erotically exciting, a condition that is all too common among supposedly sensible ballerinas.

I’ve already talked to my women dancers about sex with Freddy. Not that I care if everyone gets her share, but sex with him is like a three-year old playing with a loaded gun, because his gun is always loaded and he has a very high sperm count. As a capable lover he’s awesome! I’ve already taken him for a test drive - wearing an FC2 because he is still in quarantine for his HIV interval.

He is called ‘The Great’ (behind his back) though I think he knows and is pleased, because of his magnificent package and the skill with which he uses it. He is long, rock hard and amazingly thick! I love a thick shaft as it presses harder on the nerves ringing the entrance to my vagina. I like to think I can get an amazingly tight grip on it when my muscles spasm when I orgasm or if I’m ripple gripping him. And, he has a wonderfully easy going disposition, probably because he can talk almost any woman into doing anything. I’ve cautioned the girls that no one can expect fidelity from him. He isn’t even a serial monogamist. One of my dancers compared him to a bee flitting from flower to flower, “So many girls and so little time”. I just told them to be careful and don’t let him pollinate them. I think most of the girls in my company should be fine physically because they have GyneFix IUD implants, but they might take a hit mentally if they fall for him, even knowing he’s a snake. But he’s such a beautiful one!

Germany and the World Cup: Adolph had a few of us over to watch Germany play Spain in the World Cup on the 7th. As everyone who cares knows by now Spain beat Germany 1-0 to advance to its first World Cup final. To say he was disappointed would be like saying the ocean is wet, but he will probably get over it by Sunday. In Sunday's final, Spain will meet the Netherlands, which also has never won the World Cup. Since the Netherlands is a Teutonic country he expects the Netherlands to win.

Elke and Flibanserin, an update: In my June 17, 2010 entry I mentioned Adolph is having Abigail (Abi) his new Pool-Assistant and arm-candy take Flibanserin so she will show a bit more enthusiasm as a submissive (she’s primarily Domme and isn’t really submissive in any real sense) for her encounters with him rather than trying to dominate him. Abi is Prussian and has such a strong will he needs an edge. Otherwise, he says, he is afraid he will kill her during a sexual encounter while trying to bend her to his will. It has been five weeks now and she seems to be compliant enough with Adolph that she just raises his ardor rather than his temper so he hasn’t tried to beat her. I think if he seriously mistreated her he would wake one morning to find his balls in his mouth. If he’s fortunate it won’t come to that. Abi still thinks its fun tormenting him and he must be very fond of her, in his way, because she seems to be able to get away with it.

Death in a drysuit

Abi at Lake Tahoe before diving

Discipline training: Yet another fatality that could have been prevented! A pregnant teen bled to death in her drysuit when she miscarried and hemorrhaged during a dive with Abi at Adolph’s Lake Tahoe estate. She had been enrolled in Adolph’s erotic discipline class for two weeks and Abi suspected she was at least six weeks preggers (from the level of hCG) when she let her dive. Because she was tested for pregnancy electronically every morning before breakfast the teen never saw the results of her tests and because she was on Seasonique in the middle of her extended (eighty-four day) cycle there was no reason for her to think she was preggers, like if she had missed her period or had irregular bleeding or if she had been nauseated which is very common during early pregnancy. Abi said she was taking a chance the pressure wouldn’t cause the nineteen y/o any problems because her sponsor had paid for her training and that time slot was the only opportunity she would have for months because she was booked for modeling projects.

It happened while Abi had her on a field trip at Tahoe doing pogo squeeze dives. That’s where a student wears one of the schools GNT drysuits and releases air from her suit until the water pressure squeezes the rubber restricting her ability to breathe. The release of air reduces the suit buoyancy and accelerates the diver’s descent to the lake bed which was at about 80 feet where they were diving. The instructor accompanies the student down during the first descent and stays on the button during the students remaining cycles Once on the bottom the student re-inflates her suit and, rises to 20 feet, then deflates her suit repeating the cycle again. She was required to complete four cycles, each cycle taking about seven minutes with a minute or two on the bottom before starting her ascent. Any one of those depth swings and suit compression cycles could have easily triggered the teens miscarriage. Our clinic Gyns agree there couldn’t have been a diving exercise more likely to cause a miscarriage and that’s what I think Abi was instructed to do.

That the student had to take the course now doesn’t explain why she was taken diving in Lake Tahoe. They could just as easily have worn drysuits in Adolph’s training facility. He has student dive gear at both locations. Tahoe is a high mountain lake with an average surface elevation (above sea level) of 6,225 feet while Las Vegas is about 2,030 above sea level and the water in Tahoe is snow melt so with the altitude the water is very cold. It doesn’t warm up much by September so it is still ice cold in early June. The additional 4,000 feet of elevation made diving in Tahoe even more dangerous because atmospheric pressure at 6200 feet drops to about 12 psi +/- (depending on temperature etc) rather than the 14.7 psi at sea level so a series of 80 foot dives in Tahoe is a good bit more strenuous than when done in Adolph’s training facility in Vegas, especially for a pregnant diver.

Abi said the student didn’t show any signs of distress. She just moved slower and slower as she became weaker as she lost blood. We think she didn’t notice the blood filling the boots of her suit because she was wearing an adult diaper to collect her urine that is always squeezed out on long deep dives and the diaper absorbed a lot of the blood until near the end of the last dive to the bottom she became unconscious and it was at that point that Abi was alerted that something was wrong and worked to get her to the surface and to the marina where there was an EMT station. But by then it was much too late.

Men in Ballet boots: I think ballet boots are primarily female disciplinary footwear. However, there are some of us who enjoy wearing them for the feeling of power and knowing that we look stunning in them. That’s obvious from the looks of envy we get from other women and pickup lines we hear from men as we stride confidently in pointe boots over almost any surface. But you have to have the figure – long shapely legs and tight, high, hard buns - and the ability to walk in them correctly (no mincing wobbling steps) or you come off looking like an neophyte BDSM Sub rather than a Domme or at the very least someone who knows what she is doing while wearing ballet boots.

With men in ballet boots it’s an entirely different matter. There are so few of them that expectations are low. Men are not judged by if they can walk in ballet boots well, they get raves if they can do it at all, which often seems all that matters especially if the persons commenting have never worn BBs themselves. My point in mentioning this is that Adolph wears ballet boots and he has been doing it long enough – he started in Germany when he was in his early teens while he was in ballet school – and often enough and he has a German work ethic that makes him a perfectionist so he is quite good at it, for a man. With his trim figure and lovely strong manly legs in tights and ballet boots he is extremely attractive to women even the ones – me included - who know how cruel he can be. We all seem to be able to delude ourselves that “yes he is brutal with this woman or that teen, but “I know he respects me and will be a gentle lover”. We just see his strength and his beautiful body with his package expertly presented in a pair of custom tights that fit him like a coat of paint and we all go weak in the knees as he strides by in a pair of Gepetto’s custom made Pleasure boots. Of course with me I know I will be relatively safe as I have contacts and I can perform functions that he needs. Well, I think that’s the case. And being that close to a dangerous man is such a huge adrenaline rush. I love not quite knowing for certain if I will survive a sexual encounter with him.

A strict disciplinarian

Leashed to the bottom and out of air

Abi’s incident rate: In the exclusive German girls academy where among other things she taught submerged bondage there was such a large number of near drownings or suffocations in her classes that even at a school noted for its strict discipline her methods were thought extreme. Abi is proud of being a strict disciplinarian and will tell you that strict discipline is quickest way to foster mental toughness and separate the sheep from the goats, but the final straw for the academy’s head mistress was a student’s suicide. Abi was asked to resign as the result of the suicide of a girl who had been sent back to Abi’s class after she was intentionally let run out of air as a breath control exercise while held underwater by an ankle leash. It wasn’t that she was forgotten. Abi just watched as the girl struggled trying to suck air out of an empty tank and fortunately just as she removed her reg the student stopped breathing. Drowning was never an issue, but the student didn’t know that. She was in only 10 feet of water in a one piece neoprene swimsuit so when Abi put her reg back in her mouth, turned on the air from the second tank in her training twin-set and hit purge on the student’s reg while holding it in her mouth filling her lungs she regained consciousness and when Abi released her ankle leash she immediately floated to the surface where she climbed out of the pool by herself, but was so terrified that she couldn’t speak. After weeks of recovery her parents insisted she finish school with an unblemished record so they forced her to return to Abi’s next class and her parents claim that her fear of Abi and the humiliation of being sent to train in a group of girls with less seniority was apparently more than she could stand and she jumped from a bridge on campus.

Qlaira and pregnancy: I think her suicide may have had as much or more to do with the fact that she was 10 weeks pregnant (they didn’t test for divers for pregnancy at that school) and her parents were very strict about her proper use of contraceptives. She was on Qlaira (estradiol valerate, and dienogest) and the effectiveness of her hormonal protection may have been compromised by the antidepressant meds she was on.

Blame: It seems to me that if anyone is to blame for her suicide it is the student’s parents for forcing her back into a situation she hated. Abi won’t go easy on a student just because she can’t take the discipline. Nor should she, as that would ruin her reputation as being strict but fair, something she is not willing to do. Teaching at Splash Abi will have more latitude with her training philosophy of pushing the envelope, which is that rather than ask permission it is better to ask for forgiveness later. That is especially true because Adolph is expecting some dropouts from her classes with whom he can ‘commune’ as he calls it. She said he hasn’t given her a quota but I’m sure he has a number in mind. Probably enough to keep his training facility occupied when he isn’t training Rubber-Femmes for their Doms.

NuvaRing, a reader’s question: A reader asked: Can you pull out a NuvaRing with a crochet needle? Yes you can, but there should be few instances where that sort of a removal aid is necessary when using NuvaRing. The ring usually positions itself by gravity low and against the back of the pubic bone where it can easily be hooked by a finger and pulled out at removal time. And, since the ring can be left in place for the 4th week and still be effective there is plenty of time to move your period so there should be no OMG! I’ve-got-to-get-it-out-now moment, unless you are hiding the fact that you are using it from your partner. If that’s the case there is a three hour max ring-out interval after which leaving it out longer decreases the hormone protection the ring provides and to be safe you need to insert and use another effective method of contraception for a minimum of 7 days while your hormonal protection is reestablished. There may be a few instances where the user wants to remove the ring immediately after intercourse where her partner has pushed it further toward the back of her vagina. If that’s the case then a crochet hook with a 10 mm hook can be used as a removal aid.