Sex at Dover Castle

A stone staircase in one of Dover Castle’s towers

Arrival at Headlong Hall: Nikolai, Bryony, Claire and I traveled aboard The Dragon, my two car private rail-office, attached to the train departing St Pancras International at 7:04 AM and arriving at Canterbury West at 7:57 AM. Lord A**** sent two Land Rovers to the station to pick us up and take us to Headlong Hall. Brigitte, Alistair’s lovely young ballerina 4^th wife had invited three of her female dancer friends and a few of their male dancer friends from the POB for the Halloween house party as well. As soon as we had settled in Alistair took the men skeet shooting for the rest of the day. Brigitte took all the girls for a tour of the grounds then after a light lunch took us on a tour of Canterbury cathedral.

Friday evening Alistair and I compared notes planning my costume for fetish ballet sex at Dover castle which he wanted me to see. Actually, he wanted to fuck me in a fetish latex ballet-sex encounter with me in a rubber catsuit and leather ballet-boots while on a rampart of the castle at sunrise while I was fertile. Actually I had ovulated on Friday but an egg can still be fertilized 24 hours after release so I was still fertile. It was one of his fantasies that I was pleased to be able to help him fulfill and if we hadn’t done it then we wouldn’t have been able to do it for a few months since the castle will revert to winter hours the first of November.

We left Headlong Hall at 5:45 AM while the rest of the guests were asleep as sunrise was at 6:45. It wasn’t as though Brigitte didn’t know what we were going to do with me strutting out to the Land Rover dressed in a latex catsuit and leather ballet-boots with my figure on full display, but I wouldn’t be returning with muddy boots this time as I did in late September when Alistair fucked me against a mossy wall in Blean woods. So we left Brigitte and the girls to play with the male guests especially Nikolai whom she had her eye on ever since we arrived while Alistair took me on a trip he euphemistically called ‘sight seeing’, which in a sense from his perspective it was.    

Sunrise over the English Channel: Dover is only 18 miles from Headlong Hall so it was a short drive south east down the A2 and with almost no traffic it took us less than 20 minutes to get to the car park at the castle. Timing was a bit tricky since the castle hours are from 10:00 AM to 5:00 PM. However, Alistair, Lord A****, has a friend on the staff who let us in early and took us to the spiral stairway leading to the top of the tower so we could watch the sunrise over the English Channel. We then had several hours alone at the top of the tower. The open hours change on November 1^st and the castle is open only on weekends so our timing was perfect! Fortunately it was sunny a sunny morning with relatively low humidity so visibility was wonderful and we could have seen the coast of France 21 miles to the east if we hadn’t been looking into the sun. The sun rising over the channel was gorgeous!

Ballet-boots on ancient spiral staircases: Fortunately I’m still training in ballet-boots so while I didn’t race to the top I set and kept a fast pace to the top. Alistair wanted me to go up ahead of him so he could watch my hips swing from side to side and the zipper of my custom tailored latex catsuit sucked deep in my butt cleavage as I mounted the stairs. I moved my hips just a bit more than usual to give him a really good show! Going up an ancient stone spiral stairway can be treacherous even barefoot as the stone has worn unevenly from thousands of footsteps over the years. Doing so in ballet-boots is almost as bad as climbing en pointe in toe-shoes except that there is the heel of ballet-boots to rest some weight on if the steps are wide enough to take both the platform and heel. I think trying the climb in poor quality boots would be very dangerous as the toe-boxes tend to collapse while the wearer is climbing in them and ankle support isn’t there.

However, in a pair of Gepettos lightly armored boots with the unitized titanium toe-box and shank and replaceable titanium heels the boots were as comfortable as possible and provided the support needed if my calves could stand the exertion, which with some effort I managed w/o complaint even though I was in the boots continuously for several hours.  Ankle support on ancient floors and staircases is particular important because the surfaces are so uneven and with no ankle support when en pointe in toe-shoes even if the wearer has particularly strong ankles it’s extremely dangerous!   

Afterward, I found walking down the tight spiral staircase from the tower more difficult that going up as I felt I had to hold myself back from going down too fast and loosing my footing. Perhaps it was that I was so loose and still floating in afterglow from being fucked boneless and even though I had Kegeled most of his load out on the roof the remainder had liquefied and was draining into the zipper crotch of my rubber suit where it became cold and slippery quickly which was a distraction from where I should be putting my feet.

Ballet-sex while fertile watching the sun rise: The temperature was in the low 50s (F) with a light wind from the north across the top of the tower. I was sweaty from the climb and could feel the sweat running into my boots which is why I had worn thick wick-away socks to keep me feet relatively dry. I wanted to keep my hood on but Alistair wanted to see my long red hair blowing in the wind and since I was wearing a pair of large sun glasses that kept it our of my eyes and long soft blowing hair fed his fetish I let him strip off my hood and tuck it in his jacket pocket.

He had told me what he wanted me to wear the previous evening so I had prepared. Friday I was CD14 and ovulated so even a day later I still needed to be very careful or end up carrying his child, until I could have at sucked out. Even so, I decided to wear only an Oves cap screwed down tight on my ripe, high, soft and open cervix with the removal loop in my anterior fornix – so it wouldn’t interfere with him thrusting into my posterior fornix, my P-spot, to give me an orgasm when entered from behind. I brought along one of my Death Rubber latex flat spring diaphragms if we changed our minds about in which position I was to be penetrated. I decided not to double bag even though I was fertile and had ovulated the previous morning as I have been wearing Oves alone for protection for at least ten years and have never had a pregnancy scare and because wearing a diaphragm when being entered from behind would interfere with him being able to plunge to the bottom of my posterior fornix because the rim would be in the way.

The Mare’s Trick: As I mentioned the weather was perfect and the clouds to the east over France lit up in glorious color as the sun rose behind them while Alistair stroked off thrusting into my P-spot to give us both very strong orgasms as I bent over with my elbows and forearms on one of the crenels between the merlons in the crenellated wall while I watched the sun rise. He was so gentle opening my relief zipper and fingering me to see how aroused I was. I unzipped his jeans and helped him get his erection out where I found he was already erect and dripping pre-cum. Once he entered me with my feet in second position he bent over and fondled the barrel of my clit so I came easily before he got his rhythm and his thrusts caressed my P-spot with his glans enough to give me a powerful deep pelvic orgasm. After he came I performed The Mare’s Trick for him, bringing my feet together, closing my thighs tightly and clamped down with my thigh, vaginal and abdominal muscles to hold his still erect penis tight deep inside me to prevent his erection wilting while he recycled so he could take me again. He has marvelous recycling stamina for a man his age and he did within five minutes! I let him pull out after asking him to stay inside me for a while so we could both enjoy a few minutes of the marvelous afterglow while still fully mated.  We got back at10:00 AM just in time to join most of the guests for a full English breakfast.

Confidence building at St Lucy’s

Some serious camel-toe

A Student’s confidence issues: The school psychologist at St Lucy’s asked me to work with a transfer student from France who is having a difficult time adjusting to the training regimen at the school. She is nearly 16 y/o with a lovely strong Balanchine body and her parents sent her to us so that she could develop even the most intimate of her physical skills as well as mental capacity to their full extent. Tanaquil had recommended St Lucy’s to them – the mom having been one of her courtesans - when Aimée was expelled for ‘lewd behavior’ with a professor at an elite Swiss Girls school. She is an only child and had been with tutors, her parents and their circle of adult friends none of whom showed her much affection during her formative years so while her verbal and cognitive skills are extremely well developed coming into puberty at a girl’s school she craved attention from her teachers, but especially from the males and would go to any lengths to get an older man interested in her.

The psychologist thinks that if I can get her interested in women as protectors in her life – she has already had penetrative sex with her male ballet and swimming instructors here - and then introduce her to boys more her age in a threesome she can be brought into the mainstream of student life at St Lucy’s. Not that the other SL students don’t crave sex with their male teachers when they can get it. I agreed because she is a delightful young women and being in a semi-medical relationship with Aimée - should it develop sexually - would allow me the freedom to explore more fully those facets of her sexuality she is willing to share. She often acts out in ballet class by presenting deep camel-toe while wearing thong bottom leotards in ballet class. These can be easily seen by her partner(s) through her sheer tights which we all wear over our leos for classes and rehearsals and her labia cleavage causes male dancers in her pas de deux class to lose concentration while partnering her.

Bonding through orgasm: I met Aimée in the Psychologists office and we sat with him while he explained to her what my place in her life at St Lucy’s would be. Then I took her down to The Clinic on campus and checked the fit of her diaphragm. She had been fitted with a 60 mm transparent pink silicone Semina diaphragm and that was the correct size, but I switched her to a 60 mm latex flat spring Reflexions which is what the professionals use for protection as a gas-guard during dive-sex because it is very difficult for a man to under-thrust the rim of a flat spring and latex transfers heat far better than silicone so it feels more natural to both partners. I gave her three of the Reflexions and had her information coded into RFID chips and the chips fixed to the domes of her new diaphragms. While I had my fingers inside her I asked her to tighten her vaginal muscles and was surprised at the strength in her grip for a 15 y/o, but then her mom had been a courtesan and I’m sure she taught her strengthening exercises and she is very sexually experienced for a 15 y/o from a wealthy family. While she was on the exam table Aimée said that with a diaphragm inserted she was afraid she wouldn’t be able to have a G-spot orgasm so I used my fingers to caress her G-spot through the thin stretchy dome of her diaphragm and quickly brought her to a gasping, moaning, screaming orgasm during which her muscles spasmed so tightly on my fingers it was painful. I think giving her that orgasm was the bonding experience she needed so we could become Best Friends Forever.

Individual protection responsibility: Since she is on the swim team I asked how often she wore her Semina and she told me doesn’t like to wear it. I said that if I was to help her she was going to have to wear one of her Reflexions all the time because otherwise she will be quickly caught w/o it and start accruing demerits. As a 15 y/o she had been able to get away w/o wearing her Semina because she was considered underage. I stopped her from being able to do that by adding her to the database of students needing an RFID chip to get into the ballet and pool areas of the school. She seemed pleased that I was treating her as an adult, which is what I do with all St Lucy’s students which is especially important when I’m working with a sexually adult but mentally immature female. I’m sure she had heard it all before during her orientation lecture, but this sort of information bears repeating so I explained that none of the men on the faculty use any sort of contraceptive protection and all are virile and potent so it is the responsibility of each student to protect herself from pregnancy. Any pregnancies will be terminated or the student will be expelled and that policy has worked well since it was adopted in the early 1970s.

I explained that adult women always inserted their diaphragms before going anywhere where they might meet a man so they would not be caught unprepared and That it was particularly important that she have a Reflexions inserted and properly positioned as a gas-guard during sex in or underwater because of the possibility of a partners thrusts forcing water or air bubbles into her uterus and causing an infection or an embolism. I explained that because St Lucy’s girls were so highly sexually active they were at much greater risk of upper reproductive tract problems if no gas-guard was used. I told her that professional women who specialized in underwater sex all wore gas-guards and we do. She seemed to look forward to wearing her diaphragm as an indication that she was being treated as an adult and was responsible for her own protection.

STI and hCG testing at St Lucy’s: As additional protection all faculty and students are tested for STIs once a month (I’m tested every 2 weeks because of the number of partners I have) and every student is tested for hCG once a week. Aimée is currently on the progestin-only-pill Cerazette where each pill contains 75mcg of the progestin desogestrel the first metabolite of which is etonogestrel the progestin used in Implanon and NuvaRing. Cerazette is a good pill for a progestin-only-pill as it allows the user to be as much as 12 hours late taking her pill with no decrease in her protection. Even so, because the progestin dries her out so she needs lots of intimate lube to be penetrated comfortably and she has to take a pill every day I’m trying to get her to have a GyneFix IUD implanted. That way she will be well protected for 5 years and can enjoy the hormonal swings of her natural cycles which is one of the great joys of being a woman.

When I asked her what interested her sexually besides older men she said she found she is attracted to toe-shoes – she wears Freed Studios and enjoys wearing them – because of how they feel and look on her feet and because they make her legs look lovely when she has her feet pointed or is on her toes. She also likes the scent, look and feel of latex and she likes to breastfeed. The breastfeeding answer surprised me! She said she learned she enjoyed human milk and breast feeding from one of her women instructors at the Swiss school to whom she went for comfort when rejected by a male teacher. Another surprise was that I’d never found a teen who, after training in pointe shoes for several years, still likes to wear them. Aimée has been wearing pointes since she was 11 y/o and her ballet teacher says she has amazing stamina as well as technique so 4 years is long enough for her to have the thrill wear off and be glad to take her toe-shoes off as soon as she can if she wasn’t drawn to and enjoys wearing them for psychological reasons, because they make her feel she is more adult sexually. I’m going to have to be careful while mentoring Aimée that Cyndi and Gigi don’t become jealous of my attention to her, but they both are into men now and so I think I can get them to accept her in my life.

Ballet sex

White Freed Classics in a tight 5th position

Toe-shoes and ballet sex:

There is Ballet sex, and there is ballet boot sex and the two are sometimes confused both being considered ballet sex (reaching orgasm while standing en pointe) by those unfamiliar with the minutiae of ballet history. Ballet boot sex is fetish sex pure and simple and its origin may date from the time of the Viennese fetish boot (circa 1900). However, ballet boots only began gaining in popularity in the 1980s and seem to be used primarily as a fetish fantasy to pose in while a very few can stand in them long enough to reach orgasm from penile-vaginal intercourse. In the case of true ballet sex the woman wears pointe shoes which make the encounter part of a long tradition the origin of which is lost in the mists of time, but probably evolved in the Foyer de la Danse of the Opera house in the Rue Le Peletier, in Paris in the late 1850s when in the evolution of the pointe shoe it had developed enough structure to allow the shoes to help support the dancer’s weight rather that just padding her toes and having to use her muscles w/o much support to stand en pointe. The Foyer de la Danse was a location for rendezvous between male ballet supporters and their favorite dancers. Edgar Degas immortalized the location in his painting ‘The Foyer de la Danse at the Opéra in the Rue Le Peletier’ now in the Musée d'Orsay in Paris, which says this about the area: “The Foyer de la Danse was a phenomenon exclusively related to the Paris Opera house. The Foyer de la Danse, initially in Opera house in the Rue Le Peletier [burned in 1873], and then in the Palais Garnier, was one of the most cherished places of Paris. An institution, the Foyer de la Danse in the opera house was the privileged meeting point between subscribers and dancers. It had its golden age in the decades 1820-1880. The painters Eugène Lami, Edgar Degas and Jean-Louis Forain, illustrated it during its heyday, rendering this legendary place and its inhabitants in their diverse truths which wavered between the ephemeral glory of theatre and everyday sordidness.”

The origin of ballet sex:

The use of pointe shoes for ballet sex undoubtedly came about when it was found – from the high heels worn in Paris brothels of the time – that women’s vaginas were much tighter when their heels were elevated which caused their pelvic muscles to clench. So for ballet dancers being taken in in heelless shoes it became desirable to stand en pointe to increase a lover’s pleasure by tightening his penetration experience, a natural extension of high heel sex, and an indication of the ballerina’s skill and strength in being able to be penetrated to orgasm in heelless shoes. But no one knows which dancer used it first. Additionally, since most dancers were tiny being on their toes made it easier for a man to enter them from the rear w/o having to appear to need help by standing on a small box in so grand a location or in one of the encounter sallies associated with the Foyer de la Danse. So proper ‘ballet sex’ I believe is at least 150 years old and requires a dancer with the skill to be penetrated while en pointe in toe shoes. In recent years the advent of nearly unbreakable polymer toe boxes and shanks by Gaynor Minden and it’s imitators have made it far easier for today’s skilled dancers to be taken while en pointe, but they still need the strength and stamina and ability to concentrate to prevent their ankles and knees from buckling during orgasm.

Ballet boot sex:

Ballet boots as they have come to be known since the 1980s are fetishwear used for bondage ‘training’ by locking a person, usually a submissive woman, into the boots as punishment for committing some ‘offense’ against her master or Dom. Or, used by club entertainers for walking or dancing, but only by a few who have the skill and determination to persevere in learning to wear ballet boots confidently. The great majority of ballet boot wearers only pose seated or on their backs with their pointed, booted feet in the air with only a handful of dedicated amateurs learning to walk around in them. Therefore, most sex in ballet boot is had by women on their backs or on their hands and knees taken doggie style so it is not true ballet boot sex which requires the woman to be penetrated while standing in her boots. As uncomfortable as they are to wear for prolonged lengths of time ballet boots take less skill and training to use correctly than do pointe shoes because in a correctly made pair of ballet boots most of the wearer’s weight is taken on her heels and the weight of a ballet boot wearer is never centered over her toes (over the boxes) as it should be when pointe shoes are worn correctly. The other thing about ballet boots that make them much easier to wear than pointes is that the tight leather shafts covering the boot wearer’s ankles provide a great deal of support to prevent wobbling and falling off pointe that doesn’t exist for a woman wearing pointes.

Jack on ‘the highest reaches of society’:

“The highest reaches of society presume that the best reside up there. This, of course, is not only a myth, but in the best case only partially true. While money provides people with the material trappings associated with success, there are things which money can't buy and which are often not found in the upper reaches of society - beauty, creativity, physical strength, spirituality, character all have absolutely nothing to do with the upper reaches of society. If one looks at most of the great and notable achievements throughout human history most were created by the "common folks" not the upper crust. It's only recently that creativity and arts have been rewarded with material wealth. The upper level may influence society with their wealth and power, but most of them are incapable of actually doing much aside from "giving orders". Of course, if one seeks the comforts and power associated with that elite turning oneself into a commodity of currency to this class would make sense. But there is "comfort" and there is comfort... and therein lies the differences... which most intelligent, grounded, ethical people understand... and conduct their lives accordingly.”

“The highest reaches of society presume that the best reside up there.”

As does Jack, I don’t believe that is necessarily the case nor are they more successful, depending on how an individual defines success. However, it also depends on how “best” is defined and what sort of a man a woman is seeking. The upper reaches of society are made up of the great and the good and among the great are some very unpleasant people as is the case in all levels of society. But in this moralizing I sense an unspoken - but profound - unease with a woman’s innate power to beguile men and with that power better her economic position. I think that unease is because intelligent men realize – perhaps subconsciously – that regardless of how physically or economically powerful they are they are still vulnerable to a woman’s charms and the danger that vulnerability can sometimes put them in. This battle of the sexes has gone on ever since humans began inhabiting the earth. It’s just when intimate feminine skills are taught and that fact is brought to the attention of the public that some people become uncomfortable with it and fall back on ethics and morality as reasons for a woman not to use all the skills she possesses to secure her future and that of her offspring with a willing mate.

Rave from a reader: While he felt there was room for improvement in my blog ‘The Mysterious J’ wrote: “…it certainly links the whole ballet boot fetish thing to the real world of ballet, perfection, fetish and training with the latter three being staples of the world of kink. Actually the main themes of Jill's world are an interesting mix of fetishes and Brava for that. Rubber, diving, ballet boots, bondage, plugs, "sex as a paid service", D/s, breast milk, and contraception, WOW!”

Thank you Jack!

Sexual addiction and Vegas

An illustration from our brochure on ballet addiction

Vegas for medical professionals: As prospective clients we are targeting groups of medical professionals, especially Gynecologists, Psychologists and Psychiatrists who are either sexually adventuresome or want as part of their continuing education (CE) to experience extreme sex or sex in hostile environments so they can better understand the compulsion or addiction to it. These disorders are not fully understood and treatment protocols vary widely. An emerging protocol, one that is gaining in popularity, calls for mental health professionals to experience the narcotic effect of extreme sex for themselves. Our Sexual Addiction Continuing Education (SACE) short courses are done in conjunction with and filled through major medical schools throughout the country which feel that they don’t have the expertise to teach such a specialized subject in-house, but they do most of the screening process for us. We provide a relaxed learning environment and aside from the clothing, shoe and protective device fittings, which are pleasurable in themselves and take about four hours, the other three days are devoted entirely to sexual encounters with a single diver/dancer escort chosen specifically to match the physical and mental needs of the student.

IUDs and dive-sex: I’ve written before about the fact that wearing a cervical barrier as a gas guard during dive-sex is crucial for the safety of the woman and that a diaphragm can interfere with the strings of an IUD with a frame, such as a ParaGard or Mirena because the strings can stick to the dome and if that happens removing the diaphragm can pull out the IUD. Because so many female Gyns have IUDs inserted themselves and because ParaGard and Mirena are the only two brands currently approved by the FDA (except in clinical trials) for insertion in the U.S. we had to come up with a way to allow ParaGard and Mirena wearers to safely wear a diaphragm for dive-sex.

We decided that since the IUD was providing effective contraception spermicide wasn’t needed in the dome. Instead we filled the dome with dive-gel the thick super slippery silicone base intimate lube so if the dive gel is applied correctly there would be no danger of the IUD strings sticking to the gas guard. Problem solved! And, we can use this fix with all other women IUD wearers who want to experience dive-sex for themselves.

Confidentiality: With medical professionals there is a confidentiality issue both from the personal and professional privacy standpoint. We initially though that for dive-sex the client would wear a mirrored full face mask so that the escort s/he is with would be unable to recognize the client with his or her clothes on. And for Ballet or other surface sex laboratory-encounter training the client would wear a Polymorphe latex helmet that covers the hair and facial features so again s/he is unrecognizable. But as the length of the course increased to four days and the escort would be in classes, at meals and sleeping with the student for the entire time that idea was obviously unworkable so we just give the student an alias for the time s/he is with us. And as licensed sex therapists our escort dancer/divers are ethically bound not to discuss what a client says during a therapy session. The mirrored FFM and the Polymorphe helmet are still used, but just as part of cosplay.

Doctors and pointe shoes: While dive-sex is more extreme ballet-sex in its most virulent form is far more prevalent as a disorder, probably because dancewear and shoes are cheaper and more readily available than SCUBA and pools that can be used for intimate dive encounters. One of the problems we have had with both men and women in the SACE program is that few of the women and none of the men have had much experience with wearing much less walking in pointe shoes.

For the very few women who have taken pointe and have kept up some level of skill we offer a CE penetrative encounter en pointe while taken from behind. We have the woman fitted in new Gaynor Minden pointes sized with her wearing additionally toe padding. Gaynors are the strongest and most comfortable pointes to wear for a penetrative encounter en pointe, but still it can be painful so being a bit of a masochist is a plus. The problem for women who have never experienced an orgasm en pointe is that regardless of how strong their feet and ankles are they all go rubber-legged at orgasm so the escort must hold firmly on to her hips not only to be able to guide his thrusts against her G-spot, but to support her when her ankles begin to wobble and she starts to fall off pointe.

For the women who have never worn pointes: We trim their toenails and pad them up in Gaynors just as we do for the experienced pointe wearers and let them stand en pointe holding on to the barre in a studio just so they get a feel of what it’s all about. Then, for their CE encounter we have them kneel on a bed and be taken doggie style where they can support themselves on their hands and knees while still having their toes packed into the blocks of their Gaynors.

A very few with high pain thresholds will insist on trying to stick it out en pointe. If that happens we have them sign liability wavers and substitute silicone toe pads and coat their toes with lidocaine gel to numb them. But that doesn’t stop their calves from cramping or their ankles from wobbling from the start. They insist on trying to get as much of the total experience as they can so you have to admire their dedication. But those few are at very high risk of a bad sprain even though the escort is there to catch them when they fall off pointe.

For men who have never worn pointes: So far none of the male doctors has had any previous experience wearing pointe shoes. There have been only one or two who wanted to try wearing toe-shoes and then only because they specialized in treating male sexual fantasies and had seen several cases of pointe shoe addiction. So we trimmed their nails, fitted them (padded up) in Gaynors, and coated their toes with lidocaine gel with additional in their silicone pads. They did quite well for their first times in toe-shoes, complaining only about calf cramps. Their CE pointe encounter is with their therapist diver/dancer escort also en pointe standing on an adjustable platform so she would be at the correct height for penetration.

And, the guys have all been very focused as most gave their escort an orgasm (no faking is allowed by the escort) before they ejaculated which I think is marvelous control by guys balanced on their toes for the first time while drilling a dance-chick. Realistically I know continuing education in such a specialized field as sexual addiction is worthwhile, but I have to wonder if the continuing education training we are providing isn’t enabling addiction of some of the medical professionals we are training. In talking to my personal psychiatrist – who was a dancer in her teens and has taken the SACE course we provide - she says that it’s probable, that some of the doctors taking the course will become addicted themselves from the intensity of the encounters we provide.