Hal and Gynophobia

Boxcover from the video game Gynophobia

The Photo: The Boxcover from a copy of the video game Gynophobia and before someone asks, no I haven’t played it. I don’t need to as I’m dealing with it in real life.

Gynophobia: Noun, a morbid fear of women. It is a type of social phobia; any phobia (other than agoraphobia) associated with situations in which you are subject to criticism by others (as fear of eating in public or public speaking etc.)

Returning readers may recall that in my post for Tuesday, March 31, 2015 entitled “The psychology of a pointe-shoe fetish” I mentioned working with a therapist in helping young male dancers get over their fear of handling a female partner during rehearsals and performances. Since Marvin has moved to Cambridge as a Don his replacement at Blackthorn Clinic and my present therapist is a young and brilliant female psychiatrist, who I will call ‘Elaine’ for the purposes of this blog. She specializes in women’s fetishes and paranormal possession and Marvin thought she would bring new insights to my case and better help me cope with the responsibilities of being Aphrodite’s high priestess and she has.

As with Marvin and almost all the therapists in my past we quickly became sexually intimate. That’s considered a breach of medical ethics, but in my case I think my therapist and I get to know one another so much better when we are sexually intimate! I’m actually quite good at seduction and she has become one of my lovers as she is very fond of breast milk. We have the most amazing ANR! But I digress…

Elaine also specializes in Gynophobia, the male fear of females which can affect both homo and hetro men. Apparently some young male dancers have psychological problems handling the bodies of their female partners. In “The Dread of Woman” (1932), Karen Horney traced the male dread of woman to the boy's fear that his genitalia are inadequate in relation to his mother. When Elaine occasionally has a patient with Gynophobia referred to her from his school or company she has begun to ask, me to help in allaying his fears because, she says, talk therapy hasn’t worked well and I have such a lovely gentle way with young heterosexual men. I suppose that was meant as a complement, but I don’t want to become thought of as a Cougar. However, it is true that I do enjoy sex with much younger men.

I’m amazed that he has gotten as far as he has in his career with him constantly being among and handling attractive young women, but it seems he and his coaches believe he has reached a point where he can no longer cope effectively so is seeking professional treatment.  Anyway, I am treating Harold or Hal as he is called (not his real name) a marvelously strong and gorgeous nineteen-year-old who I am supposed to help become confident around women and introduce him to the delights the female body can offer a man w/o terrifying him. I could easily be his mother, even though I don’t look it as my beauty regimen has kept me looking as though I’m in my early thirties, which I find is a turn-on for me – in a sort of incestuous way - given the looks we get from some who don’t know us. The schedule called for me seeing him for a 90-minute therapy session five times a week for two weeks and then once or twice a week for a while depending on how (or if) he seems to be progressing. Hal is now mid-way of his second week with me and is progressing well but not at the pace I had hoped so he will be with me for at least another five session week.  

Elaine wanted to immerse him in ‘gentle but dominant femininity’ straight away so during the first intense three weeks he is living with me. At first it tested his stamina at which came a shock to him and use muscles he didn’t know he had but his sexual stamina has increased and he has gained skill and confidence. His ballet-sex therapy sessions are being held in the newly refurbished ballet studio and my bedroom at my home, Blackthorn House, in Eaton Square, Belgravia, London. We are dancing the Pas de Deux from La Bayadere and Swan Lake and other classics which are in his company’s repertory. Seeing how easily and confidently he learned to lift me was his first big test which he passed splendidly as he can toss my 105 lbs. into the air with ease and the momentum is channeled into fish dives; horizontally over his head, or have me fall from a sitting position on his shoulder to be caught in a fish dive as easily as though we had been partners for years.

Pelvic compatibility and contraception: When younger he had all his Gardasil shots against the HPV virus and he came to me with a clean full STI panel so we were good to go. He is uncut, about 7 inches long but his girth is amazing! So he isn’t one of those guys who make a girl wonder “Oh my God! Where am I going to put all that!” as I can easily accommodate his length, but his girth has been a treat as he thrusts into my anterior and posterior fornices! I have not required him to wear a condom as I wear a cervical barrier (a latex flat spring diaphragm or Oves cervical cap) or both when I’m fertile. I ovulated two days before he arrived so I’m safe to have unprotected sex until after my period, but I will allow him to wear a condom if he wants to while I’m menstrual which should start in a day or two, on sixteen September this cycle.

I especially enjoy having him thrust into my anterior fornix while I’m protected by a latex flat spring diaphragm as the pressure from his marvelously thick glans stretching the dome to the bottom of my fornix will at the same time force my cervix higher by a centimeter or more shifting my whole uterus while allowing the flat spring rim to rub against the erectile tissue of my G-spot.  I get wet just writing about how marvelous that is! As the weather here in London is turning cooler I’ve been wearing velvet leggings for any encounters while at the ROH. Though unlike nylon velvet is very easy to soil with coitial secretions so with velvet I’d have to be careful that neither of us drips on them. The leggings show off my legs and have a wonderful absorbent thick cotton gusset that can absorb our coitial discharge – as Kegeling immediately afterward never gets it all -  if we go out to eat before returning to Blackthorn House. I am really enjoying having Hal thrusting inside me as he is such an ardent lover and such a delight to teach! But of course the first few weeks with a new man is always such an adventure!  

I am known around the Royal Opera House as a pointe coach and more recently as a minder for Nikolai a young Russian star who had been getting in a great deal of trouble – impregnating members of the corps - until I was asked to take him in hand. So I drew no stares when I was seen between pointe classes talking with Hal and after work us going off together. That has increased my Cougar quotient with gossips which include almost everyone in the ballet world, but I’m impervious to gossip and Hal’s stock has risen (with those who don’t know of his unease around women) thinking he has charmed his way into my panties, which while the destination is correct he has arrived there by a very different route.  I don’t think I will give him experiences with Pompoir or the Mare’s Trick since in the general population women with those capabilities are rare.  So I wouldn’t want to spoil him for any lovely girl who doesn’t have an advanced degree in pelvic skills.

Seren and the Blackthorn Summer Ballet Intensive

Bluebells, spring in the Cambrian Mountains

The Photo: It’s been a lovely spring and the fields of Bluebells in the Cambrian Mountains are gorgeous!

Tim’s cousin: Seren (the Welsh name for star) the daughter of Tim’s Father’s younger brother, his second cousin, is at Cambridge with Bea and unexpectedly came back to the castle with Bea for the Bank Holiday weekend. She is eighteen and becoming sexually active as she has been at Cambridge with Bea for the last year. She has been on COCs, estrogen/progestin birth control pills, and her stepmother - her father’s second wife (Iris) who was a ballet dancer - is concerned that she may have an unplanned pregnancy which even if she terminates it could harm her chances of marrying well.

No, before someone asks, she isn’t Seren Wilson the Welsh Glamour model who at thirty is almost twice Seren’s age. My Seren has a gorgeous hard Balanchine ballet body: big feet, long legs, short trunk, small breasts, long neck, small head and long natural red hair (hooray! Another redhead in my circle) and even before she begins her Pompoir training has a wonderfully strong pelvic grip. So physically in no way is my Seren like the large breasted glamour model Seren Wilson except they are both female. However, I’m sure that Seren Wilson is attractive in her way to men who like large breasts. It’s nice too that both Bea and Seren are eighteen so that there is no problem with the age of consent for sexual activity with whoever they are involved with during training.

Seren is a very popular Welsh girls name and in my wards case it goes back several hundred years in her family. I’m so pleased that Bea is such good friends with Seren as The Dryads (Bryony and Claire) are older and based in London and Odette and Odile went back to finish Uni in Las Vegas where they are in relationships with Castor and Pollux. Now that classes at Cambridge have ended (on June 10^th) they will both be with me for the summer.

Through Tim Iris found out that I teach a Contemporary Sexual Health course and has asked that I take Seren’s pelvic training in hand. Ordinarily I wouldn’t have, but since she’s Tim’s family and Seren and Bea are close friends and since Seren can be with me for the summer I agreed to tutor her.  Fortunately Seren’s mother was a ballet dancer and Seren has taken ballet since she was four and pointe since she was eleven otherwise I wouldn’t have taken her as a pelvic student.  After the ballet intensive I plan to have Bea and Seren intern as Hostess at my London fetish club (Clever Cunts) this summer. To protect their identities they will wear full-face hoods when with club members and have no tats, piercing or scars they can be recognized by and since all the male members are required to have negative full STI panels they should be fine.  The British aristocracy has its problems, but the men know a tight vaginal grip when they feel it which is why so many of them marry ballet dancers, or have us as mistresses.

Seren has been having low libido and I suggested that she have a mini-GyneFix (4 bead) frameless copper IUD placed which would protect her for at least three years and allow her to cycle naturally so she can enjoy the swings in her natural hormones. Over the Bank Holiday Chris, the male Gyn from my London clinic, was here and when she agreed he had her hop up on the exam table numbed her cervix and implanted a mini-GyneFix in her fundus in less than 20 minutes.

Seren and the Blackthorn Summer Ballet Intensive: Returning readers may recall that my Ballet Intensive is being held at Blackthorn Castle the 13^th century pile whose architectural heritage my predecessors and I are assuring remains safely ensconced in its ancestral terroir.

This year’s ballet intensive first mentioned in my post for May 6, 2016 has had a participant cancel. Fortunately for Seren her strong ballet background enables her to step in and fill that vacancy nicely. She has had all her vaccines as well as a full panel STI and pregnancy test. Though I’m making sure she is kitted out with Gaynor Minden hard shanked pointes for ‘play’ (ballet-sex classes) as well as her regular performance Bloch Axiom shoes. Not to mention the more intimate items like sports, plugs and suction base training dildos for pelvic training. Even with her strong ballet background and daily classes before she came to live with me she had increased her technique and pointe classes to prepare for the Summer Intensive. I think that shows determination a club hostess trainee needs given that she was still taking exams.

Nikolai: I’ve been fortunate to be able to get Nikolai a young (26 y/o) Russian male ballet star who is dancing with the company at the ROH for the 2015-16 season to be Ballet Master for my Blackthorn Summer Ballet intensive. This past year I have been his coach and social mentor. My job as his social mentor has been challenging as he has a tendency to go off the rails in social relationships and tends to impregnate young female corps members who nevertheless are still lining up to have him inseminate them thinking “it will never happen to me as I’m using protection” which is what all the others thought as well.

I think the reason he accepted was to get out of London for several weeks with a totally new field of young women with hard ballet bodies and tightly muscled vaginas. I hadn’t mentioned the possibility that Nikolai was to be Ballet Master. When they learn he will be teaching my students this summer I’m sure young ballet dancers in Europe and the Americas will fantasize about being in his arms as unprotected he thrust lustily deep into their vaginas while their local boyfriends are inseminating them. Going solo it is a fantasy with which any woman can easily masturbate to repeated orgasms. It’s also why I’ve insisted on all ballet intensive participants have GyneFix copper IUDs implanted as Nikolai is certain to inseminate all the students several times before the intensive is over.

The Blackthorn Summer Ballet Intensive

The Photo: A pair of Gaynor Minden pointes with optional sueded platforms which provide superior traction and increase the life of the blocks outer padding. Standard internal platform padding along with toe taping and toe pads help minimize toe trauma from thrust-drop during ballet-sex. I think this photo epitomizes the power and beauty of Gaynor Minden pointes that help to make the wearer’s legs look longer, more shapely and cloud men’s minds with thoughts of rapturous lovemaking. Being able to mind-fuck a man by confidently and expertly wearing pointe-shoes is something very few women are capable of doing which gives us a unique advantage when competing for men. The rest fall back on far less adventuresome fuck-me shoes like Louboutin 4 inch stilettos.

The Blackthorn Summer Ballet Intensive: We have been very pleased with the response from ballet schools in the U.S. Canada and the UK in recommending carefully selected student candidates for the second year of the Blackthorn Ballet Summer intensive, commonly known locally as the BBSI. Even with a long list of necessary ballet skill qualifications we have received more than 275 applications for the course. 15 women will be chosen and we will have 15 young male ballet dancers as their partners for the two week course. No other school has a 1:1 ratio of women to men when teaching a ballet course. Seeking to participate in the BBSI is something that mothers of prospected students must discuss in depth with their daughters as a student with no knowledge of or experience with her reproductive tract is an unsuitable candidate. A great many of our students come from families where the mothers are former dancers who have been very sexually active and where sexual activity by the daughter is encouraged as it is seen as providing experience and adding depth to the daughter’s arsenal of erotic resources as she chooses a permanent mate.

Each student candidate in addition to having demonstrated considerable talent, stamina, grace and poise as a young ballet dancer must, because of unique aspects of the course dealing with seduction of the human male, meet additional health, safety and legal requirements some of which are:

Summer intensive student requirements:

• Must have a minimum of 5 years of pointe work
• Must be between the ages of 16 and 18.
• Must have completed the three injection regimen of Gardasil vaccine.
• Must have had a recent pelvic to ensure she has a healthy cervix and doesn’t need a hymenectomy to allow penile-vaginal-intercourse, PVI.
• Must have a current negative full panel STI test. This can occasionally get a mother’s hackles up, but when It’s explained that their daughter will be intimate with a number if men during the course of her training and that all the other students and their male partners must pass the full STI panel as well they understand the need for it. 
• Must have had a stringless GyneFix copper bead IUD implanted at least two months prior to arrival for class as it’s important for attendees to be well protected while cycling naturally an order to learn to use her cyclical hormonal swings to her advantage during seduction training.
• Must have a negative serum pregnancy test, which will be administered when the student reaches the course venue, Blackthorn Castle.  It’s important that prospective students take any additional contraceptive precautions necessary even with a copper IUD implanted. Students arriving pregnant will not be allowed to participate.
• Must have the pelvic anatomy (a deep post-pubic vault) to be correctly fitted for a contraceptive diaphragm – Our Gyn clinic will fit and supply the silicone Semina coil spring rim diaphragms at no cost to the students. Semina is available in six diameter sizes, from 60 to 85mm, in 5mm increments. For more about the why we are using the Semina coil spring diaphragm as an introductory cervical barrier see below.
• Must be able to be correctly fitted with and have at least six pairs of Gaynor Minden pointes with suede tips and extra hard shanks required for ballet-sex training. The extra hard shanks turn a regular élève style shoe (where the wearer rolls through the foot on to pointe) into a relevé style shoe where the wearer springs or steps on to pointe. Extra hard shanked shoes are needed for ballet-sex because they will support an average weight (115lb woman) dancer when she puts her weight on her heels, which is poor technique but occurs when she is fucked boneless while on her toes. With internal platform pads Gaynors are far superior to pointes made of conventional materials in minimizing the likelihood that the wearer’s toes will be injured from thrust-drop during ballet-sex.  If the student wears pointes made of traditional materials they may be worn for class, rehearsals and performances, but not ballet-sex training.

With this list of requirements some of which require long lead times you can see why putting in a last minute request for a place in class is not a winning strategy.

Nikolai will teach: I am very pleased to say that Nikolai, a young (26 y/o) Russian male ballet star who has been dancing with the RB for the 2015-16 season has had his contract renewed for the 2016-17 season. A gorgeous male of amazing grace, poise and virility Nikolai will be working with the Female students and supervising other male ballet members as instructors and partners for the women students. He is one of the attractions of the Blackthorn Summer Ballet Intensive as his reputation as having amazing sexual stamina as well as being a considerate lover has already become legendary in ballet circles. Having Nikolai as a lover is one of the lifetime goals of a great many young women dancers so I consider myself fortunate to have him as a dance and bed partner when he is not dancing with his company.  

A Semina and its case with an introducer

Training teen barrier-girls: A sexually active barrier-girl should never be without her diaphragm and the Semina’s pink transparent silicone rubber, which some wearer’s have compared to a pink soap bubble, has proved very attractive when used as a young woman’s first experience with cervical barriers. The use of a Semina began as an alternative for teens that were too small for an IUD and couldn’t use hormonal contraceptives. However, when it was found that they could also be effectively used for cervix protection (flood insurance) during under water penetrative sex even the girls on HBC wanted to be fitted for a Semina. IUDs and cervical barriers are only compatible when the IUD strings are trimmed off so they don’t stick to a cervical barrier worn for flood insurance during underwater penetrative vaginal sex which is one of the more arcane subjects on the syllabus during the Blackthorn Ballet Summer Intensive. Stringless IUDs worn by up-market Escorts are checked for proper position with periodic ultrasound scans.

The introducer shown in the photo was used to simplify insertion especially for women with short fingers. Unfortunately introducers are no longer being made, but it is easy to learn the proper insertion technique. Should BBSI students progress to become “socially available” for underwater penetrative sex they can switch to a latex flat spring diaphragm similar to the Reflexions of blessed memory. While some few people are allergic to latex and natural rubber latex does not last as long as silicone the advantages are considerable as the heat transfer and the elastic properties of the translucent dome membrane are far superior to silicone. Additionally, the flat spring rim which only folds in a single plane makes it very desirable as ‘flood insurance’ because it’s nearly impossible for even a mischievous lover to intentionally under-thrust the rim.

 

 

Halloween 2015 in the UK

Traditional carved pumpkins as evil spirits

British Summer Time ends:  On Sunday October 25th in the UK and Europe ‘Summer Time’ ended and the clocks were turned back one hour. So we all got an extra hour of sleep. Daylight Saving Time ends in the U.S. and Canada this coming Sunday November 1^st.  For those women on a progestin only pill (the mini-pill or POP) which needs to be taken every day and at the same time every day or its efficacy decreases so they need to factor in the time change so they don’t take the pill an hour late at the time change.

Halloween in the UK: This will be my first Halloween in the UK. As a Priestess of Aphrodite I’m of the view that there may be a great deal more to the spirit world than ordinary citizens of the U.S and the UK are aware of, although, the British are much closer to the truth than most Americans as the tradition here is far older here and there are a great many more spirits abroad for the celebration. The Wikipedia article says:

“Halloween, or Hallowe'en a contraction of "All Hallows’ Evening"), also known as Allhalloween, All Hallows' Eve, or All Saints' Eve] is a yearly celebration observed in a number of countries on 31 October, the eve of the Western Christian feast of All Hallows' Day. It begins the three-day observance of Allhallowtide, the time in the liturgical year dedicated to remembering the dead, including saints (hallows), martyrs, and all the faithful departed believers.

According to many scholars, All Hallows' Eve is a Christianized feast influenced by Celtic harvest festivals, with possible pagan roots, particularly the Gaelic festival Samhain. Other scholars maintain that it originated independently of Samhain and has solely Christian roots.” from Wikipedia. The complete article can be read HERE

Halloween in Kent: Nokolai and I have been invited down to Headlong Hall Bryony’s parent’s ancestral home in Kent for the holiday. Returning readers will recall that Headlong Hall is the seat of Lord A****. I call the estate ‘Headlong Hall’ (as it is right out of a T.L. Peacock novel) just north of Canterbury. Headlong Hall is a gothic revival monstrosity built in the fifteen hundreds and was a fortified Royalist home during the civil war. In the early 1640s it was captured but not destroyed by the Parliamentarians, which some architectural scholars think was a lost opportunity.

Bryony’s father, Alistair, and her step-mother the present Countess, who I’ll call ‘Brigitte’, his 4^th wife who was a ballerina with the Paris Opera Ballet and at 26 is younger than Bryony will be hosting a house party for the weekend. Brigitte is extremely flexible and a hypersexual masochist as I am so we understand each other quite well and have become friends since I became Bryony’s mentor. I was surprised and pleased at how close Bryony and Brigitte have become. They have a mutual goal in ensuring the happiness and wellbeing of Alistair and are not (usually) in competition for bed partners so harmony on the female side of the household usually prevails. They have come to terms with the fact that Alistair is a philanderer and as long as he is careful and Brigitte retains his favor she will retain her status as a Countess and his bed hopping gives both her and Bryony license to take (very carefully screened) sexual partners themselves.

Brigitte says there are at least six known ghosts haunting Headlong Hall, three of which she has seen herself. None of them is known to be malicious, but all seem to enjoy scaring the residence of the pile with usually harmless tricks. I will be celebrating Samhain, but there is enough similarity to Halloween that the casual observer should not notice except my rituals except perhaps for the incense burning in my room. And given my status as a Priestess of Aphrodite I don’t expect to be terrified and should be quite safe, but I am looking forward to meeting as many of the ghosts as I can. Alistair says there have only been two mysterious disappearances of female staff during Halloween in his lifetime, though he thinks there have been others documented in the muniment room.

My Cycle for Halloween and a Death Rubber: As this is being written I’m CD13 and should ovulate tomorrow when Bryony, Claire, Nikolai and I go down to Kent. I’ll be CD15 and newly Luteal on Samhain/Halloween. That means that on Samhain I should no longer be in danger of pregnancy if I have unprotected sex. However, I’m planning on wearing one of my latex Reflexions flat spring rim ‘Death Rubber’ diaphragms as wearing one will give me access to the pelvic experience and talents of the woman from whom I harvested it. Returning readers will recall that a diaphragm worn for a sexual encounter during which the woman died retains a bit of the wearer’s Chi, the vital force believed in Taoism and other Chinese thought to be inherent in all things. It is this Chi that allows me to profit from the previous owner’s sexual experience. Harvesting a diaphragm from the corpse and wearing it myself allows me to tap into the Chi it contains to supplement my intellect and pelvic skills. Now almost all the Death Rubber diaphragms I harvest come from elite escorts. Of course I need the diaphragm to be a latex FS in my size (80mm) which are usually worn by tall girls so I keep a record of the Escort patients who use 80mm Ds that my clinic sees so that I can harvest a death Rubber should tragedy strike.  

Wishing all my readers a happy and safe Samhain/Halloween

 

Girl-girl sex, ripe rubber

A latex Reflexions flat spring diaphragm with its introducer

The Photo: A latex flat spring diaphragm which because of the softness of the dome, the marvelous heat transfer properties of latex and the flat spring rim which makes it very difficult to under-thrust is the best cervical barrier to use for barrier fetish sex even though the latex dome won’t last as long as a silicone diaphragm and some few men and women are allergic to latex. The introducer makes inserting and removing it easier for a wearer with short fingers. The Reflexions pictured is no longer being made, but our clinic can make a similar device to an individual woman’s requirements.

Girl-Girl sex with Bryony’s step-mother: It’s getting difficult to find getaway time now that the ballet company is performing Romeo and Juliet, but the weekend schedule allowed it.  Nikolai and I were invited back to Headlong Hall while Lord A**** is away in the U.S. on an extended business and golfing trip and Bryony came along. Claire had been invited as well, but it was her brother’s birthday and she wanted to be with him then.  Returning readers will recall that the present Countess, who I’ll call ‘Brigitte’, is his 4^th wife who was a ballerina with the Paris Opera Ballet and at 26 is younger than Bryony. Brigitte is extremely flexible and is a hypersexual masochist as I am so we understand each other and have become friends since I became Bryony’s mentor. For the weekend Nikolai and Bryony were partners and Brigitte and I were a couple. I was CD16 and had just ovulated while Brigitte was CD12 and fertile. She has a standard (6 bead) copper frameless GyneFix IUD implanted with the strings trimmed off so she can safely wear a diaphragm w/o the worry of accidently pulling it out when she or her Lord, who is a latex fetishist, is removing her diaphragm. Brigitte has lovely firm high breasts which she enjoys having sucked. She also enjoys breastfeeding so we were a good team taking turns sucking each other’s nipples while our fingers were deep in each other’s vaginas caressing the G-spots while our thumbs were massaging the shafts of our clitorises. It’s so nice to find a lovely woman who enjoys milking me!

I was surprised to find how much I’d missed caressing the soft unblemished completion of young female skin and the scent of her shampoo, perfume and the pheromones in the sweat of her armpits while being caressed to orgasm by a lovely hard bodied very feminine dancer.  I think if we could train together for a few weeks I could move her cycle so it was in synchrony with mine. After we had given each other a long slow series of orgasms we lay spent in each other’s arms licking the sweat of one another’s breasts. It was marvelous not to have beard-burn on my cheeks and breasts from a man or have his semen draining out of me. It was just our clear musky arousal lube draining out that we could dip our fingers in and then lick it off to taste our partner’s vaginal secretions.

A threesome: Brigitte told me during our afterglow pillow-talk that she and Claire, Bryony’s first cousin, are lovers. I wasn’t surprised as Brigitte is a very beautiful woman and there is no one more aware of another woman’s beauty than a competitor for available men. Though married to Lord A**** Brigitte likes to seduce other women’s men just to keep her skills sharp. Even so she seems to draw other women to her w/o trying. Not only is Brigitte as glamorous as a Vogue model, but being married if she did accidently become preggers by a lover she could just say that Lord A**** was the father. Well, assuming the baby was Caucasian. However, Brigitte is very careful even with a GyneFix implanted since like me she works extremely hard to keep in top dancing form and would not want a pregnancy to ruin her bikini body even for a few months so she would have a vacuum aspiration and be rid of it.

I got the chance to have Claire as a lover the next night when she arrived unannounced and asked to share Brigitte’s bed with me. It was marvelous with the three of us in that huge bed. Our scent bouquet with different perfumes, shampoos, deodorants mixing with the scent of our estrogenic sweat and pelvic musk was glorious! Claire brought an additional secretion to the group as she was draining fresh semen from a friend of her father’s who fucked her just before she drove over form her parent’s adjoining estate. I found that extremely arousing before we even began to fondle one another!  By then I was CD22 and luteal having ovulated the week before and had an Oves screwed down tight on my crevice just in case a lover blew air into my vagina. You would be surprised how often that happens during girl-girl sex! 

I felt confident even though potent semen had been introduced into our threesome of reproductive age women that I was quite safe, but both Brigitte and Claire were fertile so there was a very small chance that they could become pregnant. I think that was what caused the frissson of danger we all felt while inserting our fingers in Claire’s vagina then inserting them in our own vaginas to share her coitial discharge. It ended up that I gave Claire cunilingus to suck out the remainder as she Kegeled it into my mouth. Like so many other professional ballerinas we all are completely waxed with the exception of scalp hair and eyebrows. I think that makes things so much neater as far as the female pelvic line in tight costumes and oral sex as there is no chance of getting hair caught in ones teeth.

Bryony and ballet-sex: Brigitte, Claire and I, in Brigitte's bedroom suite at Headlong Hall, could hear Nikolai and Bryony having ballet-sex in the hall outside her door as he had her bent over the balcony rail thrusting into her from behind while she was en pointe with her feet a la seconde. I knew from how he takes me during ballet-sex that his right arm was around her thigh with his hand caressing the shaft of her clitoris. He had her gasping, mewing and moaning before she screamed as she came with her vaginal contractions causing him to grunt and gasp as she milked his glans and he spewed thick hot jets of creamy semen against her unprotected cervix.  Actually, Nikolai took her twice more very quickly and she was moaning and screaming; Ohhh! Ohhh! Oh God yes! Just there!!! Yes there! While Brigitte Claire and I lay sprawled across her bed sucking quietly on one another’s nipples and giggling listening to Bryony having her brains fucked out. Since Bryony has a droll sense of humor I suspect she planned to be fucked senseless just outside her step-mother’s bedroom door as she knew we would be able to hear her as she orgasmed.

The pungent odor of a ripe latex diaphragm: I’m teaching the Dryads, Bryony and Claire, who returning readers will recall are working on their PhDs in Psychology at University College London by being Hostesses at the Costume Club (better known to the fetish community as Clever Cunts) about how to ‘ripen’ a diaphragm. It’s really only a matter of not removing the diaphragm for 48 hours after the last act of intercourse so the natural latex rubber can marinate in the female and male genital secretions. The only caveat is that that a cervical barrier or menstrual cup of any sort should not be left inserted with old blood in it. Old blood can cause a very serious infection if left in the vagina so during menstruation the barrier or cup should be removed as soon as possible. Some few latex fetishists have an acquired taste for the eye watering stench of natural rubber marinated in decomposing vaginal secretions and will pull the marinating device out of his partner’s vagina and lick the marinade off the diaphragm. A silicone diaphragm will develop an odor as well, but not to the same extent.

 

 

Nikolai, the Odalisques and Gaynors

Odalisque painted by Jules Joseph Lefebvre (1874)

The photo: A lovely Victorian era depiction of an odalisque in a Turkish harem by the French figure painter Jules Joseph Lefebvre (14 March 1834 – 24 February 1912). This painting is now in the Art Institute of Chicago in the U.S.

 

Nikolai at Blackthorn Castle: Over the Bank holiday weekend on the spur of the moment I took Nikolai to see my ancestral home, Blackthorn Castle, in the Cambrian Mountains. I wanted to see the progress on the deep dive facility and to try out the new ballet studio. Returning readers will recall that Nikolai is a visiting dancer performing at the ROH where I’m a private coach and his social minder since he has managed to impregnate two corps girls in less than six months. Both were due to IUD failures which are quite rare and two in a row were just his bad luck, not to mention that of the women both of whom had terminations. We took our dancebags and a portable disk player and we did a barre and some pas de deux from Swan Lake and La Bayadère in the newly completed studio created out of a large drawing room on the western side of the castle with large mullioned windows with an amazing view looking out toward St. George’s Channel in the distance. On a clear day you can actually see the channel, but not that weekend as the castle was in the clouds. I had the studio created as a room within a room with mirrored walls, sprung floor and climate controlled so that none of the 16^th century paneling and original flooring has been damaged. That way if I decide to give the place to the National Trust I won’t have ruined the original linenfold paneling and fittings.

It was marvelous being alone with and partnered by him in my new studio moving to the music of Tchaikovsky and Minkus! We were nearly unexpected (it keeps the servants on their toes), but I called well before we got to the Caersws station to have a range rover meet us and they took marvelous care of us from a standing start. The studio was cold so we were in woolens until we warmed up. What an amazing high! The weather was typical, low clouds and misting, which I thought fitting for Swan Lake. And we had my cook’s famous rack of spring lamb for supper. Fortunately the rail work stoppage on the southern coasts of England and Wales had no effect on the line serving Caersws so we went out and back to London more or less on time.

Blackthorn Castle staff: Since I have been in London or traveling I have kept an almost full staff at the castle, less my dresser and personal assistant, Emily, and two male bodyguard/footmen/chauffeurs (ex SAS men) who make up my travel staff.  My predecessor, Edith the 22^nd Baroness, had Emily fitted with a GyneFix IUD so we shouldn’t have to worry about pregnancy when she finds a lover. The place is very maintenance intensive and just dusting, tending fireplaces in the main drawing room, dining room, bedrooms and my sitting room as well as polishing silver and brass and waxing wooden furniture that the Victoria and Albert Museum or Christies would love to have for display or sale takes weeks. I could close large portions of the castle and do with a lot less staff but the villagers are friendly, good workers and need the jobs and my predecessor while she kept the building fabric in good repair was beginning to let the furnishings go so there is a great deal of work to be done to getting the furnishings up to a point where I wouldn’t be ashamed to have the staff give tours and it would bring tourist dollars to the area to see a still fully functioning medieval castle that never fell to an enemy. I’m told that was probably because it was easier to bypass the castle than capture it because of its remote location and our provisions were such that an enemy didn’t want to waste men for a siege when they were needed elsewhere. Still, there are few medieval castles in the UK that the owners can claim were never captured.  

Nikolai and the Odalisques: Nikolai seems to have settled in to something of a routine taking only one of them a day, but multiple times if their schedules permit, then back to my place in Eaton Square where he tries to drain me of my sexual stamina, but only manages to fuck my brains out. Then after I recover and thoroughly drain him by giving him Pompoir we are through for the night, but resume before we get out of bed in the mornings. Most of the Odalisques themselves have come to realize they are merely place-holders to keep Nikolai sated during the day until he can get back to my care where I take him clubbing and they are enjoying their intimate relationship with this gorgeous and immensely virile male while they can. The girls have now switched to Gaynors for ballet-sex with Nikolai and there have been no more injuries from thrust-drop.

Nikolai as arm candy: When I had Marvin (Morning Wood) on my arm as a titled aristocrat I was the one getting attention. Now that I’m clubbing with Nikolai he is the one the tabloids are after, but they continually ask if I’m pregnant as his responsibility for the two pregnancies earlier in the year got a lot of publicity in the tabloids and they are looking for another ballet dancer sexual tryst of the same magnitude since male heterosexual ballet dancers seem to be rare - from the prospective of the yellow press. Nikolai and I (as a couple) aren’t anywhere near the same magnitude as Rudolf Nureyev and Margot Fonteyn, but that hasn’t stopped the tabloids from comparing us as couples.

Of course Nureyev was Gay and Fonteyn had been sterilized after an unwanted pregnancy early in her career so that is a major difference and another is in the level of our talent as dancers. I was never a threat to a principal dancer’s career in any of the major companies, though Nikolai may still rise to the level of Baryshnikov or Nureyev if he is careful and doesn’t step on his own dick, socially speaking. It’s the likelihood of pregnancy where my relationship with Nikolai puts me at far grater risk than Fonteyn was with Nureyev, but that’s one of the huge thrills the frisson of terror for me in having him repeatedly inseminate me even though I know my cervix is well protected.

Spongeworthy, Bank Holiday weekend, Erika

The Today contraceptive sponge

The photo: The Today sponge, shown folded for insertion.

Benefits of the Sponge: The contraceptive sponge is safe, simple, and convenient. In the U.S. you can buy it in a drugstore without a prescription. It does not need to be fitted by a health care provider and with some practice, inserting and using the sponge is easy. Women like the sponge because it can be conveniently carried in pocket or purse to be prepared should a spongeworthy occasion present itself. It generally cannot be felt by you or your partner. It has no effect on a woman's natural hormones. It does not interrupt sex play — the sponge can be inserted hours ahead of time and can be worn safely and effectively for up to 30 hours after you insert it. During that time, you can have intercourse as many times as you like during the first 24 hours without removing or reinserting the sponge. It can be used during breastfeeding. According to the 19^th revised edition (2008) of Contraceptive Technology the sponge is 91% effective for nulliparous women if used correctly and for every act of intercourse.

Disadvantages of the Sponge

• It may be difficult for some women to insert or remove the sponge. If you cannot remove a sponge, or if one breaks into pieces and you cannot remove all of the pieces, see your health care provider immediately to have the sponge removed.
• It may cause vaginal irritation.
• It may make sex too messy or too dry. Some women complain that the sponge is messy because it requires too much liquid. Others have complained the sponge makes sex too dry. Using a water-based lubricant may help dryness.

Using Spermicide

The sponge contains the chemical spermicide nonoxynol-9. Nonoxynol-9 has certain risks. If it is used many times a day, or by people at risk for HIV, it may irritate tissue and increase the risk of HIV and other sexually transmitted infections.

Inserting the sponge:

• Wash your hands with soap and water.
• Before inserting the sponge, wet it with at least two tablespoons of clean water.
• Gently squeeze the sponge. The spermicide, Nonoxynol-9, (N9) will become active when the sponge is completely wet.
• Fold the sides of the sponge upward and away from the loop on the bottom to make it look long and narrow. Then slide the sponge as far back into your vagina as your fingers will reach.
• The sponge will unfold and cover the cervix when you let go of it. To make sure the cervix is covered, slide your finger around the edge of the sponge and check its position. You also should be able to feel the nylon loop on the bottom of the sponge.
• The sponge can be inserted up to 24 hours before intercourse. It must be left in place for at least six hours after the last time you have intercourse. It should not be worn for more than 30 hours in a row.

How long should the sponge be left in?

The sponge can be inserted up to 24 hours before intercourse. It must be left in place for at least six hours after the last time you have intercourse. It should not be worn for more than 30 hours in a row.

Removing a sponge:

• Wash your hands with soap and water.
• To remove the sponge, put a finger inside your vagina and through the loop. Pull the sponge out slowly and gently.
• Use a sponge only once. Always discard a used sponge in a waste container. Do not flush it down the toilet.

The Today sponge is available over the counter in the U.S but NOT available in stores in the UK. However, it is available on the Internet which makes it easily available with a little planning. A box of three costs about £15. 

Sponge sabotage: Our clinic knows of instances where the spermicide has been rinsed out of the sponge and the sponge dried and reused. One source is the trash cans where used sponges are discarded in women’s loos in clubs and communal restrooms in women’s dorms. Then the sponge is given to an unsuspecting woman to insert leaving her with a much less effective method protected only by the moist sponge’s ability to absorb her partner’s semen with no spermicidal activity. If a rinsed and dried sponge is reused it’s also more likely to come apart during use further decreasing its effectiveness.

I’m CD9 and newly fertile this cycle: its Sunday August 30^th as I’m writing this post. I always become aroused when I’m fertile and am writing about contraceptive sabotage occurring either among my friends or to patients who come to our clinic to get help afterward. I think when you are going to be with a new or mischievous man its best even when a woman is on hormonal contraceptives to wear a flat spring rim diaphragm with spermicide to prevent any unexpected decrease in the effectiveness of her hormonal birth control from putting her at risk of pregnancy. Even The LARC methods Nexplanon, Mirena and Kyra can be made less effective by the users intentional or unknowing use weight loss supplements, some prescription meds or even the EllaOne morning-after pill.

Odalisque injuries: There is good news and bad news. The bad news is that another of the small group of corps dancers who are competing amongst themselves to seduce Nikolai out of my bed has been injured. It occurred during a ballet-sex tryst with him when she bruised a big toe when landing from a thrust-drop while wearing Freeds. The good news is that it’s not too serious. Even better news is that this second injury has caused the other Odalisques to rethink purchasing Gaynor Minden shoes in which to play with him. Neither the dislocated toe nor the bruised nail has been linked to Nikolai as the women didn’t want to explain truthfully how their injuries occurred so he is safe for now. I don’t have an immediate replacement, but I think the four remaining Odalisques, including the recent replacement for the one who dislocated her big toe, should take care of his needs until bruised toe can get back into competition.

Summer Bank Holiday: This coming Monday August 31^st is the Summer Bank Holiday. The unionized workers on First Great Western railroad which covers parts of South West England and Wales from Brighton to the tip of Cornwall at Penzance on the south coast of England and along the south coast of Wales from Newport on the East to Pembroke on the west have decided to have a strike this weekend. Most routes are operating, but at reduced service. Fortunately rail service to Caersws, Wales was not affected. On a spur of the moment decision I decided to take Nikolai aboard The Dragon to Blackthorn Castle, my ancestral home in the Cumbrian Mountains. The trip gives us an opportunity to be alone together – with just the servants - where we can work on his pointe training and sexual stamina. The weather so far has been as expected Cool, in the low to mid 60s (F) at mid-afternoon with showers and forecasted thunderstorms Monday afternoon… Sigh! It seems strange not to have my Wards with me to enjoy girl gossip. I think I have a bit of empty-nest syndrome. But I can lose myself with my nose buried in Nikolai’s armpit enjoying the male testosterone musk of his sweat after he keeps me in orgasm for so long I’m breathless and can hardly move much less stand.

Tropical storm Erika and Lost Cove on Virgin Gorda: Alice, Duchess of M**** phoned to say that tropical storm Erika passed over Virgin Gorda on the 28^th with heavy rain and gusty winds and thankfully relatively little damage. Her place and mine on Lost Cove were undamaged. I hope that sort of things continue as we still have another eight weeks of Hurricane season to go.

Stamina training and backup protection

A few pairs of dead shoes discarded by the corps

The Photo: Dead Freed and Bloch pointes discarded by the corps. Corps members go through four or five pairs a week. Sometimes more sometimes less depending on the ballets and roles danced.

Pilgrim’s Progress: Here I’m defining Nikolai as a ‘pilgrim’ since he whispers in my ear every time he fills me with his semen how he worships my vagina and the muscles that contract around his erection to milk him of powerful jets of molten pearl. In that sense as his ‘spiritual advisor’ I see him as every bit a sexual pilgrim who I am guiding on a ‘religious’ pilgrimage as intense with his psychological enthrallment and intimate physical interconnection with me as Marvin’s is. I’m pleased to say that Nikolai is very accomplished with needle and thread, a consequence of growing up with hand-me-down practice clothes he had to repair himself when he was a child in ballet school in Leningrad. So he has had no problem in sewing ribbons and elastic on his pointe shoes. He was also familiar with the need to keep his toenails short and I showed him how to economically and effectively use toe tape and toe pads. And he is an exemplary pointe student though he is working on his développés and endurance sur les pointes, but his leaps of course are exquisite!

Ballet-sex dangers, Corps dancer’s stamina: I’ve mentioned in an earlier post the trouble Nikolai got into by impregnating corps dancers, but that was the result of rare failures of the individual women’s IUDs. A much more likely problem is a dancer being injured during ballet-sex even though she is in great shape for dancing.  Returning readers will remember that my definition of ballet-sex is for the woman to be penetrated from behind then rising en pointe and remaining there for the entire time it takes for her partner to give her an orgasm and or to orgasm himself which can sometimes be as long as twenty minutes.  Problems can arise with ballet-sex for several reasons: 1) if the woman must stay continuously en pointe longer than her strength will allow causing her to fall off pointe or; 2) If she has a strong orgasm and doesn’t hold back a bit she could go jelly-boned and lose control of her legs and fall off pointe. 3) Unexpected thrust-drop which is where the male partner’s legs are longer than the woman’s so when he thrusts he lifts her off the floor and drops her back on her platforms when withdrawing which often causes badly bruised nails.  Closely trimmed hails and wearing Gaynor Minden pointes with the thick soft internal platform pads will help minimize the discomfort from thrust-drop.

Some of the more sexually adventuresome Corps girls have tried ballet-sex and found it exhausting and a bit scary so have come to me asking about private stamina training for being penetrated in that position. I suggest they wear Gaynor Minden pointes with sueded tips for their comfort, support and traction during ballet-sex as most of them perform professionally in bespoke Freed Classics. For training I tell them to use a large dildo with a remote controlled vibi and a large suction cup base and a portable barre as most of the fixed barres aren’t far enough from the mirrored walls to get between the mirror and the barre and be able to bend over and support herself on the barre. The height to fasten the dildo to a studio mirror is easily determined by inserting the dildo then doing a 90° forward bend while supporting herself on the barre and backing up to the mirror.  Then go sur les pointes making sure to retain the 90° forward bend and with one hand push the base on to the mirror to develop a good suction. Then step away from the mirror to get off the dildo and mark the spot on the mirror as the height at which the dildo should be suction cupped. Once the spot is unobtrusively marked on the mirror she can fasten the dildo when she wants go en pointe and back on to it then turn on the vibi and move back and forth up and down the shaft. Doing this several times a day and walking around home en pointe should build up stamina for ballet-sex in a few weeks.

Women’s clothing for ballet-sex: Of course the vulva has to be easily accessible. You can wear a thong and sports bra or a thong-back leotard or go commando. I don’t recommend commando because while training with a dildo or during an encounter with a lover secretions can flow profusely and drip on the floor where they can cause a slip especially while en pointe (which is why sueded tips are recommended) I think at least tights or a thong is needed to catch coital discharge while walking to the bathroom or dressing room to kegel out most of it. Since I’m lactating if I’m with a lover I’ll wear a front close sports top so I can breastfeed him as part of foreplay before he penetrates me, a thong or tights with a cotton gusset and old suede tipped Gaynors. I wear old Gaynors because they will probably get splattered with lube and genital secretions during the encounter.

Let Nikolai be Nikolai: I’ve decided not to attempt to suppress Nikolai’s libido, but let him be the awesome bull his ego and talent make him. I’m already guiding his choices toward a few of the stronger more talented sexually experienced company girls with powerful libidos. These are some of the ones who have a strong desire to see if they can satisfy him enough to take him away from me so in that sense I’m consorting with the enemy. However, I think my plan is clever as I’m turning my competition’s drive and lust to my personal advantage. I am supremely confident that Nokolai is deep enough in my thrall that daily dalliances will not affect his need to thrill me in any way he can. So I will have time to tutor him in the social graces and soften his interaction with women before I release him to select a mate for marriage and a family if he chooses. This arrangement will keep his needs slaked during the day while I’m teaching class and fitting diaphragms at Blackstone Clinic until I can have him to myself when we have both fulfilled our professional responsibilities.    

Caya as backup protection: The corps girls know I fit diaphragms at a private clinic and some of the more sexually active ones have come to me asking about using backup protection. All in the corps are supposedly using effective methods of birth control. However, the two pregnancies that Nikolai was involved with earlier this year have caused them to be extra cautious as often there is no work for a pregnant dancer – if she is pro-life - or there is a huge delay in the career of a rising star if she carries to term. So some of the most talented and attractive dancers, who are also some of the most sexually active, have asked me to fit them for a Caya contoured diaphragm as they are becoming popular as an effective backup method. I have fitted seven of then so far. One of the attractive features of a Caya, from a man’s perspective, is the very lightly textured (think matte) finish on the dome which partners find very pleasing to rub their glans against. In the UK a fitting is not required for a Caya as it is in the U.S. but if a woman buys one w/o a fitting she could find that her vagina is too small (60mm or less) or too large (85 mm or more) or her post-pubic vault is not deep enough to fully contain the relief arch on the anterior end and have wasted her money.

I think it is deliciously ironic that some of these Caya girls are the same ones I’m grooming as day-fucks for Nikolai and each thinks I don’t have a clue that she wants the Caya for backup protection while she works to seduce Nikolai for herself. That doesn’t bother me in the least as while they are young I am far more lovely as an adult beauty, sexually experienced and know tricks they have never imagined to bind a man emotionally to me. The thing I’m going to have to manage carefully is that they don’t turn on each other and cause social rifts the Corps.

Nikolai and pointe class

Lovely toasty warm legwarmers

The Photo: Legwarmers for cool studio warm up and staying warm between scenes and during rehearsals. Legwarmers are also coming back as fashion accessories this fall, though for ballet girls they never really went away.  

Popular pointe class: My daily company pointe class for the corps while not mandatory is highly recommended by the ballet masters. However, during the summer there is a lot of absenteeism as dancers take vacation before rehearsals for the fall season starting in late September.  Since I have become Nikolai’s coach and social minder he began coming to watch me teach the class. I suggested that while he was there if he was ever interested in taking pointe this would be a good time for him to give it a try. 

I was so pleased when he said yes and I wanted him to be fitted with Gaynor Minden shoes. However, he wanted to be fitted with stock Freed classics so he can have the full pointe wearer’s experience of breaking in new shoes. Our Freed rep had him come to her at their St Martin’s Lane shop and I went with him. He created something of a sensation as there are very few male ballet stars that are fitted with pointes and he signed autographs for some of the women shoppers. We found although he takes a wide box he takes only one size larger than I do. He bought six pairs along with ribbons and toe pads. I taught him how to break in his shoes and we both wore new Freeds in the evenings at home and in my studio in Eaton Square as he began getting his calf and pelvic muscles used to balancing en pointe. A week later he made his debut in Freeds as a new company member in my pointe class.

The word quickly spread that he was not only in my studio during class, but in pointe shoes and actively participating and the rush by corps members to return to class was amazing. Even some of the soloists began appearing in class and other soloists and a few principals appeared to stand quietly inside the door to watch Nikolai en pointe. The younger corps members are very anxious to be in the same room with Nikolai even though they know he is deeply in my thrall and the older ones are plotting how to take him away from me.

Now that he is taking pointe the women all appear in makeup with hair beautifully fastened in neat tight buns. Their tights are new and sheer rather than the old tired washed out ones typically worn for class and the leotards are new with a French-leg if not thong-back and extremely form fitting some even going so far as to bring cashmere shrugs or pashminas and their best legwarmers to wear before and after class and during breaks. All of the women including me want to look our best when Nikolai is around so that we might bask and blush in the warmth of his gaze. Too, the effort expended by the individual students has increased noticeably so the energy and concentration in the studio has risen considerably since no one wants to be seen marking a combination however complex when Nikolai might notice.

I had Nikolai move in with me at Eaton Square the day Marvin left for Cambridge as it is far easier to mentor him when he is close at hand and even necessary when I’m working with him to increase his stamina in the bedroom. Too, he is so taken by the vast choices and quantities of items for sale in London that he sometimes loses track of time and had frequently been late for class or rehearsals until he moved in with me and we ride together to work and shop together as well.

Party animal: For the first few months he was in the UK Nikolai was invited to and attended a party almost every night and his performances began to plateau rather increase in brilliance as had been expected. Now that he knows he is going to have his brains fucked out almost every evening his consumption of alcohol has decreased markedly, possibly because he knows he can’t perform well or even satisfactorily with me in bed if he isn’t sober and he desperately wants to cum deep inside me as often as he can. He frequently whispers in my ear when he is driving his powerful thrusts into me as deep as he can get that he would love it if I became pregnant by him. So in reducing his drinking to a socially sustainable level and getting him to his commitments on time I have begun to get his behavior turned around. I’m hoping that once he establishes a routine of proper professional behavior he will be able to stick to it when my time mentoring him is over.

Irene Adleresque: I seem to have gotten something of a reputation as being a dominant courtesan of the Irene Adler, Lola Montez, Lillie Langtry sort who is the companion of wealthy aristocrats. I suppose this came about from my close relationships with His Grace the Duke of M**** and Alexei, the Russian oligarch who is my neighbor in Eaton Square, but I have been living permanently in the UK for less than eight months. Although I have been active for the last few years as a visitor to the UK with the general population and some of the aristocracy while celebrating the four seasons, the primary celestial events first worshiped in this country in the old ways by the Druids. So perhaps my work on behalf of Aphrodite and certainly jealousy triggered the gossip. I think being compared to Irene Adler is a reputation I don’t deserve (though I am a Dominatrix) since I’m not in bed with Royalty, at least not yet. But I have had a lovely conversation with one of the princes during which we agreed on a great many things.

Since I inherited an ancient title some aristocrats hate that I’m an American, even though both my parents were of Welsh stock and I’m a British citizen, but the generation of my age and younger seem be welcoming enough, especially the men as tales of my pelvic skills and sexual conquests were the first to leak into the tabloid press though they had almost all the facts wrong. But they did spell my name and title correctly and I do love the publicity. It has drawn women to my businesses hoping that some of my knowing what men really want from a woman and how to survive giving it to them will be imparted to them as my clients.

Nikolai is not wealthy, but for now he doesn’t need to be. With his gorgeous powerful young body, gazelle like jumps, stunning stage presence and an awesome reputation in bed he has the ability to steal women’s hearts with a single glance and doesn’t miss an opportunity to do just that. He makes a marvelous escort while clubbing or dinner companion at formal parties. But for me his expert stud service in my bed is one of his best qualities.

Nikolai and the penis-leash

The male ballet basket or package on display.

The photo: A dance belt worn high and proud cupping the family jewels under a pair of tights rolled down over a belt to fully separate the glutes and display the male genitals to advantage. And people wonder why so many women love watching ballet!

Nikolai and Marvin: I’m making some changes in my private life as well as taking on a new responsibility for the next few months. My former psychiatrist and primary lover, Marvin (Morning Wood) has accepted a teaching position at Cambridge University for the upcoming academic year. He has taken a flat in Cambridge within waking distance of Trinity College where he will be teaching. His fixation with me as the embodiment of his dead wife Jenna is in remission which is the only reason he feels confident enough to leave my bed for more than a few days. This will give us both a chance to let Jenna’s stock of Bloch Alpha (S0104) pointes have a rest and allow me to wear only Gaynor Minden pointes while he is away. Marvin has turned over my therapy to a young and brilliant female colleague (‘Elaine’ for the purposes of this blog) who is on the staff at Blackthorn Clinic and who specializes in women’s fetishes and paranormal possession. He thinks she will bring new insights to my case and better help me cope with the responsibilities of being Aphrodite’s high priestess.

Since my wards will all be away from home at college or university I can concentrate on my first loves teaching, performing ballet and sex, not necessarily in that order. I have gotten a marvelous position as a pointe coach for the premier ballet company in the UK and it is only a short ride by car from my place in Eaton Square to the ROH.  That car ride incurs a daily congestion charge (about £11.5 per day) to drive in to Covent Garden, but the Sloan Square tube station (which is closest to my place in Eaton Square) is on the Circle Line and Covent Garden is on the Piccadilly Line so I would have to go one stop east on the Circle line to Victoria station change to the Victoria line and go one stop north to Green Park and change to the Piccadilly line and go three stops east to get to Covent Garden and the ROH. I’d rather have the convenience of the car and not worry about the weather, crowds and not having to wait for a train so to me it’s worth it.

Which brings me to what I think, at least for now, is a marvelous opportunity by working for the ballet at the ROH. In addition to teaching pointe I have been asked to be a coach and social mentor for a young (26 y/o) Russian male ballet star who is dancing with the company this season. My job as a social mentor for him could be challenging as he has a tendency to go off the rails in social relationships. He has only been with the company since the first of the year and has already gotten into several situations with young female corps members – two pregnancies and two terminations - and the mandarins are hoping by having me mentor him I can help him smooth relations with other company members and in his private life he won’t cause as much unfavorable publicity for the company off stage as he garners favorable publicity in his marvelously performed professional roles. He appears in this blog as ‘Nikolai’ which means Victorious; conqueror of the people in Russian and he lives up to that nom de theater!

I asked why I had been chosen since one of the senior women dancers or an administrator could better represent the company than I can. The answer was that none of the company’s women wanted to get near him as he is very seductive and sexually reckless. The senior administrator who asked me to mentor him knows of my intimate relationship with The Duke of M****, a major donor to the ROH, and his son and that my mentoring of Willow, who is the Duke of M****’s granddaughter and in the corps, was a good indication of my success in dealing with difficult personalities. So it was thought if anyone could keep Nikolai more or less under control it might be me. I know they think that if I fail the failure won’t tarnish the reputation of a senior company member and they can always say, “Well what do you expect, she is an American” even though I now hold one of the oldest hereditary titles in the UK.

So I was introduced to Nikolai as a technique coach and we liked each other immediately. I have introduced him to Alexei, my Russian Ex-pat neighbor in Eaton Square. He had already met Alexei’s daughter, Veronika (Nika to her friends) who dances in the corps. Nikolai said he thought that Veronika was too young for him and that he liked older more experienced women and thought I was beautiful. LOL! He is a silver-tongued devil, our libidos are about evenly matched and he has had a recent negative full STI panel so I knew he is safe to take inside me with him unprotected. He is a wonderful replacement for Marvin as he is just as well hung and has great bedroom technique and I’m helping him improve his sexual stamina. It’s always nice to have that sort of thing as an excuse to get a gorgeous dangerously sexy bad boy into my bed and with Elaine’s help I can forget about Marvin for a while and release my inner cougar and prey on Nikolai using his lovely hard body to slake my desire for sex with gorgeous athletic young men.

Through our clinic I asked how Nikolai’s ballet partner’s pregnancies occurred and was told that both girls, one nineteen and the other twenty-two, had IUDs inserted which was very disconcerting until I got the rest of the story. It seems the one with the hormonal IUD was taking a weight loss supplement that made her contraceptive hormone much less effective and the other with the copper IUD had unknowingly expelled it and was totally unprotected. I’m not sure how an IUD can be expelled w/o the woman realizing it, but perhaps she lost it while masturbating with a dildo in a hot tub which she is known to enjoy doing.

Pompoir as a psychological penis-leash: I love teasing Nikolai by fondling his package while whispering in his ear telling him what talented fingers he has. In his practice clothes with him encased in two tight layers of fabric he is impossible to get to w/o unbelting his tights, but well worth the effort as foreplay when we have the time alone in a studio. It is amazing to me how men can continuously produce sperm to impregnate their partners when we are in season and how much I enjoy helping a lover out of his dance belt and guiding him inside me to let him have a shot at immortality.

However, with me in my teaching clothes of Gaynor Minden pointes, convertible foot tights with the feet rolled above my ankles and worn over a thong-back long sleeve crew neck leotard Nikolai can easily press me against a mirrored wall slip a hand down my tights to caress to my vulva, part my labia, insert two fingers to stroke my G-spot while his thumb massages the shaft of my clitoris and have his tongue down my throat so quickly I hardly know what’s happening.  

Did I mention what talented fingers he has? By fingering me that way the ease and speed with which he can bring me to orgasm is astonishing even while I’m en pointe and gripping his fingers with my muscles. It shows he has had years of practice. I try not to let jealousy consume me when I think about the other women he has been with and just concentrate on the fact that I now have him in my bed and we are fucking each other’s brains out. I never want him wearing protection while inside me. I love feeling his liquefied ejaculate draining out of me after he finishes knowing that I’m well protected by the stretchy membrane of my barrier against which his hot creamy jets of semen splattered.

Given that he has a powerful libido, a roving eye and younger women are constantly trying to seduce him I needed to make certain that Nikolai is deeply in my thrall. So I have used Pompoir and the Mare’s trick to bind him emotionally to me. I don’t use them enough so that he gets accustomed to me milking his penis or keeping him hard inside me while he recovers to shoot his load inside me again, just enough so he can’t wait for me to do it again. Too, I use Pompoir as a reward for him pleasing me with a ballet performance or how well he treats me when we are out clubbing. What an absolutely glorious situation!