Devices and desires

Leaking nipples, a common side effect of lactation

The Photo: Leaking nipples that can be controlled by using a pad that presses down on the nipple to halt leakage. The kind that work well for me are clear Lily Padz that have adhesive backs that stay in place even while swimming. Before someone asks, no this is not a Pic of my breast, it’s too large to be mine.

The saga continues: Returning readers will recall in my post of September 21^st, entitled “An offer I couldn’t refuse” I wrote about going to a prospective client (Ron’s) home on a ‘job interview’. In person Ron is very charming and did not display his wild side which the tabloids are so fond of publicizing though when we got into the details he was quite the randy gentleman as we were one-on-one and there was a limited amount of alcohol since that can affect sexual performance. During my sit-down interview we talked about me. He already knew my background as a dancer, courtesan and pelvic skills teacher and we seemed to be of the same mind about sex, BDSM and the D/s subculture about which he was interested, but not as an active participant, yet.  

Contraceptive devices: He asked what I used for contraception and mentioned he preferred bareback sex and his dislike of condoms which seems almost universal in men, except perhaps for rubber fetishists. He believes birth control is “the woman’s responsibility” and I agree since it will be me who gets pregnant if a partner’s condom tears or comes off. However, for a man who isn’t sure of the effectiveness of his partner’s birth control a condom is a good idea – that could save him the cost of a paternity suit or an abortion - and of course for a new partner with an unknown sexual history it’s ‘no glove, no love’. But I digress…

He was amazed that I use cervical barriers for contraception when I told him about my preference for latex flat spring diaphragms and the silicone Oves cervical cap. And when I showed him the spare latex FS from my slit-kit it seemed to add a bit of spice for him seeing and fondling a device with which a woman can protect herself against his sperm. He became quite obviously aroused when later I showed him how I removed and inserted the one I was wearing.  So a cervical barrier device works wonderfully as foreplay for him. I pointed out that even if his girlfriend has a frameless, copper bead GyneFix IUD implanted (which she does) she can still wear a diaphragm as a bit of ‘stagecraft’ if that is a turn-on for him and he liked that idea.

Training devices: He asked what tools I use in my pelvic training course and I mentioned Ben Wa balls, dildos and pointe shoes, preferably Gaynor Minden if the student can be properly fitted in them. We had a long talk about pointe shoes. He had dated dancers, but had never been interested in their professional shoes until recently when he analyzed his fascination with ballet dancers and realized that en pointe the wearer radiates an aura of femininity, grace, poise and power which he finds extremely erotic. Sophie, his most recent girlfriend and my prospective student, let him watch her prepare new pairs of Freed pointes for her ballet classes and he was fascinated and amazed with how so mundane an item as a pair of her pointes can stoke his libido.  He is very smitten by her and just lights up when talking about her so I think he is very much in love.

The prospective student: In her mid-twenties Sophia (Sophie) comes from a wealthy merchant family in the midlands. Educated in schools in Switzerland and at Cambridge, she is an avid SCUBA diver with a strong background in ballet which she has taken continuously since she was five y/o. She has appeared in a number of University ballet productions and takes her ballet training seriously taking class three times a week or more frequently when time permits.  She is currently working for a high profile charity organization to ‘give back’ as so many of the great and good do these days. Ron was prepared and before I asked showed me a current copy of Sophie’s medical records. She has had her Gardasil shots and other vaccinations and isn’t allergic to latex (nor is Ron) which is important in regard to the diaphragm I want her to use as a sex toy during foreplay. And lastly, I was very pleased to know that she had a regular, 6 bead, frameless copper IUD inserted about six months ago and has adjusted to it well so she can enjoy the swing of her hormones as she continues to cycle naturally. I don’t know much more about her yet so I’m looking forward to meeting her.

Desires and the Red Sea: At first I thought the timing for my interview wasn’t ideal since Saturday (9/17) I was CD1 and bleeding and Sunday, CD2, was - as it usually is – the first of my heavy days so I couldn’t wear an Oves because the flow would float it off my cervix. However, I have very regular cycles and have never ovulated when I’ve been menstrual so I only needed a diaphragm for flow control.  When he found I was menstrual he had such a lovely smile and just to be sure asked if I minded menstrual sex as he said; “I seldom get the opportunity to swim in the red sea”. He led me to his bedroom then into the master bathroom and as we stripped watched me remove empty, wash my latex flat spring diaphragm which got him aroused and was fascinated when he asked if I could feel it when it was in place and I told him I couldn’t.  He asked if it was safe for me to leave it out during shower-sex and I said it was and left it on the rim of one of the twin washbasins since I’ve never ovulated while menstrual. Then he led me into the huge multi-head shower and adjusted the water to a comfortable warm temperature.

After we wet down he put his hands under my buttocks and lifted me. I wrapped my legs around his waist as held me with my back against the wall while I tried to relax as I parted my labia and guided him as he inserted himself. It is such a thrill every time I take a new man! New DNA and a new set of bacteria are transferred between partners at an initial pairing and here I was about to have a very socially exalted man’s highly motile semen squirted into me. He smiled when he saw that I have nude pubes and mentioned that Sophie had recently had all her pubic hair removed and both he and she loved the nude look that showed the clean lines of her mons pubis and vulva.

He was gentle and thoughtful filling me slowly and it was amazing having unprotected sex with such an important man who has needs like all the other partners who I’ve had. His thick pubic bush caressed the shaft of my clit to get me off and my contractions pulled him along with me into mutual ecstasy. Then we soaped up and washed then dried each other off.  He watched as I reinserted my diaphragm which I was using as hygienic flow control that day. It’s other safety use as returning readers will recall is as ‘flood insurance’ to prevent the hydraulics of a lover’s thrusts from forcing pool water into my uterus during underwater sex which I suspected I would need that evening, and I did!

We took a relaxing swim in his pool where he took me face to face while I held on to the surround gutter as he held my hips and thrust into me. It was quick but wonderfully erotic.  Then having worked up an appetite we had a lovely dinner of rack of spring lamb that his chef had prepared and I told him that the flocks on my estate in Powys produce some of the best lamb in the UK.  Over dinner we had a delightful conversation. I was interested in knowing how he felt about being a second son and he said it suited him fine as he can get away with being a bit wild while his older brother has to be conventional since he is so often in the public eye. He was interested in the arc of my career and was fascinated at how I ended up as a Baroness with one of the oldest, largest and wealthiest estates in the UK. My life hasn’t been exactly a Cinderella story, but I have been extraordinarily fortunate and I realize it!

Scents: At bedtime he picked me up and carried me to his bed.  I mentioned that I needed to be milked and had my breast pump with me and asked if he liked the taste of breast milk and would like to milk me or if I should use the breast pump.  He had never had an adult nursing relationship (ANR) and eagerly agreed to breast feed so I told him how to peel my Lily Padz nipple shields off and suck my nipples to let my milk down. He was gentle being careful not to bite me as he sucked and emptied both breasts in about twenty minutes before we had menstrual sex again.  He had thick maroon bath towels to protect the pillow he slipped under my hips and the sheets from any menstrual flow. I let him remove my diaphragm this time for unprotected menstrual sex and to allow me to give him Pompoir with less effort. He took the partially filled diaphragm heavy with the scent of latex and my flow and licked the dome clean of the bloody discharge.

It was at that point in our encounter that I first gave him Pompoir telling him to hold on and not move while I milked his penis so he could see what Sophie should be able to do for him if she proves to be a good student. As he approached orgasm during Pompoir his grip on my shoulders tightened, he swelled inside me then shuddered, gasped, moaned and called me Sophie as he came filling me with jets of thick, hot, creamy semen! I’d seen that reaction before and knew that his calling me by her name when in my arms he had lost all sense of where he was.  I think I will tame him with a psychological penis leash, slowly and gently as too bold a move would raise a lot of questions from the circle in which he moves so it’s best to influence him from a distance.

Afterward, as I lay in his arms with our bloody coital discharge draining out of me he commented on the bouquet of scents from our lovemaking; my estrogenic perspiration, the metallic scent of my menstrual flow and sweet musk of my nipple leakage that soaked his chest hair as he lay on top of me during Pompoir.  I went to sleep with my face buried in his armpit where I could breathe deeply of his testosterone laced musk.   

To be continued... 

Men and pointe shoes

Sweaty Capezio Glisse pointes

Fetishes - Men and pointe shoes: A few posts ago I offered to write about aspects of fetishes that members were particularly interested in that I hadn’t written about before. One subject requested was my experience with men and their fascination with pointe shoes and how they change the male view of a woman. From my experience men seem to think that once she puts on a pair of pink satin pointe shoes a woman changes from just another pretty girl with lovely long legs to a magical creature with a dual personality. One that is beautiful, soft, and feminine, the epitome of grace and strength commanding respect and admiration while at the same time being strong, smart and without shedding a tear capable of breaking him in half with her legs while he is having sex with her.

In pointes she can at times be exquisitely virtuous or unbelievably cruel depending on her moods and men in pointe-awe are in her thrall. To a male in pointe-awe a women en pointe seems infinitely desirable and forever unattainable and he longs for the touch of her fingers or the brush of her lips against his own. He dreams of fondling the engorged shaft of her clitoris nestled in the cleft of her mons veneris to get her aroused wet and ready for penetration as she balances on the platforms of her pointes. He brings her along gasping and quivering as his fingers stroke her raised clitoral shaft while she moans “Take me now” in his ear. His fingers move to the softness of her labia, feeling their warmth and fullness, wet with her natural lubricant as he spreads her inner lips to position his shaft for the thrust that will drive him deep into her hard flat belly. He dreams of driving himself into her depths, impaling her on his massive rod as surely as a butterfly is impaled by a pin to its specimen card in a museum while her legs are wrapped around his waist. And, inside his fantasy ballerina he plants his seed up against her cervix giving his DNA a chance at immortality if he can defeat her contraceptive precautions and impregnate her.

Two endings to a ballerina fantasy: Here I think male fantasies diverge. Some men are just happy to have been given a tight, hot, wet, deep vessel in which to release their seed while others want to dominate the ballerina of their fantasies by getting her pregnant despite her best efforts at contraception, proving (in his mind anyway) that he is a dominant male and since she carries his child she is his property. I think if pressed most men would deny they have any secret wish to impregnate their sexual fantasy, but if it should happen and she told him she was pregnant by him I’ll bet he would smile, give a fist pump and a Shout, “YES!” as that would be proof of his potency. Only then he would decide what to do about his fantasy ballerina’s situation before she got her baby bump and she was forced to take a leave of absence from dancing if she wasn’t fired. Of course left to make her own decision a woman having devoted ten or fifteen years of her life to a successful career as a ballet dancer would almost certainly terminate any accidental pregnancy and continue with her career showing her lover the indomitable and perhaps darker side of her being.

Men have confided that another common masturbation fantasy is having sex with a ballerina in a tutu and pointe shoes. Special thong-back fetish tutus are made for escorts or girlfriends who want to cater to this male fantasy. The tutu when viewed from above represents a seemingly impossible barrier to get past. However, when viewed from below the thong panty covers her vulva when she raises a leg in développé, arabesque or attitude, but when she raises en pointe and bends over her partner can ease the thong to one side exposing her vulva, spread her labia and penetrate her fully with a single massive thrust.

Toe-shoe scents: Then there are the more kinky aspects of pointe-shoe worship. Things like smelling the aroma of a dancer’s estrogenic sweat soaked pointes with the scent of damp leather, fabric and melted paste. That’s why so many men with pointe fetishes like their favorite fantasy dancer(s) to wear shoes made of traditional materials; satin, leather, paper and paste. High-tech pointes like Gaynors have their own fetish following, but the scents from a pair of sweat dampened GMs is nowhere near as rich with the full-bodied mixing of scents as are a freshly used pair of, say, Freed Classic pointes.

Semen and pointe shoes: Another kink in pointe shoe worship is ejaculating in a favorite fantasy ballerina’s toe-shoes. There are several ways to do that. If the man has a pair of his fantasy ballerina’s pointes purchased from one of the ballet company boutiques or just bought a pair from a local dance shop to use as a pleasure talisman he can ejaculate in them directly with no consequences other than his own sexual pleasure. If however, he wants to come in a girlfriends pointes that she is still using for rehearsals and class then she may let him squirt semen directly in the boxes.

Silicone toe pads

Toe pads: Or, she might want him to fill her toe pads with semen. Pointe shoe toe pads are made from a number of different materials, lambs wool, acrylic fleece, gel between layers of fabric and silicone gel pads among other things. Different dancers prefer different materials for toe protection during performances, but one thing most of us agree on is using silicone gel pads as containment vessels when semen is involved. With silicone gel pads no semen is absorbed by the material, the semen pools in the bottom of the pad and there is no evaporation as it mixes with the dancers sweat and toe cheese (the paste of skin cells that are rubbed off calluses and the lint from tights mixed with blood or puss from injured toes).

For the rest of this toe pad discussion I’ll be talking about a dancer using silicone gel pads for her lover to come in. Filling a ballerina’s toe pads will concentrate the man’s load (about 5-7ml a bit more than a teaspoon full) in a pool at the bottom of the toe cup so that when she pushes her toes into the pad his semen squishes up between her toes. The toe pads are worn under convertible foot tights so once a lover fills her pads with semen it is easy to slip her bare toes into the fluid filled pads and then pull the foot of the tights back over the pads to hold them in place.

Silicone pads under tights has become the preferred method of wearing pointe shoe ejaculate in Vegas if the man wants his ballerina escort to dance in semen filled pointes. His load contained in her protective pads might lengthen the life of her shoes a tiny bit as it is less fluid softening the boxes. However, a far greater advantage of ejaculating into silicone toe pads is that after she dances the pads can be used as part of a gag (for either him or her) or as part of an erotic strip-tease after which the man can suck on her sweaty pads tasting his lovers estrogenic sweat and toe cheese as he thrusts into her G-spot or cervix. A clean set of toe pads should be used for each client. Any dancer using a topical anesthetic like Nupercainal cream should be sure to keep these medicated pads stored separately to prevent giving her lover toe-pads to suck on that had anesthetic cream in them.

Dancers with lovers into toe-play need to keep in mind that calluses on a girls un-taped toes immersed in semen filled toe pads will soften quicker so that sort of game should be played only briefly or when she has no major performances coming up so that if her calluses deteriorate she can recover before she needs the toe protection her calluses provide.

Toe pads as souvenirs: I know we are talking eroticism here, but from an economic standpoint the substitution of toe pads as souvenirs rather than the pointe shoes an escort was wearing during a commercial encounter has certain advantages. First it makes the souvenir less noticeable when the TSA or his wife is searching a clients luggage and second it reduces the cost considerably as there was often a lot of life left in an escort’s pointes that were being given away after a 5K encounter. However, if the client asks the escort will give him the shoes she was wearing when he inseminated her.