Mind-fucked

Afterglow; a partner with an encounter souvenir

The Photo: I’m indebted to my great friend and frequent reader Paul D for sharing this pic. I know women aren’t supposed to be as visually stimulated as men, but this photo is the sort of image that fuels our fantasies. A susceptible women, and we are all susceptible to a greater or lesser extent, can easily mind-fuck herself into believing he is Mr. Right, w/o knowing a thing about him other than that he has a great face superb body. His gloriously muscled arms, the flat belly, the strong jaw line, the lovely nose, half-closed eyes, beautiful full lips, the relaxed and sated look and last, but by no means least the Freed Studios hung around his neck that add a touch of mystery. Where the Freeds given in appreciation for his sexual conquest of their wearer, or where they taken as his due?

In my fantasy he is a white knight having mounted her and ridden to victory spewing seed deep inside coating her ripe cervix with millions of highly motile sperm. Or perhaps not if he was wearing a condom or she was on the pill, had an hormonal IUD inserted or was wearing a protective latex barrier in the form of a diaphragm or a silicone FemCap.

I could dream of those gorgeous lips parting and his tongue flicking in and out of my mouth searching for mine, his hand behind my head holding our mouths pressed tightly together as he finds and sucks my tongue. He shifts focus kissing my breasts, sucking milk from my rouged nipples then he moves lower to my flat belly and finally reaching my completely waxed groin licks and sucks my lower lips while fondling the shaft of my erect and swollen clit which is hard and throbbing causing me to orgasm as he sucks out my natural arousal juices. He says I taste of rubber which can only be the dome of my latex flat spring diaphragm. In my fantasy I think he rather likes the taste just as I do when my diaphragm is pulled out and stuffed in my mouth as a gag while I’m penetrated after being shoved up against a wall.

A problem in paradise: As much as I love his body, there is a problem with the man in the photo being my fantasy lover. The problem is the pointe shoes slung casually around his neck. How did he get them? I hope the man was given the Freeds by his partner. Readers who know me well know that I wouldn’t let a man untie the ribbons and remove my pointe shoes regardless of how good a lover he is and I don’t give away pointes as souvenirs of assignations. I’m reserving the privilege of removing my pointes for the man I marry; if there will ever be such a man. Having a man remove my pointe shoes will be the ultimate act of submission for me and I’m not about to let that happen except with my husband and it will be after we are married. But fantasizing about a casual lover wanting to remove my pointes and impregnate me in spite of the protection I’m using is a huge turn-on for me and I’m convinced it’s the same for all my male lovers.

Hitachi Magic Wands at the Sling Bar: A reader asked if the use of a Hitachi Wand is permitted in the Sling Bar. The short answer is yes. A customer can bring her own or a wand can be rented from the bartenders who are all women and familiar with how well they work on the clitoris. There are electrical outlets at each sling position and disposable ‘condoms’ for the wand heads if the wand is to be shared. The buzz of the powerful HMW vibrator isn’t distracting at all. It fits in with the background noise comprised of low conversations, the clink of ice in glasses, harness creaks, the soft thud of pelvises hitting, gasps, groans, moans, squeals and muffled screams as couples orgasm.

Bea trains at the Sling Bar: Having been fitted for a glamour harness and with her new ID I took her to get her current negative STI panel into the casino database and do a walk-through of the Sling Bar setup (while it was closed between five and seven AM) to show her how women customers move from the fitting and dressing rooms into Naughty’s and down the red carpeted catwalk to show off their bodies and chose a partner for the Sling Bar. Then we went into the bar and I showed her how to fasten her harness to the cable with its cable cape and she got the feel of how sensitive the winch control is. And while we were there I had her wrap her legs around my waist and gave her a clitoral orgasm with my own Hitachi. I had it on low and it was the first time she had had a HMW used on her and her orgasm was so strong I thought she was going to faint. When she lowered herself so she could unclip from the cable she was too rubber legged to stand by herself at first, but recovered enough to walk unassisted in a few minutes. It wasn’t our first girl-girl sex but it was certainly the most intense!

Confidence building at St Lucy’s

Some serious camel-toe

A Student’s confidence issues: The school psychologist at St Lucy’s asked me to work with a transfer student from France who is having a difficult time adjusting to the training regimen at the school. She is nearly 16 y/o with a lovely strong Balanchine body and her parents sent her to us so that she could develop even the most intimate of her physical skills as well as mental capacity to their full extent. Tanaquil had recommended St Lucy’s to them – the mom having been one of her courtesans - when Aimée was expelled for ‘lewd behavior’ with a professor at an elite Swiss Girls school. She is an only child and had been with tutors, her parents and their circle of adult friends none of whom showed her much affection during her formative years so while her verbal and cognitive skills are extremely well developed coming into puberty at a girl’s school she craved attention from her teachers, but especially from the males and would go to any lengths to get an older man interested in her.

The psychologist thinks that if I can get her interested in women as protectors in her life – she has already had penetrative sex with her male ballet and swimming instructors here - and then introduce her to boys more her age in a threesome she can be brought into the mainstream of student life at St Lucy’s. Not that the other SL students don’t crave sex with their male teachers when they can get it. I agreed because she is a delightful young women and being in a semi-medical relationship with Aimée - should it develop sexually - would allow me the freedom to explore more fully those facets of her sexuality she is willing to share. She often acts out in ballet class by presenting deep camel-toe while wearing thong bottom leotards in ballet class. These can be easily seen by her partner(s) through her sheer tights which we all wear over our leos for classes and rehearsals and her labia cleavage causes male dancers in her pas de deux class to lose concentration while partnering her.

Bonding through orgasm: I met Aimée in the Psychologists office and we sat with him while he explained to her what my place in her life at St Lucy’s would be. Then I took her down to The Clinic on campus and checked the fit of her diaphragm. She had been fitted with a 60 mm transparent pink silicone Semina diaphragm and that was the correct size, but I switched her to a 60 mm latex flat spring Reflexions which is what the professionals use for protection as a gas-guard during dive-sex because it is very difficult for a man to under-thrust the rim of a flat spring and latex transfers heat far better than silicone so it feels more natural to both partners. I gave her three of the Reflexions and had her information coded into RFID chips and the chips fixed to the domes of her new diaphragms. While I had my fingers inside her I asked her to tighten her vaginal muscles and was surprised at the strength in her grip for a 15 y/o, but then her mom had been a courtesan and I’m sure she taught her strengthening exercises and she is very sexually experienced for a 15 y/o from a wealthy family. While she was on the exam table Aimée said that with a diaphragm inserted she was afraid she wouldn’t be able to have a G-spot orgasm so I used my fingers to caress her G-spot through the thin stretchy dome of her diaphragm and quickly brought her to a gasping, moaning, screaming orgasm during which her muscles spasmed so tightly on my fingers it was painful. I think giving her that orgasm was the bonding experience she needed so we could become Best Friends Forever.

Individual protection responsibility: Since she is on the swim team I asked how often she wore her Semina and she told me doesn’t like to wear it. I said that if I was to help her she was going to have to wear one of her Reflexions all the time because otherwise she will be quickly caught w/o it and start accruing demerits. As a 15 y/o she had been able to get away w/o wearing her Semina because she was considered underage. I stopped her from being able to do that by adding her to the database of students needing an RFID chip to get into the ballet and pool areas of the school. She seemed pleased that I was treating her as an adult, which is what I do with all St Lucy’s students which is especially important when I’m working with a sexually adult but mentally immature female. I’m sure she had heard it all before during her orientation lecture, but this sort of information bears repeating so I explained that none of the men on the faculty use any sort of contraceptive protection and all are virile and potent so it is the responsibility of each student to protect herself from pregnancy. Any pregnancies will be terminated or the student will be expelled and that policy has worked well since it was adopted in the early 1970s.

I explained that adult women always inserted their diaphragms before going anywhere where they might meet a man so they would not be caught unprepared and That it was particularly important that she have a Reflexions inserted and properly positioned as a gas-guard during sex in or underwater because of the possibility of a partners thrusts forcing water or air bubbles into her uterus and causing an infection or an embolism. I explained that because St Lucy’s girls were so highly sexually active they were at much greater risk of upper reproductive tract problems if no gas-guard was used. I told her that professional women who specialized in underwater sex all wore gas-guards and we do. She seemed to look forward to wearing her diaphragm as an indication that she was being treated as an adult and was responsible for her own protection.

STI and hCG testing at St Lucy’s: As additional protection all faculty and students are tested for STIs once a month (I’m tested every 2 weeks because of the number of partners I have) and every student is tested for hCG once a week. Aimée is currently on the progestin-only-pill Cerazette where each pill contains 75mcg of the progestin desogestrel the first metabolite of which is etonogestrel the progestin used in Implanon and NuvaRing. Cerazette is a good pill for a progestin-only-pill as it allows the user to be as much as 12 hours late taking her pill with no decrease in her protection. Even so, because the progestin dries her out so she needs lots of intimate lube to be penetrated comfortably and she has to take a pill every day I’m trying to get her to have a GyneFix IUD implanted. That way she will be well protected for 5 years and can enjoy the hormonal swings of her natural cycles which is one of the great joys of being a woman.

When I asked her what interested her sexually besides older men she said she found she is attracted to toe-shoes – she wears Freed Studios and enjoys wearing them – because of how they feel and look on her feet and because they make her legs look lovely when she has her feet pointed or is on her toes. She also likes the scent, look and feel of latex and she likes to breastfeed. The breastfeeding answer surprised me! She said she learned she enjoyed human milk and breast feeding from one of her women instructors at the Swiss school to whom she went for comfort when rejected by a male teacher. Another surprise was that I’d never found a teen who, after training in pointe shoes for several years, still likes to wear them. Aimée has been wearing pointes since she was 11 y/o and her ballet teacher says she has amazing stamina as well as technique so 4 years is long enough for her to have the thrill wear off and be glad to take her toe-shoes off as soon as she can if she wasn’t drawn to and enjoys wearing them for psychological reasons, because they make her feel she is more adult sexually. I’m going to have to be careful while mentoring Aimée that Cyndi and Gigi don’t become jealous of my attention to her, but they both are into men now and so I think I can get them to accept her in my life.

Cara & Gigi are Kitted out

Day dreaming while changing into dry shoes

Cara becomes involved: Returning readers will remember Cara, Pirate’s niece, the 24 y/o Ph D candidate in Psychology at Harvard who is here to learn first hand some of the joys and problems of professional escorts for her doctorial thesis. [She first appeared in my blog on 12-09-09 and has settled in well.] She has asked to accompany me on some clean-up operations to see what sometimes happens to escorts if an encounter goes badly. I think it’s great that she wants to see how even the most beautiful and skilled women can be brutalizes and butchered when things go wrong. That way she gets to see the whole picture for herself, that it’s not all great sex, meals in fancy restaurants and attending parties as arm candy. To prepare for coming with Taryn and me I had her fitted for a gas and liquids proof encasement suit and soft latex boots with gripper soles for walking around on messy and slippery floors. Gepetto makes our BioGard suits, hoods, gloves and boots and we usually wear Mestel 400 gasmasks so I had Cara fitted for a Mestel as well. As things have gone recently we are overdue for a call to do a clean up

Gigi: I just took 16 y/o Gigi, Jacques first biological daughter who entered St Lucy’s for the spring semester, to be fitted for a gas guard and a Penetrator plug. She already wears Freed Studios pointes which fit well enough so there is no reason to change them for now. Since her mom was one of Tanaquil’s ‘toe-girls she has had Gigi taking ballet since she was four y/o and pointe since she was ten, so after six years of pointe three hours a day four days a week she has excellent pointe technique and is very strong. Chuck, the male Gyn at our clinic fit her with a 60 mm Semina transparent silicone diaphragm as a gas guard. Gigi is already an accomplished SCUBA diver – her family has a place at saint Tropez - so she looking forward to learning dive-sex techniques which Cyndi has already been telling her about.

Gigi is menstrual: Fortunately she has very regular cycles and comfortable menses so there is no need for her to medicate. The GyneFix she has been wearing for a year she adjusted to after several cycles and it hasn’t caused her periods to be heavier so she is very pleased with the level of comfort and protection her mini-GyneFix has provided. I’ve shown her how to use her Semina diaphragm for flow control while having sex. She has used a Diva Cup successfully but of course that has to be removed for penetrative sex. So today she has been practicing with Robin who will be her orientation partner.

She wasn’t supposed to have sex with any man other than Robin until he has taken her through the St Lucy’s terms and conditions for taking my Advances Sexual Techniques class. However, one of Cyndi’s roommate’s older brother was visiting and was horny for sex in the red sea – his GF at UNLV is on the pill and hardly bleeds at all during her pill period - and when he heard Gigi was menstrual he “persuaded” her to let him take her in a corner of the common room against the barre and he took her from behind. She slipped into 3” heels so she was a good match for his height. Unfortunately, when he gave her a vaginal (G-spot) orgasm her vaginal muscle contractions were so strong that when he thrust into one of her contractions he tore his frenulum so he was in great pain and passing a lot of blood. Cyndi came in after the guy had given Gigi her orgasm, had hurt himself and was struggling to pull himself free. She thought it was just Gigi’s flow leaking around her Semina until she saw the guy’s face twisted in pain and tears running down his cheeks and he was cursing and calling her a ‘man-eater’. Gigi knew what had happened, because she had had the same problem with young uncircumcised French men and knew right away she had unintentionally injured him. Though later she told me he said he was ‘looking for ‘tight French pussy’ and she hoped she hadn’t disappointed him. I love her dry sense of humor! Cyndi and Gigi packed his penis in ice and dropped him off at a nearby ER.

Male protection: Gigi isn’t in trouble over his injury because she told him before he penetrated her that she was new to St Lucy’s and hadn’t finished orientation and shouldn’t have sex. St Lucy’s believes that, in the spirit of full disclosure, girls with very strong vaginal muscles, should warn their partner’s that it might be safer for them to wear condoms because of the strength of their ‘vaginal grip’ if the boy is concerned about the possibility that he might tear. Because of the significant strengthening of vaginal muscles from pointework all the St Lucy’s girls taking pointe are given a supply of polyurethane, Lambskin and FC2 condoms (because those male condoms can’t be burst – but they can be pulled off) to carry in their purses or dancebags in case a partner asks for protection. However, few men ask even to use an FC2 because it would appear that he was afraid of what a ‘mere girl’ could do to his manhood and that’s a psychological bridge most men are not prepared to cross even at the risk of a debilitating injury.

Raped: He was very insistent and would not take no for an answer, so rather than struggle with a man 6 years older and 70 pounds heavier than she, she decided to let him have his way and see if he enjoyed what he was so adamant about getting. When I heard about her encounter the saying ‘be careful what you wish for’ came immediately to mind. She could charge him with rape but Gigi feels he probably is suffering enough and she has become the talk of the dorm for the strength of her vaginal grip and injuring a rapist. The students are trying to keep the incident quiet but the administration will almost certainly hear of it if he files an insurance claim saying the injury occurred at St Lucy’s.

Getting kitting out at Gepetto’s: I also took Gigi to Gepettos. She was measured for two latex encasement suits. One in heavy black rubber and one transparent body condom, and a pair of Pleasure boots. All for her limited introduction into the fetish scene here in the valley. Fortunately she is of age (16 is the age of consent in Nevada) so we don’t have to worry about the gray area of parental consent for under age sexual training.

Reproductive tract protection and RFID: I’ve covered this before but since both Cara and Gigi are new to Vegas I’ll mention it again. All women entering St Lucy’s as well as our casino’s Escort candidate training have RFID chips attached to their gas guards this is so that when they enter a location where gas guards are required - the pool area or the fetish training studios - the chip readers will only allow them entry if they are wearing their cervical protection. This helps the women remember to insert before leaving their dorm or dressing room to avoid the embarrassment of being publicly stopped. After a week or two it becomes second nature for a woman to insert her gas guard before leaving her dorm or apartment.